coincidence

sometimes the things you really want most, you can't get, so u'll just have to settle for second best. would u really wanna settle for second best when u still believe that THE BEST is still out there somewhere?then,what if second best is, in fact, the best, but u already missed out on that, just because you're in denial all along?

faham tak?

tak faham sudah.

aku amat tersentuh dengan kata-kata Dore. i can never write as well as this. at least our trip and worries were worth it :)

sungguh bersyukur aku mempunyai rakan yang sangat menjaga kehidupanku tidak menghiraukan kesusahan atau kesenangan. Kamu semua akan ku cintai sepanjang hayat sebagai orang yang telah menghargai kehadiranku di dalam hidupmu semua. Apa yang dapat ku balaskan mungkin tidak setimpal. Namun, ku pohon doa restu kehadrat mereka agar sentiasa berada dalam keceriaan dan ketakwaan yang tidak terkira di dunia mahupun di akhirat kelak...kesetiaanmu amat memberikan ketenangan kepada insan yang sederhana sepertiku..Alhamdulillah di atas kehadiran dan persahabatanmu semua selama ini ....Amin... Insyaallah bertemu lagi...

to the miss i've known for SO long, 9 years in fact. what happened to us? why can't things just be the same like it was before? when we can talk and share about everything? when 'u noe i can't smile without you' really means soo much? a new addition and everything changes? wads with the formality? all those years means nothing already huh?

sedih kan.

to the miss i've just known. be strong, love. as cliche as it may sound, kita merancang, Tuhan yang menentukan. kalau dia memang ditakdirkan untuk kau, everything will fall back into place. trust me. Big Hug and u always have us. a phone call, voice call or even a voice clip away :)

aku so emo. aku punya suka lor.

hehe bye!

kay-el and kampung, so tak sabar.

love,
shikin

ps:could it be you? or you? or wait.. you eh?

love personified

and of course, love is also the one taking the photo.

;P

SOLARIZE

aku dah semakin menyampah.kau seriously bebual bodek ah boy.tak yah nak belit-belit sebab semua orang dah tahu da real truth, there's no point covering up everything. it will only make u look even worse.

aku so rasa macam nak maki infront of your face.after what u did. and because of what you're doing now. tapi i just can't do it. kau macam really trying so hard. kesian. urgh.

astaghfirullah. shikin, kenapa full of hatred? ish ish ish

ok takyah nak geram-geram. so buang current. amacam kita solarize chill?

oh tidak. belum bisa chill. one more paper to go. the dreaded one, sastera. banyaks to belajar. kemalasan meningkat.come on come on!!lepas tu jer boleh enjoy!

btw, my first paper was great lah. aku suka. sebab everthing i studied, kluar,thanks to the revision lecture also. alhamdulillah. belajar last minute tau. biasalah, what's new. still got the cheek to go Linkin Park. But absolutely no regrets baby.

my $150 was damn worth it. walaupun tak bawak camera. hell, chester was within 2 metres away from me.AHH.tapi i wouldnt want to go for a free standing rock concert anymore. an experience is enough. I swear kalau aku mati at that time(kena pijak ke, pekik-pekik kena heart attack ke) , terus ke Neraka jahanam. astaghfirullah!!dah lah tu, bila balik, i revised a bit and when i slept, chester was screaming at my left ear and i heard GESERAN, LETUPAN on the other. over kan.

heheh. tapi dengar-dengar tetap nak pergi MCR. oh yeah baby :)

erm lagik satu comment, Pentas was a big yawn but caca was da bomb. tu jer.

and why do I always have the sweetest yet weirdest dreams? dasar mentel.

bye semua. I love my friends. a lot.peace and solarize.

hair-y

aiseyman. my goatee boy got gerl already. sungguh kecewa. but looking at it positively, he's just ninefreakingteen. so masih anak-anak. tapi tetap hot jadi mak kasi you 10 points. keep dat abang-abang look ok.and your girlfriend punyalah cute kiky kalau nampak he'll go crazy. kiky: BAH!

me, sis and my 2 aunts went to watch zainal abidin. powerlah that man. such an impressive entertainer. dia nyanyi lagu Tarzan. wow! though i didnt know the lyrics most of the time, my head was bobbing lah. and abang bassist tu single kan. cute seh. haha. and zainal's such a selamba guy lah. his jokes were so relek and funnynakmampos. he kept saying the place is grand and everything but takde tangga for him to go down and meet the audience. then when he sang lagu 'Hijau' he came over towards this pakcik and pointed the mic at him. Pakcik pun steady ah, stood up and sang. POWER. and u know what zainal did?? he actually grabbed da pakcik's cheeks and kissed his forehead and his cheeks. HAHAHA.

abeh zainal continued singing and he stopped..ckp "Asal macam rasa masin ni? Bang, asal kepala u masin?"

heheh. then at the last song, ada makcik2 tgh feeling ah. so they put up their hands and swayed left and right. si zainal ni tgh2 lagu dia boleh ckp "Cik jangan angkat tinggi sangat, kesian orang sebelah. dari sini boleh nampak bulu ketiak" Siak kan. and there's gay and pondan jokes in between lah.. think 'sokongan dari belakang'. muahahaha. funny funny.

carousel after that. kalau dikira, tahun ni dah macam 5 ke 6 kali makan kat sana. mengalahkan orang kaya.

oh before that, pizza with TTC. yang memang selalu best sampai nangis-nangis. followed by movies with cousins. also gerek. 'Game Plan' is soo good lah. The Rock's a charmer. and the girl, uber cute. TTC pics still with divo. cousins pic di bawah ni. look how much we've grown. ooh.

sebenarnya tujuan aku nak bebual pasal rambut. and how hair plays a part in attracting the opposite sex.not for me though. anuar zain exception. duh. i suka crew cuts. so its ok. tapi hair in girls. Guys, u tell me.. u prefer long hair or short hair. on the head, TTC, on the head. sigh. what's in a name hair?

i recall the conversation i had with an old friend yesterday. Tak pernah ok kita chat. then he suddenly asked hows school, giving me motivation, asking me whether i'm going to blabla, then he suddenly said "Eh ur hair's long already. macam dah lama tak nampak u with long hair. dah lama gitu tak meet up. when was the last time?"..abeh sampai tukar topic which movie to watch semua........ohkay. cuba kalau rambut aku tomboy. sikit pun kau tak pandang eh. haha

tapi for now i'm loving the attention. wait till i cut my hair again. rimas rimas aku rimas.

countdown. 22 hours to chester's sweat on my head. tak boleh tahsyan.tak boleh tunggu.

tapi part exams. procrastinate.

kurang ajar. :P

sing me something new

Alhamdulillah. edupsych1 dah habis. phew. i don't even wanna think about it anymore. tapi u can't help but feel da stress. 60% tau. takut!

now tinggal dore's notes. which i'm super lazy to even start on.but MUST do! untuk benefit semua orang lah katakan. and, jangan lupa, need to study lor.

sastera + linguistik exams = mampos kau shikin kalau belajar last minute.

anyways, i'm gonna really let my hair down before exams. cannot wait!!! lepas tu nak pegi massage. maybe ah.

oh u know what? cahaya cinta is back in action lah. you know i know lah eh orang tu. Let's see. gimme more evidence people. lek ah orang tu jangan stress heheh, just a gut feeling.

tapi aku suka biler kau stress pasal ni. so sexciting!

ok zainal abidin this saturday. nak kena hafal lirik lagu hijau. haha.

Oh..anok-anok

tokleh meghaso mandi laok

Besaing,maing ghama-ghama

Ale lo ni tuo umurnyo bejuto

Kito usoho

Jauhke dari malapetako

Ozon lo ni koho nipih nak nak aghi

Keno make asak

Hok biso wei,pasa maknusio

Seghemo bendo-bendo di dunio

Tokleh tehe

Sapa bilo-bilo

betul? suker? nyanyi rame-rame yok!

ok dah. random again.

ps: you, i suka ur goatee. muahaha.

shuddap.

bye!!

bubbly-not

so i watched the video amin told us about. and yeah i cried watching it. how can they even do such a thing to an old man seh. where's ur sense of respect? ni dah kira aniaya. Tsk Tsk Tsk. imagine how the uncle's kids would be feeling right now knowing their dad, who's earning an honest living, even at his old age, was humiliated like that. the 3 guys are super LOW lah.

SIGH.

anyways. i truly need to scream right now. but i dont really know why. URGH.

miss red has yet to visit me. Hello? taknak datang sudah but dont make me have moodswings lah please eh.

sastera essay down. EduPsych1 essay and sastera notes next. Come on Shikin!Jangan malas!

i cut my fringe. macam senget sikit but who cares. i just feel like having bangs when i see the scissors. tangan gatal. i know. LALALA.

what the hell is wrong with me??

see what i mean by moodswings now?

tapi takpe,

You're a STRONG BLACK WOMAN!

anyways. i love Lifehouse. like A LOT.

byelah.

like OMG

eh kawans! i was reading up on Hamzah Fansuri (ceh!) and i came across one of his karyas i.e.
Sharab al-'ashiqin ("The Lovers' Beverage"). since sharab is wine, ashiqin must be lovers. gasp.

gedebak gedebuk.

so nur ashikin really means cahaya pencinta after all.

oh the irony.

tapi now i understand why my gut feeling's always spot-on.

i So love my name.

ok ciaoz!

motivational theories

WO. kalau tutup blog pun cantik. just when i thought i have all the time in the world to blog, you guessed it, aku malas. But seriously, I'd rather sleep (or friendsterhop) whenever I'm free rather than blog. Lagipun, who's free seh sekarang? I have 2 + 1 freaking essays to complete. And the problem is I'm not even motivated to start. Whenever I start reading on Hamzah Fansuri, Wan terus duduk at my eyelids. Tapi tadi, me, diy and aishah made an effort to find books, so tepuk-tepuk!We were such suckers though, laughing at the books we see in the library and associating them to us (i shall not mention who).

So what's been up? Dah november kan. how fast. idah's present pun belum beli. sigh! i have 2 papers to study for, one of which is a real pain-in-the butt lah, for the sole reason that i'm totally clueless over every single thing, right from the start. how? urgh. revision lecture pun tak guna. wth. I need a sastera tutor. a hot one would be great. heh. kidding.

anyways diy, tadi lepas kau turun kat Jurong jer aku tido. Ok not really. I looked through the HUGE braginsky book, sighed, and tido. And guess what? aku ternganga lor. and i was kinda frowning. dahi berkerut and mulut ternganga. how demure.must be the stress. confirm mahaburuk even diva would be disgusted to record me on her fujifilm camera. tapi i'm amazed i dont really bother. selekeh and everything. that's so me lah kan. tapi rambut cantik. sebab rebond.

apa yang aku membebel.

OH yah. jalan raya with TTC was MPV-loads of fun i tell you. Too bad lah si nad tak ikut. kental.
kita basically makan.ketawa. kutuk each other.makan. ketawa. kutuk each other. well we do dat all the time seh. what is wrong with us? hehe.
i don't really have the pictures. this will do. love and friendship takes on a TOTALLY different meaning when it comes to you suckers. love. orh orh orh.

dah. nak start romancing hamzah fansuri already. good luck people! Kekeks, besok jumpa, yahoo!

much love!