learn you inside out

bang,if you weren't married, i'd thought we were made for each other. asyik nampak you jer. hurhurhur

28th december-the night out with my sec sch lovers were great. fortrd's such a beautiful dating place. minus the bau ikan of course. one of these days people, we'd have dinner again. this time, everyone must make it,no one should leave early, everyone must have inputs HAHA and someone should at least bring a digicam okay. jangan kental.

27th december- my TTC. thanks for the fun, the presents and the treat Divo! sekolah dah nak start per? soo not ready!

26th december- the shisha nite with kiky and zah. talking bt marriage and the criterias we want our life partner to have. gosh, we're so old already huh. dah jadi minah and mat kahwin-kahwin dah pun!over gituk.cant wait to meet Amin too this sunday!

24th december- thanks, you. had fun. for keeps huh?

note: everything's complete except for an outing with kekeks. come on girls, bila lagi?

btw, i can't get over the fact that benazir bhutto's assassinated. sigh. after reading biographies/autobiographies of how muslim women were and are being treated at the other end of the world, i always dream of standing up for them you know, making a change and everything. but it's soo soo scary. shikin macam paham seh.

i need lifehouse's old CDs. the new one-damn good lah. i love you jason wade.

ok bye people. =D

jangan nak start with the FKK.

p.s:omg. are u guys together or what?

lifehouse

i'm so tired of worrying
i'm so tired of thinking too much
i'm so tired of being pressured
i'm so tired of sighing
i'm so scared of fun
i'm so scared of really having fun
i'm so pissed with emotions
his,hers,mine,theirs
i'm so scared of what's next

maybe we should just stop now huh?
since i've let u down already.

jason wade, i need you.take me away.

NOW.

sucky.sucky.sucky.feeling.feeling.feeling.

why don't you and I

Korangs, I was walking at Orchard just now, when I met..... Nicole Ritchie Nicold Bitchie.
not funny. i know. i'm bored.
btw, ewan, i nak kenal-kenal ngan you boleh?

ok shuddap.
Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha korangs!
BAIK TTC! Alhamdulillah!!
Love!
:)

of 3 years, marriage and being mom

Hello people! I'm back again. from kay-el, again. haha.was a pretty damn fun 4 days trip. lots of laughter and stupid (or WHAT?) jokes, lotsa screaming, lotsa sleeping (!) yes!, lotsa bargaining like nobody's business and many many more. an experience worth remembering. Bangkok next year or WHAT!

my roomies. TEPUK TEPUK PLUS NOD AND POUT. Baik aishah! Baik diy!! Baik shikin!!

Baik Airi!!
Baik Reduan!!!

Baik Diva!! Baby, you stupid or what?

But Baby wins, hands down.

Baik Baby!!

anyways, results are gonna be out prettay soon. Kak Mar just said it might be tomorrow. oh no!! results to worry about. and time table too! dahlah my GESL timeslot's on friday 5.30 to 7.30. crazy per. and so much for me anticipating tt the exco would reply my mail. well thanks kirby, airi, farhan and zhong fa. at least u guys agree with me! i guess the other EXCO members are dead. blaarrdyy helll. aku give up. sungguh.

dad called. his best friend passed away last friday and he only found out abt it through the newspaper today. my old man must be devastated. i cant imagine how i'd feel if smtg like that happens to me. and they have known each other long before their army days. and i've visited him before, last yr's raya i think. such a nice, sweet and extremely funny guy. this year tak visit pulak."nevermind, takde time" was the reason, now there's no more listening to his animated jokes and kissing our hands. sigh.

salam takziah kepada keluarga Allahyarham Shaikh Khalid Bin Shaikh Mohammad Baktal. semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya. Al-fateha. Amin.

ok on a more happier note, Adik dapat take O levels! I'm so proud of you! :) grab the opportunity hokay!!

i'm suddenly in love with wherever you will go by the calling. alex band's vocals, wow. and bless the broken road's ooh soo good. i soo love multiply :) and i'm buying the lifehouse CD! woot!

every long lost dream

led me to where you are

others who broke my heart

they were like nothern stars

pointing me on my way

into your loving arms

this much i know it's true

that God blessed the broken road

that led me straight to you

sigh. i told you it's good.

anyways, I met this guy and i'm in love.

me and diy got so crazy my hands were shaking seh. i love you que haidar. hehe

ok bye people. bye Que. i still want reza though.

Much love!

you'd learn to accept my flaws over time. u really mean that?

non-stop

hey people! so i'm back, with a sore stomach. confirm makan byk sangat. and i cannot wait to go Kay-el again, with the NIE people-diy,shah,diva,wan,baby,airi. confirm gerek. so aishah, u better get well soon babe. biar tak sexy, asal cool. aha. oh no ni bukan self-proclaiming that we're cool hor. understand understood. ramai orang dah kirim benda. u think i'll buy for u people or not? hehe.

i miss my people. my kekeks. for the record, we've yet to get idah and rozie presents!and khammie, dapat jumpa john-john tak? and i miss siti who has a rawr bf. hehe.i miss my 4(th) best, zah,kiky,amin, once in a while awal. i miss chewy and liza. i miss zako, we've yet to go out on a date again. HAHA. i dunno whether i miss rabz or not. hmmm.

sidetrack sikit.

Happy Belated Birthday Wacky! 10 yrs of friendship already izzit? WO!

i kinda miss school. the journey and everything. but i don't want the assignments and exams. baru dapat DCD100's timeslot and it already sucks. and i dont even wanna see or know my marks. takut! and i dunno what's in store for me once school reopens. more magic? HAHA! inside joke.

KL with family was jalan masjid india, as usual. haha and throughout our 3 days there, it rained and rained. boring. i slept at 10 pm on the first night. wow. twintowers look like gotham city with the fog and everything.

it was fun seeing my nephews, nieces and cousins at kampung. minus the cats. no, i didnt get to ride a bike. but i turned rocker kampung and minah beca though. hehe. i hope the family take good care of themselves. and live healthy. sometimes the situation's just sad laah.

rocker tak menjadi.

minah beca pun tak menjadi. nephews and nieces as passengers.

right. will update more smart stuff. kokill's shrieking.

mat msia's pick up line-"menarik bau.."

Very Original.

take care loves.
ps: nasi ayam penyet is not boring.

asphyxiated

I hate the way my life's unfolding itself. History is repeating and no, me no like these things.

Nonetheless, I'm so relieved that I've let that out. a burden off my back. macam nak tersenyum pun ada. kan best kalau jujur. HAHA.

u know what else made me smile the whole weekend? Shiko's wedding of course!! Semoga berkekalan hingga ke 6 anaks, cucu2, cicit2 dan ke syurga! insya-Allah. Amin. I'm so happy and jealous at the same time. Rozan's gonna take very good care of you i'm sure. Boleh nampak. Penyayang eh.. very husband material! ahaha

here's da happy pictures!

ni belum nikah lagik. tangan sejuk oi.

tengok ni pengantin baru nikah. sempat buat TTC pose. korang best!

ni sanding the next day. So jambu!and so tersentuh!aku so nak kahwin!

cikgu-cikgus in the making. HAHA.

"MARI MURID-MURID!KITA MULA DENGAN TARIK NAFAS!"

*haha inside joke*

i had milo godzilla worth of fun!datok datin pun! selamat pengantin baru! haha

ok anyways, i wanna make a shoutout to Diy. Diy, YOU WATCH OUT ah! DORE also!!aishah ngan aku confirm menyetan.

hehe ok. this post macam boring eh. wth.

to my kawan-kawans especially diy, shah and dore. thanks for bearing with the whatevers. sesungguhnya korang amat penyabar haha. kalau dia mula, jangan dilayankan lah yer. semoga dipertemukan jodoh. InsyaAllah. Amin.

bye people! aku nak balik kampung!handsome kampung boy, i'm baaaccckkk!!!

coincidence

sometimes the things you really want most, you can't get, so u'll just have to settle for second best. would u really wanna settle for second best when u still believe that THE BEST is still out there somewhere?then,what if second best is, in fact, the best, but u already missed out on that, just because you're in denial all along?

faham tak?

tak faham sudah.

aku amat tersentuh dengan kata-kata Dore. i can never write as well as this. at least our trip and worries were worth it :)

sungguh bersyukur aku mempunyai rakan yang sangat menjaga kehidupanku tidak menghiraukan kesusahan atau kesenangan. Kamu semua akan ku cintai sepanjang hayat sebagai orang yang telah menghargai kehadiranku di dalam hidupmu semua. Apa yang dapat ku balaskan mungkin tidak setimpal. Namun, ku pohon doa restu kehadrat mereka agar sentiasa berada dalam keceriaan dan ketakwaan yang tidak terkira di dunia mahupun di akhirat kelak...kesetiaanmu amat memberikan ketenangan kepada insan yang sederhana sepertiku..Alhamdulillah di atas kehadiran dan persahabatanmu semua selama ini ....Amin... Insyaallah bertemu lagi...

to the miss i've known for SO long, 9 years in fact. what happened to us? why can't things just be the same like it was before? when we can talk and share about everything? when 'u noe i can't smile without you' really means soo much? a new addition and everything changes? wads with the formality? all those years means nothing already huh?

sedih kan.

to the miss i've just known. be strong, love. as cliche as it may sound, kita merancang, Tuhan yang menentukan. kalau dia memang ditakdirkan untuk kau, everything will fall back into place. trust me. Big Hug and u always have us. a phone call, voice call or even a voice clip away :)

aku so emo. aku punya suka lor.

hehe bye!

kay-el and kampung, so tak sabar.

love,
shikin

ps:could it be you? or you? or wait.. you eh?

love personified

and of course, love is also the one taking the photo.

;P

SOLARIZE

aku dah semakin menyampah.kau seriously bebual bodek ah boy.tak yah nak belit-belit sebab semua orang dah tahu da real truth, there's no point covering up everything. it will only make u look even worse.

aku so rasa macam nak maki infront of your face.after what u did. and because of what you're doing now. tapi i just can't do it. kau macam really trying so hard. kesian. urgh.

astaghfirullah. shikin, kenapa full of hatred? ish ish ish

ok takyah nak geram-geram. so buang current. amacam kita solarize chill?

oh tidak. belum bisa chill. one more paper to go. the dreaded one, sastera. banyaks to belajar. kemalasan meningkat.come on come on!!lepas tu jer boleh enjoy!

btw, my first paper was great lah. aku suka. sebab everthing i studied, kluar,thanks to the revision lecture also. alhamdulillah. belajar last minute tau. biasalah, what's new. still got the cheek to go Linkin Park. But absolutely no regrets baby.

my $150 was damn worth it. walaupun tak bawak camera. hell, chester was within 2 metres away from me.AHH.tapi i wouldnt want to go for a free standing rock concert anymore. an experience is enough. I swear kalau aku mati at that time(kena pijak ke, pekik-pekik kena heart attack ke) , terus ke Neraka jahanam. astaghfirullah!!dah lah tu, bila balik, i revised a bit and when i slept, chester was screaming at my left ear and i heard GESERAN, LETUPAN on the other. over kan.

heheh. tapi dengar-dengar tetap nak pergi MCR. oh yeah baby :)

erm lagik satu comment, Pentas was a big yawn but caca was da bomb. tu jer.

and why do I always have the sweetest yet weirdest dreams? dasar mentel.

bye semua. I love my friends. a lot.peace and solarize.

hair-y

aiseyman. my goatee boy got gerl already. sungguh kecewa. but looking at it positively, he's just ninefreakingteen. so masih anak-anak. tapi tetap hot jadi mak kasi you 10 points. keep dat abang-abang look ok.and your girlfriend punyalah cute kiky kalau nampak he'll go crazy. kiky: BAH!

me, sis and my 2 aunts went to watch zainal abidin. powerlah that man. such an impressive entertainer. dia nyanyi lagu Tarzan. wow! though i didnt know the lyrics most of the time, my head was bobbing lah. and abang bassist tu single kan. cute seh. haha. and zainal's such a selamba guy lah. his jokes were so relek and funnynakmampos. he kept saying the place is grand and everything but takde tangga for him to go down and meet the audience. then when he sang lagu 'Hijau' he came over towards this pakcik and pointed the mic at him. Pakcik pun steady ah, stood up and sang. POWER. and u know what zainal did?? he actually grabbed da pakcik's cheeks and kissed his forehead and his cheeks. HAHAHA.

abeh zainal continued singing and he stopped..ckp "Asal macam rasa masin ni? Bang, asal kepala u masin?"

heheh. then at the last song, ada makcik2 tgh feeling ah. so they put up their hands and swayed left and right. si zainal ni tgh2 lagu dia boleh ckp "Cik jangan angkat tinggi sangat, kesian orang sebelah. dari sini boleh nampak bulu ketiak" Siak kan. and there's gay and pondan jokes in between lah.. think 'sokongan dari belakang'. muahahaha. funny funny.

carousel after that. kalau dikira, tahun ni dah macam 5 ke 6 kali makan kat sana. mengalahkan orang kaya.

oh before that, pizza with TTC. yang memang selalu best sampai nangis-nangis. followed by movies with cousins. also gerek. 'Game Plan' is soo good lah. The Rock's a charmer. and the girl, uber cute. TTC pics still with divo. cousins pic di bawah ni. look how much we've grown. ooh.

sebenarnya tujuan aku nak bebual pasal rambut. and how hair plays a part in attracting the opposite sex.not for me though. anuar zain exception. duh. i suka crew cuts. so its ok. tapi hair in girls. Guys, u tell me.. u prefer long hair or short hair. on the head, TTC, on the head. sigh. what's in a name hair?

i recall the conversation i had with an old friend yesterday. Tak pernah ok kita chat. then he suddenly asked hows school, giving me motivation, asking me whether i'm going to blabla, then he suddenly said "Eh ur hair's long already. macam dah lama tak nampak u with long hair. dah lama gitu tak meet up. when was the last time?"..abeh sampai tukar topic which movie to watch semua........ohkay. cuba kalau rambut aku tomboy. sikit pun kau tak pandang eh. haha

tapi for now i'm loving the attention. wait till i cut my hair again. rimas rimas aku rimas.

countdown. 22 hours to chester's sweat on my head. tak boleh tahsyan.tak boleh tunggu.

tapi part exams. procrastinate.

kurang ajar. :P

sing me something new

Alhamdulillah. edupsych1 dah habis. phew. i don't even wanna think about it anymore. tapi u can't help but feel da stress. 60% tau. takut!

now tinggal dore's notes. which i'm super lazy to even start on.but MUST do! untuk benefit semua orang lah katakan. and, jangan lupa, need to study lor.

sastera + linguistik exams = mampos kau shikin kalau belajar last minute.

anyways, i'm gonna really let my hair down before exams. cannot wait!!! lepas tu nak pegi massage. maybe ah.

oh u know what? cahaya cinta is back in action lah. you know i know lah eh orang tu. Let's see. gimme more evidence people. lek ah orang tu jangan stress heheh, just a gut feeling.

tapi aku suka biler kau stress pasal ni. so sexciting!

ok zainal abidin this saturday. nak kena hafal lirik lagu hijau. haha.

Oh..anok-anok

tokleh meghaso mandi laok

Besaing,maing ghama-ghama

Ale lo ni tuo umurnyo bejuto

Kito usoho

Jauhke dari malapetako

Ozon lo ni koho nipih nak nak aghi

Keno make asak

Hok biso wei,pasa maknusio

Seghemo bendo-bendo di dunio

Tokleh tehe

Sapa bilo-bilo

betul? suker? nyanyi rame-rame yok!

ok dah. random again.

ps: you, i suka ur goatee. muahaha.

shuddap.

bye!!

bubbly-not

so i watched the video amin told us about. and yeah i cried watching it. how can they even do such a thing to an old man seh. where's ur sense of respect? ni dah kira aniaya. Tsk Tsk Tsk. imagine how the uncle's kids would be feeling right now knowing their dad, who's earning an honest living, even at his old age, was humiliated like that. the 3 guys are super LOW lah.

SIGH.

anyways. i truly need to scream right now. but i dont really know why. URGH.

miss red has yet to visit me. Hello? taknak datang sudah but dont make me have moodswings lah please eh.

sastera essay down. EduPsych1 essay and sastera notes next. Come on Shikin!Jangan malas!

i cut my fringe. macam senget sikit but who cares. i just feel like having bangs when i see the scissors. tangan gatal. i know. LALALA.

what the hell is wrong with me??

see what i mean by moodswings now?

tapi takpe,

You're a STRONG BLACK WOMAN!

anyways. i love Lifehouse. like A LOT.

byelah.

like OMG

eh kawans! i was reading up on Hamzah Fansuri (ceh!) and i came across one of his karyas i.e.
Sharab al-'ashiqin ("The Lovers' Beverage"). since sharab is wine, ashiqin must be lovers. gasp.

gedebak gedebuk.

so nur ashikin really means cahaya pencinta after all.

oh the irony.

tapi now i understand why my gut feeling's always spot-on.

i So love my name.

ok ciaoz!

motivational theories

WO. kalau tutup blog pun cantik. just when i thought i have all the time in the world to blog, you guessed it, aku malas. But seriously, I'd rather sleep (or friendsterhop) whenever I'm free rather than blog. Lagipun, who's free seh sekarang? I have 2 + 1 freaking essays to complete. And the problem is I'm not even motivated to start. Whenever I start reading on Hamzah Fansuri, Wan terus duduk at my eyelids. Tapi tadi, me, diy and aishah made an effort to find books, so tepuk-tepuk!We were such suckers though, laughing at the books we see in the library and associating them to us (i shall not mention who).

So what's been up? Dah november kan. how fast. idah's present pun belum beli. sigh! i have 2 papers to study for, one of which is a real pain-in-the butt lah, for the sole reason that i'm totally clueless over every single thing, right from the start. how? urgh. revision lecture pun tak guna. wth. I need a sastera tutor. a hot one would be great. heh. kidding.

anyways diy, tadi lepas kau turun kat Jurong jer aku tido. Ok not really. I looked through the HUGE braginsky book, sighed, and tido. And guess what? aku ternganga lor. and i was kinda frowning. dahi berkerut and mulut ternganga. how demure.must be the stress. confirm mahaburuk even diva would be disgusted to record me on her fujifilm camera. tapi i'm amazed i dont really bother. selekeh and everything. that's so me lah kan. tapi rambut cantik. sebab rebond.

apa yang aku membebel.

OH yah. jalan raya with TTC was MPV-loads of fun i tell you. Too bad lah si nad tak ikut. kental.
kita basically makan.ketawa. kutuk each other.makan. ketawa. kutuk each other. well we do dat all the time seh. what is wrong with us? hehe.
i don't really have the pictures. this will do. love and friendship takes on a TOTALLY different meaning when it comes to you suckers. love. orh orh orh.

dah. nak start romancing hamzah fansuri already. good luck people! Kekeks, besok jumpa, yahoo!

much love!

duwapulohsatu

how long has it been seh? it's like i cannot be bothered to blog anymore. tapi friendster and bloghopping tetap suatu kemestian.

anyways,

raya doesnt feel like raya anymore. to date, i've only been out jalan raya-ing on the first day. and i was sleeping in the bus most of the time. gawd.

advanced pay is such a sucker now that it's almost gone and i've yet to pay my bills.
School's a bigger sucker coz we're so overloaded with assignments, projects, presentations, essays and intimidating exam papers. jiu ming ah!only looking forward to the last day of exams and obviously, the next pay day. SIGH.
Reduan pun sucker jugak sebab dia habis kul 7 plus tadi.
i feel so bimbotic and i need more time for everything,to sleep too in fact, so i'm a sucker too.

diy, i hate gastric and we want you back.

and i met a potential husband material in NIE. but too bad too bad, dah tunang. or dah ada gf.
oh the cruelty.
and ada orang tu sekolah NTU. oh yeh sebelah-sebelah kita yer. weeweet.

and i think this post is totally mengarut. tapi my brain cells are screaming for help, i'm mentally exhausted, i'm physically drained from running to catch the bus (exaggeration besar nyer) and i have a LOT of things in my mind, so aku tak kisah.

TTC thank you for keeping me sane everyday.
Aishah, dengar pantun dua keratku,

jan(tan) dari NTU
Happy 21st birthday to you.

amacam?

hehe. don't worry. i'll come up with hamzah fansuri-like syairs/pantuns just for you. soon babe, soon.

bye semua
selamat hari raya
maaf zahir batin :)

menghapus jejakmu

oh my god. I cannot believe i'm still in pain. out of my infamous history of menstrual cramps, this would have to be the longest. dah dua hari ohkay. tidur pun boleh rasa kesakitannya. haiyah.this sucks lor. (take note:begin:25/7)

by the way, TTC, aku sayang korangs. u people keep me sane. insya-Allah we've got each others' backs alright!

aku sengaja tak taruk gambar snoop dogg. takut orang mintak autograph.love korangs!

heh.i cant wait to buka with kekeks this friday. rindu teramat sangat.

and dear ex-crush, are u plain bored or

are u flirting with me?

muahahaha!

i loike ;p

gatal kan?

what's new?

bye!

much love,

shikin

heh.

hoho

right so i'm unmotivated to finish up the assignment.here i am busy playing online chuzzle and blogging away. go try chuzzle people. be warned-it's addictive.
finished part of the assignment yesterday. i actually started typing away at 3am!dah semangat nak start at 12, when dad ajak everyone to mustaffa. hurhurhur. then sempat makan chapati kul 2 pagi!da dhal's so yummy ohkay. go try the vegetarian restaurant opposite mustaffa. then reached home around 2plus, started typing, and heard a loud crash. apparently, ada 2 teksi berlanggar kat my carpark. and my whole kaypo family panjat the almari just to look at what's happening downstairs. siap ada ambulance semua you!but orang kalau nampak kita dari bawah, can only see our heads at the tingkap kecik.cute kan kita? oh wells.

anyways, i had a dream tadi pagi. it made me feel so..erm...entah eh.tapi korang guarantee tersentuh after i tell u what it's about.

ok. so i have this guy friend whom i havent met, sat down with and gelak ketawe with in a very very long time.
and i dreamt about him.
dah tu jer.

HAHA.

ok fine. what about?

there he was sitting, opposite me. we saw each other and behaved like schoolgirls yang dah lama tak jumpa. serious, aku tak bedek. holding hands and jumping. BUT, we didnt say anything. after a moment we realised how we were behaving, then stopped.

lepas ni part touching lor.

we then held hands. baring. and gazed at the stars.

and it ended there.

kinda weird right? kita tak berbual and all the while kita tgh pimpin tangan.

so touching lor.

whatever seh shikin.

but the dream made me realise how much i miss him. so yah, hey you, i miss you! ingat, we made a promise k!

ok i'm gonna start my assignment now.

eh wait.

dah nak buka?

muahahahaha.

bye all.selamat berbuka puasa dan jangan gelojoh.

much love!

mangkuk

Assalamualaikum! hello semua. sebelum saya mula, ingin saya mengucapkan Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan kepada semua umat Islam. Jangan hanya tak makan dan minum sahaja yer?Yang lain-lain tu jaga!

Pandai eh aku ajar orang? truth is, I've been feeling super lazy these days. Everytime i switch on the lappie, there'd be other things I'll be doing except for... yes, my assignments. Gawd! Kau tengok aper aku tengah buat sekarang. Disgraceful seh Shikin! I have no idea why. and I've been annoying myself lately. And i get annoyed over the slightest things also. Mesti PMS. maknanya Miss Red is coming, maknanya no full Ramadhan for me!urgh!

i've got tons of things to do...my individual differences reflection 1, my lesson plan, tutorial to be typed and my classroom management assignment. tapi aku malas!aku bosan!aku penat padahal tak buat apa2 except for baring and watch teevee.

i need my motivation. boohoo!

internal server error

Ok seriously, we do not need this from you ryte now. Ada ke bila semangat kentalku tgh meluap-luap, i can't even log in to blackboard.bak kata pepatah mat-minah sekarang, potong stim betul ah! seelah, the disavantages of e-learning. sigh.

nak tahu something, my honest opinion? I don't like meredith grey anymore. so miang nak mampos. i guess she doesnt even deserve those two guys (mcdreamy and mcsteamy). mungkin kalau nak mcdaddy boleh dapat, tapi confirm mcmummy bingit. inside joke btw. oooh but i'm beginning to lurve alex. that's his name i think. very sweet. and hot too.

actually this post cuma nak vent out anger jer. I'm gonna semangat-ly write my answers. yes people, write. so, no more online for tonight. if u have time, go think of a name for my lappie. I wanted to settle for Budi (but it's taken by my beloved monkey)..or maybe..Jebat.cute kan? dasar cikgu melayu belajar sastera! tapikan, what's in a name, that which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet?... then da reply would be.. my lappie, your lappie?

ok inside joke again. overdose of TTC already.heh.

anyways, i want to share this sonnet with you. yer, saya tahu. saya harus membaca puisi2 dan prosa2 melayu sekarang. but no harm ryte? shakespeare, u're ma man!

A MARRIAGE OF TRUE MINDS
Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come:
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

ahhhhhhhh very beautiful. if only i can write like that. apasal aku macam emo hari ni eh? Hmmmmmmm entah mak pun tak tahu!

dah tu jer. 'sadarku akan hadirmu, mematahkan sendi-sendi yang biasanya tegak berdiri'.

salam cinta!bye!

lantai t. pinkie

hey yalls. one more week to Ramadhan. Dah habis bayar belom? ish ish ish. Sama lah kita. so much for updating every Friday eh Shikin? lol. i've been too happy being free on Fridays that I can't be bothered to blog. So what's been up?

Believe it or not, i was one of the 16 yr ones who took part in Sidang Asyqyn in August, some soon to be yearly affair by the Malay Committee in NIE. perform ohkay. shikin perform? wo!tak percaya seh. well, though it was merely for a good 2 minutes plus plus, and not forgetting the 3 days rehearsals, i tink we did pretty good. Whatever it is, I guess the bond and experience we shared totally make the others wish they had volunteered and joined us. like totally!muahaha. lagipun, we kinda met a perfect calon husband for ourselves. sigh.

Pilihan..WO!

and then what else? Oh yeah. MJS had a teachers day dinner at furama city centre last Friday night.Fairoz and I decided to put on kebaya nyonyas. We had some jepun sesats and a very nice korean outfit. cute!aku sampai kena label lantai t. pinkie. confirm sebab hot. oh wells, what's new.but it was fun catching up with the ex-colleagues. kinda disappointing to learn bt the boys and the department though. buat ku rindu jer dengan da-nakals there. fyi, i'm still having a love-hate relationship with the school and everything. hmmm.

other than that, we had our first test and i guess i screwed it big time. It's like a slap to my face lah. How long has it been since i wrote in proper malay language? reading the notes pun aku kena translate to english. So when it comes to writing, i have no idea how to put them in correct malay terms. mampos. very bad ohkay. gone were the days when i thought i was the best ML scorer.ryytee shikin. bygones.need to readup. especially for sastera. all the hikayats. go KIN go!

lagik aper? Finally met my 2 current(and will always be)lovers.Aqil and Shasha. This time around best, sebab dorang tak tido. So I got to carry them!alah cute lah sangat. They have a tendency to stare at cameras. Haha!Bilalah aku nak kahwin? Jeng jeng jeng. Soalan bonus.Need to find someone first right? Anyone? LOL.

Ok bye!Take care peeps!

wo!

Hey guys! it's been a while huh. and confirm korang semua are desperate for my updates. I guess the only time I'll update will be on Fridays, almaklumlah tak sekolah. Muahahaha. But it also depends on my mood. and semangat kental. oh wells.

yeah anyways, the 2nd week of school's over. Got to meet the classmates, the tutors, lecturers etc. Pretty ohkay lah I must say, pretty scary too coz I've been lazy, too lazy in fact to do anything. Macam belum sink in gituk-the fact that I'm paid to do this and any wrongdoings will get me booted off plus minus $60k. Wo! Well, maybe the fact that i already have a blardy presentation in the 4th week will motivate me. ....um, right.


I haven't told you bt the people I've met in NIE ryte. Kekeks and anyone else reading this, meet the awesome people who got me through each day.


(from left)Diy 'seksa'--Nazzie 'Diva/Divo'-- Mairah 'Baby' -- Shikin 'Rawks' and yang kat bawah tu, my tawaf partner in the trains, Aishah 'Brutal'. It's amazing how we clicked the moment we met and now there's never any moments when we wont be laughing seh. sampai nak terkencing kat seluar pun ada. Insya-Allah we'll motivate each other for the next 2 years k. Main, gelak ketawa tu perlu, tapi belajar and discipline number satu hor! crossover babes!Sayang korangs:)

Oh and did i tell you me and brutal were practically cursed in one of the classes. serious, tak bedek. Believe it or not, people are actually dissing us hurhurhur. Kita tak kisah lah. Come on, you know me, aku tak tahu malu and i'm quite vocal, if i'm not happy i'll tell,so please kalau tak sebulu, tak suka, boleh backoff. you dont have to be rude. You can just memberontak inside.Kekeks, i will tell you all when we meet. Therefore, we MUST meet, i Miss you people big time seh!!!and i want to update kekekcorner tapi cam tak boleh. Idah, you changed the username eh?point is.. I MISS MY KEKEKS!

Right so what else happened in the past 2 weeks,I heard a lot of stories of a certain someone.hmm a leopard never change it's spots.betul meh? suka hati kaulah nak, kau pun dah besar. But i still dont get it how you can continue with your lives when there's a good friend hurting behind all these. sigh yang tu kawan pun satu nyer bahlol patut kena smack kat dahi seh.budak2 jaycee semua gini kot? no offence. HA!

ok last friday, i met one of my lovers. His name is

PASHA!!

Dai band Ungu dong! ya iyalah! Dari Indon!Let me tell you he's GORGEOUS masyaAllah!nak peluk cium gituk! all the while i was gushing and sighing. gatal kan, biasalah, shikin.Zako kept saying 'relek shikin relek'. macam mana nak relek beb? Oh and NewBoyz was their opening act. Dah besar yer Tomok, handsome mat m'sia!And he sang Sejarah Mungkin Berulang!! like OMG!their first song! And i actually remembered the lyrics!! So did everyone else! cute kan? haha. and my sis's bf was feeling out of place HAHA. nak step cool jer padahal kaki goyang.

oh btw, this is Zako, in case korang tak kenal:

the mat motor. and no, u wont get me free if u buy his bike. ass.

Ok that is. Oh!I met UK Shyam. HOT i tell you! and Congrats to Syaiful for getting the scholarship!asyik muka kau and Bakar jer masuk suratkhabar, aku pun nak seh. Just wait, President's Award nanti. InsyaAllah. Ceh Ceh Ceh!Wo!

And Ful, Zah says you're one of her calon suami.

HAHA.

Bye loves!Jaga diri, jangan lupa bayar puasa and Ustaz Aqil's coming to Sg!Woohoo!

bizarre love triangle

Harlo semua. I'm bored so i decided to blog. Heh.

Anyways world, I failed the first attempt. For that instant, I tried to hold back my emotions. But I guess I wasn't as strong as I thought I'd be. Hell i cried in the bus like nobody's business. Who else could I turn to but my dear loves. Thanks all. A joy shared is a joy doubled. A sorrow shared is a sorrow halved. That, my friends, is the truth. When you're down, there's no use keeping it all to yourself. You'll end up trying so hard to look strong but you'll break and feel even worse. Trust me, I was broken beyond repair for about 10 minutes. And i can't take it anymore, had to tell someone. Hah. Anyways, I'm fine now. Qada' dan Qadar. I'm not ready for that and He knows best.

Back to school tomorrow. Week 2 of orientation. Sesiapa nak ajak keluar, this whole week (weekdays only yer), i'll be free. After that, sorry semua, sorry shikin haha. Still waiting for my personalized timetable. Hopefully I'd be in the same class as dependable, responsible and fun people. Haha. I really wanna make the best of my 2 years here.

First week of orientation was Ohkaylah. Long lectures here and there. But at least the people around me got me laughing all the time. Especially Aisha Manja. Or was it Aisha baby. And Nazzie da Diva. Muahaha. I somewhat find Aisha to be a lot like me.character-wise.Kita sama- sama cool.lol. But for once, I dare to say, she's cooler. waaay cooler. I'm just, erm, well...you know, cold.HAHA.But I still rawk lah. Yer Shikin, keep telling yourself that. Oh and my GESL group's great too. But that was just our bonding session, so it's too early to say. Hopefully!

Oh! Did i tell you one of my pensyarah's really intimidating. Tak berani aku nak even try to break her rules. Thus, discipline is very important. Sama-sama maju kehadapan! Lol.

Nuff bt school. Biasalah, semenjak dua menjak jadi student balik ni. I miss my boys! But life has to go on hehe.

Other than that, I watched Simpson's yesterday.Thanks bestie! Freaking hilarious I tell you. Siapa nak tengok? Tell me, I'd love to watch it again. And laugh out literally loud in the cinemas. Babi ah Homer. Doh! lol. And ayam penyet never failed me. And the firework's uber gorgeous.as usual. Remember the fireworks kekeks??And did I tell you I met 2 very familiar guys who just went Eh! Eh! Eh! and walked past me? Sigh. How weird are boys nowadays?

Talking bt weird boys, seriously, how weird are boys nowadays? How can you even forget whatever hurt you've felt before and start as if nothing has ever happened? And this goes out to all 3 sides of the bizarre love triangle k.Macam stoopit kan? wtvr. i can only lend you my shoulders.If you ever need em to cry on.

I'm the best? I know.

heh.

Take care dear world :)
Take care loves.
Please ride and drive safely.

brighter than sunshine

hello world!:)

countdown days are over. i'm in a state of emotional turmoil. i cannot believe i'm saying this but i'm finding it soo hard to let go. HAHA. day one of orientation and i kept looking at the watch and trying to figure out what they're doing. sigh. see lah! hard to admit but i'm so attached to em! and they're really not helping by messaging me constantly, asking me to come back, saying they miss me, even promising me they'll behave themselves just so i'd come back. sayang!! padahal i had to leave coz my contract has ended and i'm back to school, obviously not coz of their nakalness. it's been one year and i didn't even leave with a good, proper goodbye. rindunyer teramatlah sangat. aku nak nangis ohkay :(

this feeling sucks times infinity. but i'll get over it. I MUST! once 6th august starts, i'm an official student. i cannot wait to write merepek-meraban stories. i cannot wait to be in a tutorial class. hope the class will be kecoh hor. if not, geleng kepala only lor.

anyways, here's my kompang sayangkubacins..

presenting,Team Berterabuh . they really lived up to da name. asal enjoy sudah hehe. (btw, look at the front row, on da left, wearing brown. girls, you'll go crazy over him. hearthrob. potential model. ubercute with a hot name. )

da kaypo-Ones

da p5s

and, well, Michael Jackson...


hehe.

take care dear loved ones :)

call out to the world

Hello hello kengkawans!How are you peeps? It's been quite a while huh?you guessed it, i'm just plain lazy..and it seems like i'm getting lazier by the day. and shikin,stoppit seh. this has to stop!

erm yah. 6 more days of teaching and i'm back to studying. berdegap-degups.everyone's asking me when i'll be leaving. the teachers that is. (sebab biler aku belah, dorang kena relief muahaha) my boys have yet to know. confirm dorang demam rindu punyerlah. JUST KIDDING, as always.i'm gonna miss em so so much. never mind i almost got punched by a super angry p1 boy. for that, he'll always be remembered. ahahas.

watching zombie kampung pisang at 1am in the morning made me miss suria segar, which means, i miss Mawi (live). and there's no more repeats! sheesh, kalau suria asked me, it's suria segar they need to repeat, not some other cerita vintage hokay. oh nevermind.

oh btw, i'm Tengku Iskhan is next on my crush list. alalala comel lah awak :) :) :) who's he? for me to know and you to find out if you even bother.


oh before i end, here's smtg to drive your monday blues away. this made me laugh out loud in the staff room ok.

story behind this is.. the past week, i had to relief a p1 class coz their form teacher was on MC. so for Art lesson, i made them create get well soon cards and i showed how to do it on screen, like this:

and here's what ONE BOY gave me. please take note i'm teaching in an all boys school ok. read closely, especially towards the ending:

cute kan? cute kan??

hehehe

ok good night loves and take care world.

you'll still be my star

go hear the umbrella remix peeps. it just gets better. overrated, maybe, tapi mak tetap suker!

ok anyways, Transformers is, by far, the coolest movie ever. a definite must-watch. in-fact, must watch it TWICE or more, depending on budget.heh.i lurve the effects. i lurve shia. i lurve their erm transformation? argh. i was practically high the whole 2 hour plus and had to bite my nails to prevent my mouth from gaping in awe. seriously, tak bedek. there were moments when i wanted to scream 'Shiiitteee' due to the coolness but i refrained myself and just shook my head. BEST GILER LAH TAK BEDEK.

so i guess guys now are secretly wishing they are Sam Witwicky, or are even having him as their official role model/idol. (sigh). meanwhile, gerrlllss, girls are secretly wishing they own a car (nevermind if they cant drive) that can somehow transform into a super sexay autobot. well, at least i'm wishing for that. :)

Kudos to Louis Stevens!ooh Shia eh nama dier. Somehow Sam has the same personality as Louis and i believe Shia's the same in real life too. very very sexy. yum.tak faham? takper. just watch Transformers ok?

makebelieve world aside, countdown to 24th july. saat yang mendebarkan, menyedihkan dan menggembirakan. i have no idea how i'd react but i can't wait to find out. in the meantime, siapa cakap aku takde kerja kat skolah? leeeekk suuaaaa ohkay.

just updating. Welcome back Zah! =)
much love.

linkin park

seriously, i'm supposed to set two exam papers by tomorrow.(wtf) and look at this procastinator. super annoying can? hell i've got 4 free weeks and whatthetooti siak aku buat? altho my poor heart was trying to console me by saying no one informed me bt the deadline and what i was supposed to do, maybe i was just plain blur abt the disseminated info hokay.and i was pretty sickly the last week of school and two weeks after that. (3rd week was kay-el, so have to get better. MUST!) tapi, look at it this way, i've always been a last minute and spontaneos (when i feel like it) person. its the adrenaline rush, baby. but every single time i did smtg last minute (like exam notes--get this..da day before da paper!!i'll get tired and stop halfway heh)i'll be filled with regret and vow never to do those shyte again. aper dah jadi makcik? haiyo!. NIE..better change hor!!how to crossover like that seh..

before i start though, did you catch Anugerah? malu lah nak cakap tapi aku cair dok bila aliff nyanyi (eh? minah?) i wasn't really into his voice and everything, walaupun kita dah berdating sama-sama (percaya lah, percaya), but he was good huh? it would have been better if he tarik his voice though towards the end. syabash! (lol)

anyways, i wore a short skirt to school today and my boys couldnt stop looking at me. JUST KIDDING.

My p6 chinese boy said "wahh Cikgu.. first time i see you wearing skirt ah?"
me: pretty right?
and i actually 'catwalked' and turn around macam supermodel tak laku.
him: next time wear mini skirt lah.

HAHA.

gosh. come to think of it. why the fark did i catwalk and turn huh?

GILA.

ish malu nyer.

oh the love

Hello sayangkus!

Ok this is it. Sekolah esok kapppeeerr?hehe there goes my time to rot. I'm officially back to being Ms Bitchy tomorrow.Or haven't I been Ms Bitchy all along? Hmmm.Kinda miss school but macam taknak datang balik. Sigh. It's been a love-hate relationship all along. And it's my last month there..so I'm gonna enjoy to the fulllesstt lah sehh!

Right. So dengar-dengar ada orang gi clubbing eh semalam? Ewah ewah. haha. Nah, orang itu bukan saya, jangen marah. So what did I do?Taknak tell lah. Malu..

Heh. Bedek.

Fine! I went ..dating (ceh ceh)! somewhere i wouldn't even dream of going as it's super far and ulu..and i honestly don't like the west side. tapi orang dah ajak kan.. So West Coast's a bit boring as compared to East Coast. People-watching kat sana pun tak happening sangat. Trust me. Tapi yang best nyer, kita panjat-panjat the maze.. we did all sorts of crazy stuff like the flying fox lah..main swing ke aperkebenda sampai kepala terhantuk. Lotsa fun lah..macam budak kecik, and sayang, kakiku sudah teramat lengoh sekali..dua kali..tiga kali..

Food was great. I couldn't stop eating. And the company's even better.YAY!And we're meeting again next Saturday!Woot!! :) suker!Oh dengar-dengar the MacD at Westcoast's pretty havoc huh? Semalam jer dah ramai orang. Kalah Planet Hollywood KL!(john john!:))

Ok moment of truth. Nak tahu dating ngan siapa?

Presenting to you, my date yesterday...

It was awesome, babe!

Eh kenapa tiba-tiba ada budak2 secondary school nangis? cemburu? HAHA.

Just kidding lah ohkay!

The fact is, my cousin celebrated her birthday at WestCoast yesterday. He was kinda the 'birthday surprise' for her. parents ade connections..hmmm..and please the panjat-panjats..wasn't with him.Ahakz.

So imagine if it was my birthday, and dad brought my abang Anuar. or even Taufik. tak ke pengsan aku. Sigh! hehe DREAM ON ohkay. ooh oh but i forced my mom to look for Taufik's mom and befriend her...jadi...you know I know lah.. HAHA. macam siak seh Shikin.

ok little girls with raging hormones, korang takkan dapat budak ni lah. hehe. Kidding again. Sorry lah can't help it. Yah slap me.

Tu jer.nak share story and sakitkan hati orang. Seems like I've been doing a lot of that lately. Biatch.

Oh Happy Birthday Cousin and Chewy my lup!

much love to da world.

wo ai wo de paolo :)

hide with me

alamak. 4 weeks almost up already. time sure flies huh. so i was in denial the whole day just now, can't accept the fact that school's reopening next week. hence, i decided to go shopping!dalam fikiran macam ada bermacam-macam benda nak beli, but i ended up with nothing. not even a decent shirt for myself. sigh.

ok bedek ah. i spent on food. which, if u know me by now, is where most of my moolahs go to. first stop, far east. was hoping i'd bump into kassreeal(stop it).oh did i tell you i took bus no. 5, which is like one of the best bus ever? yeah, i took that. had the irresistable mars bars and sis and me were trying so hard to decide on a name before we order. cheap thrill.kita kental. mars bars were yummy as always.far east's getting super boring and we can get the exact same clothes at bugis market probably at half the price. betul, tak bedek. but good place to look out for mats and minahs though :)

went to mango sale. guys were left outside and women went crazy inside. not really lah. but honestly, the prices were quite low. wanted to buy their red jeans but there's a pic of a skull at the back pocket. waddetengkorakman.

anyways, si gatal 2 ni went to NUM to check out on the you-know-whos. ahaks.boleh tahan~it's so hard to enter the shop as you cant help but feel so malu (ke miang?) . heh heh heh. ok waddehell.

Oh i bought CDs. yeah, i'm always buying unnecessary things. my intention was to buy Sleeqs' but takde. then i saw Azmirs' selling at $11.95. pretty cheap kan? lagipun i cant get 'tidurku' off my mind, so i bought it. bought my new hotbabe's cd also. ahh paolo nutini.yum. padahal i only know one song but i'm hooked already.his voice's pretty similar to john mayer (i still love you john, dont worry), tapi lagi garau sikit.very sexy. and you'll just feel like lying on your bed and screaming his songs.the slow ones would make you wanna curl up in your bed and cry. sigh. banyak emosi lah.and did i tell you he's cute?

anyways, i'm blabbering. very random. oh before i forget,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIKYKAKOKUKAKIKU!

ohmegod do u realise how old you are now? cut down on the annoyingness eh.

and world, ZAKI NEEDS AND WANTS A GIRLFRIEND :)

ok tu jer. i'm gonna get back to wo de paolo :)

manyak sayang!

enjoy the weekends!

my cinta

i miss my abang Anuar



sigh~

mr fantastic

Hello semua!I'm finally back after soo long heh. korang rindu my posts right? especially Ain (sama rumah pun seybok nak baca). ok stop it.

so obviously i'm back from KL with these happy loves! that is by far the most interesting and fun(!) holiday i've ever had. hehe. maklumlah, no parents with us mah. it was filled with lotsa unforgettable memories and classic moments ok- just thinking about them can make me laugh non-stop already. the takde chop on kad putih- getting confused due to wrongly given directions-the gerek hotel room-the all time favourite kenny rogers-the nervousness sebab nak kena naik rollercoaster-the rollercoaster ride from hell(jangan jatuh jangan jatuh)-bumper car rides sampai perut sakit kena langgar-the satanic dmx ride that made almost everyone vomit-the massage-the planet hollywood-the john-john-the asiaOne-the surprise birthday song for Zah-the dedications to us-the mabok plain water-ps:we rawk-the 2am maggi mee supper-the petaling street dua puluh ringgit-shopping sampai tak larat-feet massage-kebab-the XXXXX-planet hollywood again-sushi sedap-shikin loves unagi-chikopek-rokok..banyak lah!!everything's just soo funny!haha kay-el 2 next year babes!! we'll do this every year!sampai dah ada laki ok!

guess what? i've got two extra special gifts this holiday. remember my abangs who got married on da same day two years ago? (i posted on kekekcorner)

well well well, look who's here!!!

Aqil!!

belum habis lagi tau..presenting..

Shasha!!

Best kan? 2 days apart!!abangs and kakaks, congrats..you all nyer timing manyak bagoos lor!i've yet to visit them and find out their real names but i've alreay bought ubercute adidas baby shoes for them!!ahh love!!!tak sabar nyer nak cium baby! heh heh heh

ok i'm tired.Happy Belated Birthday Zahillah yang ku sayang!!! :)

btw, war arshad is in? ridiculous!and i happen to find kassreeal's performance last week..alah yang dia nyanyi lagu M.Nasir tu..very sexy lor. menyengat..mak suker!

ok bye. much love!

kaya toast

yum yum ya kun kaya toast is so yummy :)

hello all! 3rd week of school holidays already. How fast is that? very scary uh. life doesnt wait for you, shikin. tsk tsk tsk.

ok so anugerah planet musik's over and done with. i guess, to me, this years' event was pretty disappointing. I think they toned down on a LOT of things. remember when we used to get that pamphlet thingys so we'd know the nominations and everything? This year takde ohkay. the turnout was not that great and the audience were soo mendak only Taufik could make them scream. me and sis were screaming, cheering and woooohing sampai penat. sigh. in my opinion, apm 05's still da best-when taufik's makeup was still bertepek and he sings through his nose. But Kudos Taufik!! i was in awe this year ;)

The highlight of the show was actually the performances lah. Not all though. The 'award ceremony' thingy's very boring. even the hosts were not as ceria. sigh, they should really put Adi Rahman back. takkan merajok siti dah kahwin? hahha AB shaik disturbed him about it infront of Datuk K ok. it was hilarious!! too bad you couldnt see it on tv. and also u couldnt see hady, taufik and didi cazli (aww) grabbing the awards for most popular sg songs. tahniah!

ok performances. Mawar Berduri and Altimet. heh i wasnt paying attention. too many dancers on a small stage, and i believe fana's one of them. Then there's Taufik and Syed Azmir collabo. very smart. i loike. i was praying Azmir would sing Tidurku instead of Kuasa Cintamu. and he did! yay!and Taufik sang Usah Lepaskan. Then they kinda combine the two songs.very cool and membuat ramai anak dara terpekik-terpekau. macam aku jugak. and the screams were even louder when Irwansyah joined them and they sang Pencinta Wanita together. Irwansyah should have made an effort to look more presentable seh, kata award show. ceh!aku bebual macam stylist. just watch lah hor.

siapa lagi? if i remember lah ok. Jaclyn Victor's great as usual.very lantang, too bad i didnt know the song. Noryn Aziz. wow. suara dia besar eh? what happened to the fantasi o realiti girl? heh. Gita Gutawa is ubercute lah! dah lah cute, pandai interact with audience lagik. alalala.

Oh ok. the bands. there's Letto.sweet nyer suara dia!mendayu, i suker! and Malex has got great erm hair. hah!but they were great too,serious.boleh headbanging skejap. And Estranged..ahhh Itu Kamu!! Hell i was screaming that song and grooving away at my seat. HAHA. YEAH!

ader lagik! Hady's voice was superb when he sang Hijau. Skali Zainal Abidin joined in lah. Ternaik bulu roma aku. He is THAT good ok. just like 05. effortless. aku tak tahu lyrics pun asal boleh shoot jer nyanyi sama. Irwansyah and Acha macam have chemistry amongst the two of them jer gituk. tahu lah in love but aku pun love irwansyah. hurhurhur. he's sengau btw.

Then Taufik sang with Siti and Gita. Siti tetap da bomb. And Hady sang with Syanie(?), Didi (?) and Kris Dayanti. OOh i forgot KD sang solo also. cantik dia eh?

Sleeq and Imran performed before the show. sssssssssssssllllllllllllllllleeeeeeeeeeeeeeqq..syyaaaarrriiiiif nyer suara wow eh. nak syarif jer.busok. oh and Imran's performance was quite impressive also. heeeeeeh

byk jugak aku type eh?oh anyways. Sofaz won. yes. haha shocking? hmm. nvm, i like Sofaz. oh and i was quite disappointed as they showed Letto's video instead of Nidji bila nak 'perkenalkan' Nidji. Hello?? aku fanatik tau. heh heh heh

but i still had fun lah. no pics k, malas nak resize, upload and everything. just watch it this friday lah. you'll know exactly what i'm saying. :)

and kay-el tmr. cannot sabar!

$200

hilow.one down,three to go.one more for kay-el.very exciting!

think i'm down with the flu again. i'm having constant headaches.i've been puking. very tak enak.or maybe my blood circulation's not right.bak kata mom "baring, tido, komputer, baring, tido, komputer". and all i can do is give her a kesian face. hah. sungguh kesian.

i need to think. i've not been using my brain cells right. now that the 'whatever' and 'anything' drinks are out, semakin malas lah nak pikiak. sigh. why must i be free when the rest aren't? why do i have so much money to spend and no one to spend it on? heh just kidding. suker? i think (yes!i'm thinking) i should go read The Alchemist again. should i? sigh. think!think!

i watched Pirates 3 already.johnny and orlando yummmmy.i loved it.tapi ada SOME people tidur. perangai very busok. front seats for 3 hours pun sempat.boleh?

i need riddles. teka-tekis. i need em to test my boys.KC's a great help.HAHA. and dad loves the lame teka-tekis.

ooh anyway, someone brought something up recently. trust me, i had forgotten it all. forgiveness?please, there was nothing to forgive to begin with. i was angry at that point of time. we were angry. you very sentimentel eh, no time for all these feeling2 stuff lah.

yang takde kena-mengena, jangan macam paham.

korang macam tak kenal aku. sometimes, i talk without thinking. that's Queen B talking. erm wait, am i Queen B? i love sarcasm. i shoot my mouth off. i don't think (that's it!)hey i'm working on it ok. tengah control. kenapa mesti bunga?

sigh. shikin, you're so mean. maybe i should keep my mouth shut sometimes. XXXXXXX

but whatever it is, i respect your decision lah hor.you know what's best. i cannot please everyone.

maaf zahir batin lah yer. yang pernah terkecil hati tu, cik minta maap lah banyak-banyak yer.

come to think of it. idah would have left me loong ago. but she's still here, through thick and thin. kenaper eh?

sayang kak idah. muacks! next year kahwin eh? haha

ooh yah. meet stitch and lilo.

apis dah besar seh.

much sayangs and rindus :)
bye!

umbrella ella ella eh eh eh

hehe baru jer cakap i kept updating. hmmm. anyways, how are korangs?? been under the umbrella ella ella eh eh eh weather?? oooh same here. i've been sick for the past 2 weeks can you believe that?? the flu bug stood by me for 2 weeks and i'm still coughing away today! tulah, nak sakit sangat. i was coughing non-stop, my mucus has turned golden (in colour) already. seriously! my head is so heavy and my body, my muscles especially my calf muscles are aching like nobody's business. to top it all off, i have no idea why my left ankle suddenly started swelling, thus i cannot even walk properly. nasib baik for one day only. tu pun, apelah nasib..dah lah susah nak turun tangga, aku jatuh kat overhead bridge. HAHA. sakit ok.

i'm much much better now though. alhamdulillah. still having a headache once in a while.i'm slightly ok now, so i'm eating again. twice as much as before. ambik kau.

what's making me feel better? knowing my contract's ending? having almost 4 weeks of holiday? great singapore sale? hehe semua!! so exciting!

but i need to get my energy up and running again, so plenty of rest for me today (unless my sis ajak merayap) heh. and i'm also meeting my love, Apiz!!!tomorrow, till wednesday, so guys dont call or msg me ok..if u dont mind paying extra, then go ahead:)

nah, watch this. i guarantee korang ketawe giler babi nyer. be warned.



and the second part which is as hilarious as the first one.


HAHA. the 'david blaine' look..tak boleh angkat siol. HAHA.

ok bye. take care semua!much love!

blood-y pressure-d

is it just me or am i really blogging too much nowadays? macam tersangat free gitu?

yea.

ryyyttte.

my student told me he dreamt of me. in baju pengantin. with a handsome guy. i reckon the handsome guy must be Taufik Batisah. come on,who else could it be right? HAH.

my former loves, the p4s pissed me off big time i even said 'bullshit' in front of them. Gawd. I got so mad, my head started spinning siol. I think my face was so red and hot I could actually feel a pimple enlarging above my eyebrow.Hah. Why can't they just shut up sometimes?I'm so tired already.

On a totally contradicting note, i think my biological clock's ticking. OK what in the world is that supposed to mean? Being the dictionary-crazy and definition-freak that I am, I searched for it on the web. Honestly, tak brape faham, but this site cracks me up BIG time. Read here.

Or maybe I'm just horny. Oops did I say that out loud?

Aiyah. I'm so pissed and I can feel the huge pimple I just dont feel like smiling when I sleep tonight.

Come on. Amuse me people.

eveeeerryyyttthhhiing

My p5s made me laugh on the way home, in the rain.they can be the sweetest and cutest..when they're not annoying and lazy that is.

Them:Cikgu!!Tengah hujan!Cikgu ada payung tak?? Pakai baju kiter!!
and they actually exposed parts of their belum ada 6 packs body.

funny lah korang.

anyways, spidey was awesome. very drama.very emo. da BOMB lah ohkay. i suker sekali! thanks kicks!

ooh yah. i swear if i wasnt gonna be a teacher, i'd be a superhero.

and i'd specifically pick Labah-labah Man as my superherohubby. nak ajer!

itu kamu

Pooft and the weekend's over. Time is moving so fast and before you realise it,it's may.one more month and we're moving on to the 2nd half of 2007. wow.two more months (plus plus) and i'm leaving the school. as much excitement as there is as i'm gonna embark on the new phase of my life, i cannot help but feel sad that i'm gonna leave the boys-them who taught me the true meaning of patience. kesabaran. of a love-hate feeling. sigh.

and yes, readers, i've gotten the long awaited letter to enter NIE.YES!Alhamdulillah syukur.The endless waiting, the anticipation. the kancheongness.we just need to sign the letter and insya-Allah, 25th july, NIE baby!thanks to those who prayed..heeee.

anyways, i watched 'Jangan Pandang Belakang'. at midnite on saturday with my sisters. was scared shit lah kan throughout the movie, but that's that. tak terngiang-ngiang pun.tak terbawak-bawak outside also. the effects were scary (sound, camera and everything) but the hantu's makeup could be much better. that hantu's appearance just spoils the erm fright? but yes, it's ugly. and jalaludin's funny lah sia.

and the dinner yang sungguh mengenyangkan with the kekeks was great.4th may. we had tulang, ayam, sate, sugar cane with lemon..ahh yum!!!! semakin tembamlah pipiku ini. then we went to concourse, bought some masks and party stuff and took lotsa crappy, but cool (duh~) shots. thanks to khammie, our professional photographer. we became superheroes that night. really. thanks girls and much love. when's our next karaoke session? HAHA.

on a slightly sad note, my moyang passed away on Sunday morning. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya. Amin. I've always known him as Tok Long, but I just found out that he's my grandma's uncle. And he was 88.

It truly broke me when I salamed and hugged my grandma and she suddenly burst out crying. She said "nenek hari-hari jaga dia, sekarang dia yang pergi dulu." Aku terpaksa tahan my tears from flowing ok.

As I saw his body lying there, with my grandma beside him, I suddenly remembered my late grandma. How the whole family cried, how we reacted upon hearing the news, at the kubur and everything. time flies huh?

i still remembered her last moments.my last moments with her. i visited her with mom at the hospital.didn't want to go as i wanted to meet rabz and aishah to study for our exams in school.mom convinced me to, so i went for a while.she hasn't been conscious for weeks already.

when i wanted to leave the hospital, mom said this to me:

"Pegi cium nenek. Kau dah lama tak cium nenek kan."

So i kissed her on the forehead.

went to school. reached school. went to eat. and mom called. Nenek was gone. just like that.

Alfateha untuk Nenek, Datuk and Tok Long.

ok.. i just realised how random this loooooong post is.

Ana (Hikmah)'s getting on my nerves. stop being so nice ohkay!!! and Eva is worse than Fifi. what a bitch.

Tengok Himah lagi boleh buat darah up siak.

ok bye!
much love,
shikin!!

ps:ITU KAMU rocks my superman socks!

izin ku pergi

hey luurrrvvveeesss!besok holiday kaper.anyways, would just like to share this song with you peeps. sedih banget. if you thought perpisahan (by abang anuarku) was sad, this is even more heart-wrenching (lol) i tell you! confirm! ni kes when u listen to it in the bus, car or anything, muka confirm busok!muka mengembeng gituk ah. fuyo. trust me. the video is even worse. sigh~~~


will update more soonest.maybe tomorrow.kan tak sekolah(weeehoooo).
kekeks,4th may,berdegup-degups!!

:)

pained

like FINALLY. Miss Red decided to pay me a visit. thanks eh. *snaps fingers* lain kali cepat sikit eh please, ada timing hokay. please stick to the cycle.
but Miss Red decided to bring her best fren. and now i'm having super terrible menstrual cramps i feel like puking. nak stand straight pun cannot, but amazingly, i can still type. wow. i'm amazed by my own powers.nyeheheh. nasib baik tadi takde swimming kalau tak aku dah mati terkangkang.

ok so what happened in school today?
--was pretty disappointed i didnt get my anak angkats. sigh.
--aku kena maki fcuk. baik ah. YES!
--my p4s whom i'm having a love hate relationship with drew "HAPPY BIRTHDAY Ms Nur Ashikin" on the board before remedial class. alalala. belated 13 hari kau! but sweet nonetheless.

ok bye.my Yusuf..where are you??

makes me wonder

there he was. Yusuf. serenity in his face.soothing effect on her throbbing headache.his lips broke into a smile.perfect. a smile that suddenly formed on her lips. MasyaAllah. then she realised.yes, he's the One. oh they're gonna have such beautiful, soleh & solehah babies together.

snap. wishful thinking.

but he was really there. really.

but his name's not yusuf.

heh. i gave it to him the moment i saw him.

tapi seriously, dia gorgeous.

and if his name's really Yusuf, then there might be a possibility that we're gonna have babies together. AHAHA.

shuddap.

aku cair.

aduh duh duh duh duh duh duh~~~~

eh?dangdut lah pulak.

okdah lah. school tmr. my anak angkats...here I come to drill you boys!!

oh and peeps, check out maroon 5's new song. shoulders korang confirm bergerak. eh eh!

much love,
Shikin

of flirting, annoyance and broken hearts

if you tell me i'm making a huge hoohaa regarding the matter..let me ask you something.. what does 8 years mean to you? sigh. i've given up. i'm not even gonna bother standing up for you anymore. yes, that's how much hurt you've caused me.

to those who remembered, thanks guys :) much love! life just gets more fun knowing there are real people out there, who, insya-Allah will never change, no matter what, no matter WHO. kekek girls, i'm eternally grateful. Alhamdulillah, Amin.. for you girls.

observation went great. amazingly, the boys were superbly well behaved, aku tgh ajar pun nak terburst out laughing. nak lollipop punya pasal.then kecoh again when it's over. .yes, i bribed. hello? i only get to take them for 2 days before that and u wanna observe me teaching them? rilek sua.and after the cluster meeting, i just realised how different my boys are from the kids in other schools.

anyways, presenting to you..... the P(han)twos...

cikgu: ooh tadi semua senyap, baik eh....
P(han)twos: alah tadi kan 'ACT' ajer

ok, lain story..tadi aku scream macam orang gila in the field, during PE. i used the word 'freaking' ...as in...stop playing and give me the freaking ball!!! yah..shoot me. nasib baik the real F word was 'shouted' in my head only. heh heh heh.

anyways, pictures of presents will be uploaded sooooon! thanks korang!!

to loved ones and you..korang buat hatiku tersenyum :)
to the other you...you suck.

much love,
shikin!

stolen and sunburnt

poof!there goes the loong holiday. fun day-cheering with my boys-key lime-pening with tiger busok-psychological game-bowling-4am-adoption thingy yg tak menjadi-super short disappointment turned to degap-degup excitement-sentosa-frisbee-suntanburnt-shower with peacocks-sillybilly screams-karaoke-cinta di akhir garisan-faizal oiam-hady mirza-jaclyn victor-mukhsin's out!!-faizal's married with 2 kids (damn)-yanti & faris weds(selamat pengantin baru!)-exchanging hugs with rozi(rindu!)-ramen ten... ahhh fulfillment!

so that's basically how i spent my days from thursday to yesterday. pretty packo but super fun. what about today?? buat worksheets dok..observation's on 11/4. mampos aku. must bribe the kids to behave already. hurhurhur.

anyways, no matter how i run away from it, the truth is, the big TUWENTEE WAN is nearing. setakat tidur dua kali jer and i'm one year older. already. still no calon. how to get married by 24? you tell me lah.takper, kita simpan duit dulu ohkay? jadi once i find a calon and he says "will u marry me"..boleh angguk tak tahu malu-ly. bedek ah. the guy must save the fulus also ryte.

so guys, save up from now k. u never know u never know. and please teguhkan the Iman. the power of the iblis is getting stronger..dah ramai yang succumb to it. seriously, you don't want to be next. confirm plus chop menyesal. (wah!National Ed.?)

ok that's it. don't get too close, babe. just don't,baybeh.

hentikanlah saja jenaka bermadah

biasa terlalu sering ku dengar

ceritera cinta tiada berubah

hanya mimpi yang indah

akhirnya nanti kecewa

-ceritera cinta by Jaclyn Victor & Rio Febrian

~ouch~

i LOVE JAC! listen to da song here

ok bye!much love,

shikin rawks (still)

kepale bin batu

Yay!short week!even shorter coz it's sports/fun da tomorrow!! aku suka jadi cheerleader muahahahas.

i cannot wait for friday!!dapat have fun with kids!! jadi ibu!dapat adopt! heh so fun!!! siapa nak adopt and join in the fun, can ask Zah k.

anyways, the past 3 days (today included), i've been teaching fractions to 5em3 boys and da p4 boys. coincidentally both were at mixed number and improper fractions. it's so fun teaching them the 'short cut' way and seeing their amazed faces. Lagi satisying to see that they were actually having fun AND learning. the 5em3 boys were insisting i give them more sums. thank you boys. abeh ada one of the naughtiest boys bowed to me and said "thank you for teaching us."

*senyum sampai ke telinga hokay*

that, my loves, is the good part.

so what's bad? can u imagine being knnccb-ied by a student? that's the ultimate lah. whatever else he did,i totally shut him out already. GOD!..menguji kesabaran...Allah saje yang tahu.

one of these days, the bp's gonna rise. and all we can do is look at each other in pity and get on with our lives. selawat jer lah byk2 yer.

anyways, i miss my boys yang dah sombong. boys, mari kita watch movie again! i wanna have updates!!!spiderman3?

btw, that guy with specs, he's gonna be BIG one day. badminton star beb. oh ggooossshhh i miss them!

erm i think i'm smittened by someone i even asked him a stupid question. shikin, stop it.

nasib baik aku cute.

eh?

haha!

ok bye!

of masalodeh and kuih keria

25/3/07

oh welcome to the team, Awal! aaaawwwwwaaaaallllll.....belanjer??? *flutters eyelashes*

main-main jer lah. you dont have to pangkah me. but kalau betul pun apa salahnyer. haha!

the weekends' gonna end soon.benci seh. i'm loving the fact though, that there's good friday this coming week and i'm gonna adopt a kid!! woohoo!!

anyways, friday night's soo much fun coz we(sisters+cousins) played bowling and had supper till like 3? ish!quote from mom:mana ada anak dara merayap sampai malam2 buta? HEH. let me enjoy while i can first k mom, we're already growing up too fast it scares the shit out of me. i know my limits, insya-Allah.

caught a movie with zah and khammie ma hommie. "Freedom Writers". Excellent movie i tell you. Feel like watching it again, very inspiring.Aspiring teachers, go watch this. at least, at a time like this,it validates my choice in being one. alhamdulillah.

seriously, i don't know what to blog about. i'll blog later if i find something worth talking about. macam betul.

ps: Great to see you again, Su!!! semakin langsing..semakin jambu..... apa rahsia kecantikanmu...??..hehe

ps:aku jer yang semakin gemok.unfair seh. nak tulis kat whiteboard jer and i can feel my UADDs shaking.ew, very disgusting.

tahu takpe.

much love,

Shikin!!

i don't love you

hah. just thought the blog needs a revamp. if i'm not lazy, i'll change a bit here and there, will add more pictures of loved ones, but for now, just ogle at adam brody hokay. hot nak mampos aku nak!

anyways, watched pentas.wouldnt say i disliked it, wouldnt say i loved it lah. there were super funny moments.but loved the 'ghost rider'.kekek. best part was when 'salam terakhir' was played. touching kan? abeh emo. but lagik best part was the sort of reunion after that where we were all screaming, hugging, taking photos. ahhh those times...:)

oh will you just look at syahid???hahhhahaahaha

anyways, i realised how much we have grown, how relationships have changed, formed, ended and whatever. haiz..growing up pretty much sucks eh. i miss carefree moments where there's no pressure and responsibilities...where..yang penting enjoy! i miss kekek girls.

one question on my mind right now. should i be the 'knight damsel in gorgeous armour' and save a particular 'damsel knight in distress'? or should i just leave it up to fate; lest it be a rebound, a nothing, or something meaningful?? hmmmm

aku confused. rileks one corner sudah eh. haha

dah lah dunno what else to type. cant wait for karayouok(or not?) with kekeks, soon!

bye!

much love,

shikin

tentang seseorang

aku don't get it why

-imeem sekarang nak kena log in baru boleh dengar lagu
-there are selfish people in friendster, who can view our profile but when we click on theirs', it's set to private access only. hamlau. lebih baik view profile orang anonymously ryte? save the trouble of me having to curse you. seriously!
-why people like to put the blame on others. ok fine, people make mistakes. u don't have to rub it in by emphasizing that that poor soul had done something wrong.right?suka jadi sadist cam gini?
-cats can sense my fear of them that they reaaaally have to come near me. gelinya ya ampun!!!
-i always have to leave things to the last minute although i'm free the whole week(read: friday baru nak rush)
-i cant be bothered to complain or anything when i'm in school, although there are SOME people who just wish to make my department's life miserable. ya,blame it on us, blame everything on us.
-i'm addicted to nasi ayam penyet or nasi ayam. or just ayam. i love roasted chicken. yum.
-uberchubby girls can get ubercute(nak mampos) guys. ok fine, out of point. just a trend i've been seeing lately. ya,ya..sememangnya aku kecewa.
-attached friends can't make themselves free for other single friends or don't make an effort to ask their lonely single friends out.nyet.
-i love it when fiza o sings her birthday songs. FIZA, YOU'RE THE BEST!
-i can watch 'Cinta' a million times and my eyes will still be bengkak from crying too much after that.
-i don't see Taufik Batisah outside, alone. takut kena terkam?
-i don't have a crush right now. coz if you know shikin, you know i have manymany crushes. or used to have. think zah took my place already.
-i just love this song soo sooo sooo sooo much...

akankah seseorang yang kuimpikan kan hadir
raut halus menyelimuti jantungku

the fifth mountain

yes ar! the long awaited 1 week holiday's here. finally. sad thing is, moi friends semua cam busy, working, projects and everything. hmmmm. so how?? think it's time for me to go guy-hunting already. the 1st official hunt for 2007. where should i "roam"? orchard? sentosa? masjid? lol ahaks macam betul.

but seriously, very boring leh. i really really wanna go out with the kekeks (especially), the secondary school sweethearts, the kiky and the amin. hmmmmm.oh and the cousins. so what can i do to occupy myself? work and clean the house..b-o-r-i-n-g!

must finish reading my borrowed books. think paolo coelho's books calm me down.

damn. should have asked for his number.then we can go to town. since we kept bumping into each other there.

hah. i'm talking to myself.

how pathetic.

btw, i'm looking forward to fridays coz p.e teachers having practicum will come to da school to teach.ada hunk satu. biasa jugak...sememangnya aku mentel.they'll be gone soon though. yawns. NIE trainees are also in my school having their practicum. all the best to them. pretty challenging to be there. seriously,sumpah.

i'm just living each day just because. there will be moments that perk me up but other than that, nope. i'm not having high hopes on anything or anyone, coz they'll just disappoint. sigh~ sounds like i'm jaded beyond repair already. Nizam spoke for me when he said "cepat2 lah berambus" HAHA.

GOD, what is happening to me?

think i need therapy.

or counselling.

or syarif.

oops did i say his name?

HAH.

take care people.

much love!!!




sorrylah aku feeling emo.