OMGOMGOMGOMG

i cannot believe i am freaking out. i have no idea why. it's like having lots of extreme emotions all in one i just want to bawl my eyes out and scream out loud. though i have to admit the spa session just now was, seriously, semi-orgasmic (sedap nak mampos), i could only forget for like an hour? then it's back to reality.

yes. one more day till the 10, by right, 11 weeks of fakeshit. i don't want it to start. it's weird the aloof, uninterested and obviously unfeeling me is pressurized right now. hopefully, that's as far as it can go, just up till...now. i don't wanna live the 10 weeks feeling like shit everysingle day. oh god please save this dear scared soul of mine. and those of my friends too.

and then there's you.
wads up with the hot and cold behaviour ey?
macam dah penat aku nak layan.

oh god. dah lah 3 weeks late. it's getting prettay annoying. zits popping out already. emotions macam tunggang terbalik. perangai macam setan. membebel membebel membebel. i dislike girls who are too dependent on men. membebel. membebel. i cannot fake a smile and act interested everyday. membebel. membebel. just what do you want from me? waaaaaddddddddddd?! membebel membebel.

dah puas membebel sendiri, ngantuk.

if i'm crying out,
don't listen to it
it's only my heart.

and then dengar Taufik's Usah lepaskan, nak nangis. urgh. girls and emotions. problem besar punya!!!

ok bye. please pray for me, love, peace and happiness. and yourselves of course.

amin.....i need a hug.pronto. :`(