oh sleep
you're so selfish
why do you come and go as you please?
the eyes call you when lids are heavy
the body craves you when it lies all comfy
the mind all ready with memories so pretty
but sleep
you skipped me
why do you come and go as you please?


p.s:aku tak boleh tidur lah..

urgh.

i lost something. and everybody in the whole world can only say

"oh i saw it last at so and so"

i fcuking know that.
thank. you.

and then it takes only that to make you realise that you can only depend on your own ass to survive.

gawd!

knafdihfwejfoiweydiwebfwjfpoiwhfweoweyfoewbfwncwkyioypoka!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

on a more cheerful note,

happy 22nd divo! i miss you much too :)

goddammit

today spells serenity. ok delete the fact that i can't sleep, but somehow still managed to wake up late. gawd. the body clock's all wrong. but it's ok coz i was awaken by aqil's smiles. i think he's the cutest baby.ever.

'aqil shaayaaanggg :)'

so i went to national library. chose some books and started drowning myself in one. "The English Teacher" by R.K. Narayan. Was giggling in some parts, not succumbing to the stomach that was seriously growling lah. dah bonch pun asyik nak mintak makan jer! biasa eh?!

the book was pretty good until it reached an anticlimax. well, to me, at least. read: wife died. man received letter. wife "communicated" with someone to write letters to man.

that was it lah. i mean if it's something like p.s. i love you, i'd continue reading. but once i knew it was some spirit thingy, naahh i just flipped through the remaining pages. but if u like these kinda unsur-unsur magis, you should read it. could be prettay interesting.

after which, made my sis and mom come down to bugis and had swensens for dinner. everything was oh so fine and peaceful until these 2 girls had to enter and piss the hell out of me.

they had to talk damn loudly lah. and guess what? they were talking in bimbotic-ala-zaman- 'clueless'-manner-heavily-accented-with-macam-paham-good-english.

turn off. seriously, turn off.

and they went on and on and on. they were seated right beside us by the way. i had to stop eating, put down my fork and knife and literally covered my ears, mouthing "shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up". but they still went on and on and on.

i poked my eye and was about to bite my fingers already coz the pain of hearing their conversations ("omg i look so pretty today") was far more excruciating then causing harm to myself.

so i just had to do it.

i waited to spot any errors they might make. until the magical moment came. their orders were made. oooh they giggled annoyingly and loudly too i must add. i could have pulled all my hair. then they ordered

'butterscosh'

enuff said.

BAHAHAHA!

please.save.me

i.am.officially.bored.out.of.my.thick.unruly.hair.and.skull.
i.am.jaded.
i.can.stare.at.walls.for.a.long.time.
i.can.play.songs.on.repeat.mode.forever.
the.people.i.annoy.are.used.to.it.already.DAMMIT.
are.you.beginning.to.bore.me.or.am.i.just.asking.for.much.
too.much.more.
diam.lah.shikin.

ok enuff annoyance. i think it's time for ME time! apa?
ME time!

ooh do u know who hot hot heat is?

wel.. they're only like....the funkiest band ever.

thanks, you. i'll indulge in you next.

goodnight goodnight.

ps:lebih baik korang jangan layan.

capuccino.sastera.congkak

do you know how happening mosi was yesternight? mesti sebab ada david cook. (HAHA). so the Mean-ah lepaked with the Gee-kie and the Ro-kokker. great fun. dorang reminisce pasal zaman hot stuff dorang. hoho. whereas me, people watching da whole time and gawd were there beautiful people yesternight. :) so i'm contented.

saw mr white-T-blondehair-i-want-your-brain-you-sexy-you. not at Mosi though. but oooh ooh oohh :)

met omar at mosi. who made a face when i told him i'm taking malay. "But you're a Literature student!"..."yah, now i'm taking malay literature?".. "ppffffftttt" ahahaha. nah i'm not angry. sometimes i wonder why too. but i love everything about it, so it's fine. but if i may add, more eyecandies there please? aaaaaah but that's a whole different thing altogether.

anyways, this is random. could you ever get turned on seeing a guy smoke? oh me god i swear i did yesternight. there was just something about that pale white druggy look and nak kena tumbuk sideburns and those koyak rabak jeans that's soo soo orgasmic. and the sight of him sucking that ciggie, and exhaling the smoke oh so smoothly, it was as if time suddenly went 987586272075 times slower. yes. aku tak bedek. i could just stare at him puffing away all night long. he is by far, the closest thing i can get to an epitome of a sex symbol, here, in singapore. and i had my moment.

must be the humid weather.

oh we watched congkak too. seriously, kids boobs. i have no idea why they kept saying it's much better than jangan pandang belakang. gosh, at least bila tgk JPB, i was scared seh nak balik. ni, taik hidung masin tol. but the sound effects was cool ah. furthermore, i kept hearing "shhhiikkkiinn... shhiikkiiinnnn" and felt like hands poking and touching me. now THAT was really scary. really. riigghht.

dah. my hair's great annoyance this moment. i might just cut it short. like real short. agyness deyn short. but that's her. freaking hot. and she doesn't have pau-cheeks to boot. HA. we'll see how. let's just wait and see.

me: abang, belikan aku bf shirts. need em for practicum.
abang: papa kan ada banyak.

that.is.so.typical.of.shaifudin.

ok! bull.much.

love. much.

bye!