something.

so the reason i'm blogging at work is due to the fact that i am fuming mad. but this anger is nothing compared to the soreness in my throat.

yes, i screamed and screamed and screamed in class. let me just start on how I despise bringing kids to the computer lab. they turn into unattentive, slow monsters. today i decided to book a 1 1/2 slot so the kids can type a new piece of composition. my goodness they took so long! and i need to save all the work one by one. what's worse is there are a few who only managed to type one paragraph. and this is TYPING fyi ok not writing. and i've given the topic 2 days ago. how can i not be mad? bell rang, and there i was screaming like a mad woman.

but boy did i regret. my throat hurts now. and i'm fasting, so there goes my full pahala for the day.

something happened though, when i released the kids from the lab, a student cam back in, (i was alone in the lab) and she asked "Cikgu Shikin nak saya tolong apa-apa?"

I melted right there.

sigh.

don't know how it's possible
but being in love (with you) is an understatement

long time.

right. 2nd half of 2011. work's been ok. alhamdulillah, taking it day by day or programme by programme. 2 years of bond is up. 1 more and i can probably breathe easy. although it doesn't really make any difference. oh wells.

friends are still here and there. sadly, with some parties, it's just not the same anymore. in growing up, we actually grew further apart.

good news, chewy's a mummy. bad news, my biological clock is honestly ticking at an alarming rate. not helping that soo many pictures of new born babies are being posted by friends. yes, friend's/acquaintances' babies. sheesh i'm old. i have to stop myself from imagining i've already started a family. pathetic kan?

good news, siti's married. rozi's day is coming up. i'm so happy seeing them wedded one by one. bad news, (akupunnakkahwinjugak) haha. diam lah.

good news, we've taken another huge step. alhamdulillah. bad news, mesti save up kebabai. but insyaAllah we can do it :)

good news, hamz has grown. bad news, hamz has grown. but i love him too much.awww.

bad news, no one reads my blog anymore. good news, i still have an avid, loyal reader. HELLO ZAKI! =D

gravity-ed

everybody knows
but nobody really knows
how to make it work
how to ease the hurt

i'm guessing i'm really cursed on sundays. not alternate, but really, every single sunday.

i have no idea why but i have the tendency to listen and scream to sara's gravity. i can't quite put a finger on what the song means, but it just pulls your heartstrings, no? maybe the song has the emotionally draining and painful aftereffect once you sing to it. just like mrazs' absolutely zero, jewels' foolish games and mayers' dreaming with a broken heart and slow dancing in a burning room.

so you can guess my songlist in emo-moments huh? don't get me wrong i'm entirely fine. or am i? how do you do it?really? tell me.

miss-ed

loves it when you sleep over and i'd have to wake you in the morning for work

weekends,hurry up now.get this hectic week filled with unnecessary emotional rides over and done with.

who are we kidding eh?

3 more days to breakfast.

4 more to entirely you.

oh stoppit.

the good, the bad

what hurts the most?

25, really. yikes.

sundane

can't do sundays without you :( shift's a bitch.

dua puluh enam

so muster turned 26 yesterday. same time last year, i was up on Mount K haha. So this year, kena celebrate with the man himself hor?

basically, i'm pretty useless when it comes to planning. so he came up with the idea of visiting a place we've only been to once, which was ages ago.

the thing is, it was supposed to be lunch or breakfast by the beach at sentosa. yes, i cooked. haha. i'd have to say it tasted awesome. HAHA. and notice the 2 prawns shaped macam heart tu? OMG, sweet kan aku? hehehehe.

but our lazy bums macam malas nak pack the food, so we decided to just eat at my place. i know. this situation has cropped up a gazillion times for us, so we're pretty used to our kemalasan :)

went to sentosa where he was prettay excited seeing this cineblast ride thingy. i must admit, i was, too, until after the ride. haha. totally not worth the money. but, anything for the birthday guy, on his birthday (only). other days, lu rilek sua mat.

and off we went to underwater world! he got to touch a stingray and some other weird looking fishes. eww.

look at that heeyuuuggeeeasssfish!

suka lah kau eh.

and off we went to just lepak by the beach, eating ice kacang and keropok nangka.

and kena bully.

i hope you had fun, muster. not bad lah kan your off days spent with me? haha. hope your new work shift's not bitchy. i pray for all things good for you, insyaAllah.

work hard, be healthy, stay happy, save money.

then we can go kahwin. oh tak eh?

insyaAllah, ameeen :)

:(

sometimes i wish my profession allows me to take leave when i really want and need a break.
it's only coming to week 7 of the year and i'm drained out.these pending things i have, are only for this term. even more to come with the double preggies in the dept. sigh. i'm going to have people breathing down my neck supersoon. i have so many papers to settle. i have things other than my subject matter to think about. loootts of them, goodness!
seems like i've been thrown so many things this year, i better have a great lot of self motivation or i might really, really pancet rabak halfway :(

thanks a lot to my homeland for the expensive cost of living. i guess i'm never allowed to stop working,ever :(

thanks a lot to boss who's really making it so difficult for diploma holders to earn a lot despite the same amount (or probably more) of work. come to think of it, i'm miserly paid and getting a degree would really really burn a hole in my pocket. orang kata ada degree baru boleh rasa lah gaji tu. ya Allah, tabahkanlah hambamu ini.

on a really, really brighter note, my fiance(omg i can laugh just by typing that. fiance, weird or what?!) is on his way to get his license.i'm proud of you muster, Alhamdulillah :) that's something awesome to think about.tapi with great power, comes great responsibility. and less time, less time for me. boohoo.

ok enough ranting. have a lot of work to do.

i wish every weekend's like this. minus the workload.thanks.

honestly

one, i should stop having too idealistic views. two, we must be better people. three, patience.

and the list goes on. a change of status and an inevitable argument sets in. but it still amazes me how we settle these things by just saying what's on our minds. and it's really a bonus when there's a cooler, more calm and collected one between the two. which, isn't me by the way.

being the centre of attraction is scary to tell you the truth. god knows the number of times i sighed after smiling so much at the endless number of shots taken none other than family members and friends. haha. but seeing the faces of friends, the hardwork put in by my family members (and my lovely girls), is really just too beautiful. i love every single one of these people and i'm feeling totally humbled and grateful to have them around me. thank you is an understatement. all of you are in my prayers :) :)

to mus, we can say or plan whatever we want, ultimately the decision is His. in the mean time, we'll work together whatever we are hoping for, insya Allah. weird but i love you even more the next morning i woke up after our engagement. =)

thank you for making and keeping me happy.

thank you too for changing ur seat in Mac just coz u didnt want ur attention to go to the TV.

ily.

tiga hari

been raining three days non-stop.

feeling jittery all over already.
is it the cold?
or the upcoming event?

haaaaaaa.

be careful this rainy season,one and all :)

week four

like every other goodbyes, such sweet sorrow.

wish we could laze on the couch, watching tv like this, everyday.

too bad, reality's not in our favour. could be a looong week.

other than that. yah, that was it. :)

idea

Penyanyi: Ahli Fiqir
Tajuk Lirik Lagu: 2x5

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Kali Bagi Tolak Campur
Habislah geli kerana geletek
Hilanglah resah kerana biasa
Kerana telah terbiasa
Geli dan resah tidak akan lagi terasa
Semut di seberang lautan Kau nampak
Bila gajah di depan mata Kau buta..

Lebih sudu dari lauk
Lebih tunjuk dari tengok
Lebih diri dari duduk
Lebih cawan dari mangkuk

Berkata-kata jangan lupa
Banyak yang bertukang di mata dan Mulut
Sedikit sahaja yang Menukang di tangan
Bangkai gajah busuk di hutan
Hendak di tanam
Pekong di kaki sendiri dibiarkan
Busuk oh..Pekong , Kurap, kudis, nanah, kayap.. eeiii..

Dua kali lima sepuluh
Lima kali dua sepuluh
Lapan campur dua sepuluh
Dua campur lapan sepuluh

Sama pandai sama bodoh
Sama lawa sama hodoh
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Sama tepok sama bongkok

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Duduk diam tunggu dulu
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Sebelum kau berbicara
Sebelum kau nak berkata
Cermin dulu hujung rambut
Hingga ke hujung hujung kuku kakimu

Kurangkan lada kurang pedasnya
Kurangkan rempah kurang panasnya
Kurangkan lebah kurang sengatnya
Kurangkan cakap kurang silapnya

Baik membisu takut takut
Mana tahu silap hari
Silap bulan lambat laun
Silap tahun kau menjadi

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Lapan campur dua sepuluh
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Jangan cakap lepas
Biar pandai beralas
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Hinamu hanya bias
Cercamu cuma tempias
Hari ini kami berkias
Esok lusa kami mengganas

Jangan suka jaga tepi kain orang lain
Kain sendiri yang terlondeh
Kata dulang paku serpih
Kata orang dia yang lebih
Ada orang suka menerima
Tapi tidak suka menderma
Ada orang suka menderma
Tapi diharap dibalikkan semula

Dua kali lima sepuluh
kali dua sepuluh
Lapan campur dua sepuluh
Dua campur lapan sepuluh
Sama pandai sama bodoh
Sama lawa sama hodoh
Sama cerdik sama belok
Sama tepok sama bongkok

Dua kali lima sepuluh
Lima kali dua sepuluh
Lapan campur dua sepuluh
Dua campur lapan sepuluh
Sama pandai sama bodoh
Sama lawa sama hodoh
Sama cerdik sama belok
Sama tepok sama bongkok

kwek..kwek..kwek..kwekk.kwekk..

if last 2 years i exposed my p5s (gosh i miss them) to Alhamdulillah by Too Phat, how about this one for this year. Say, scholar class? Idea eh?

oh and work's piling, news, not so great, but we're all looking at the brighter side aren't we?

:) in love and out of love.
podah.

because if i could, i would have slapped you real fucking hard.

there's two sides of every story.
silap sendiri mana nak nampak kan?

pffft.

with all these huge responsibilities thrown to me work-wise, i seriously don't need another problem. so thanks a lot.

dua ribu sebelas

setahun sudah kita lalui perhubungan ini...

sayang sama lu, huge stomach and all :)