kenapa haizad handsome nak mampos?

so i went to national library to study (in mugger's dictionary:read through). had a ball of a time wandering round bugis junction after that (read: alone). tasted heaven in the form of $2.50 peppermint coffee ice-blended with pearls (rockery lived up to it's name. rock, geddit? haha). and saw a wheelchair-bound get on a bus.

you know what he had to do?

get up, fold his wheelchair and carry it on the bus.

hell, of course that ain't true. kau ingat ni cerita P. Ramlee ke? our bus services do have amenities that cater to the wheelchairbound ohkay. err in the form of a platform. but still, be thankful we don't live in blabla-tan or blabla-sia.

ok that aside. i kept thinking of how a friend said he'd found his soulmate. What's a soulmate?

A soulmate is someone who has locks that fit our keys, and keys to fit our locks. When we feel safe enough to open the locks, our truest selves step out and we can be completely and honestly who we are; we can be loved for who we are and not for who we’re pretending to be. Each unveils the best part of the other. No matter what else goes wrong around us, with that one person we’re safe in our own paradise. Our soulmate is someone who shares our deepest longings, our sense of direction. When we’re two balloons, and together our direction is up, chances are we’ve found the right person. Our soulmate is the one who makes life come to life.

~Richard Bach

i like that.

and dear, you know i'm happy for you whenever you're happy and i still love you no matter what k. even if you refuse to sms or answer calls or go missing for months. :)

you see that line "we can be completely and honestly who we are"? just reminded me of someone. i recalled having dinner and cutting my fries into smaller pieces before eating em just so i'd look more ladylike and senonoh. with a fork and knife, no less. and he can still look at me with a smile as if that's the most fascinating act he has ever seen and can't get enough off. Heh.

that.... is a front.

i don't cut my fries. i eat em whole. long and soggy. mouth open wide. i spill drinks on tables and i drop my food. i langgar tabla besi when i walk. hurhurhur. that's me.. clumsy.

but i learnt from that experience. it was great while it lasted. but you can never have the most fun with people when you're not being yourself. :) just won't feel right. right?

anyways, that aside, again, i love this song.

don't you just think it's groovy? and it's by Mr-bukak-baju-kena-ban. hell he can sing and do that anytime for me man, anytime (read: baju jer). and plus point , he can speak real good english! ahh smart malaysian men who speak great english = turn on. ooh la la.

ok anyways, esok hari apa? 16th april. what's so special about it? Of course it's miz_16april's birthday lah then???

i just had to use the same picture. happy 23rd O annoying one!!! may the next year and years after that be filled with happy moments. heart-smiling happy.I love you!!!

and i love myself. bye!