:(

sometimes i wish my profession allows me to take leave when i really want and need a break.
it's only coming to week 7 of the year and i'm drained out.these pending things i have, are only for this term. even more to come with the double preggies in the dept. sigh. i'm going to have people breathing down my neck supersoon. i have so many papers to settle. i have things other than my subject matter to think about. loootts of them, goodness!
seems like i've been thrown so many things this year, i better have a great lot of self motivation or i might really, really pancet rabak halfway :(

thanks a lot to my homeland for the expensive cost of living. i guess i'm never allowed to stop working,ever :(

thanks a lot to boss who's really making it so difficult for diploma holders to earn a lot despite the same amount (or probably more) of work. come to think of it, i'm miserly paid and getting a degree would really really burn a hole in my pocket. orang kata ada degree baru boleh rasa lah gaji tu. ya Allah, tabahkanlah hambamu ini.

on a really, really brighter note, my fiance(omg i can laugh just by typing that. fiance, weird or what?!) is on his way to get his license.i'm proud of you muster, Alhamdulillah :) that's something awesome to think about.tapi with great power, comes great responsibility. and less time, less time for me. boohoo.

ok enough ranting. have a lot of work to do.

i wish every weekend's like this. minus the workload.thanks.

honestly

one, i should stop having too idealistic views. two, we must be better people. three, patience.

and the list goes on. a change of status and an inevitable argument sets in. but it still amazes me how we settle these things by just saying what's on our minds. and it's really a bonus when there's a cooler, more calm and collected one between the two. which, isn't me by the way.

being the centre of attraction is scary to tell you the truth. god knows the number of times i sighed after smiling so much at the endless number of shots taken none other than family members and friends. haha. but seeing the faces of friends, the hardwork put in by my family members (and my lovely girls), is really just too beautiful. i love every single one of these people and i'm feeling totally humbled and grateful to have them around me. thank you is an understatement. all of you are in my prayers :) :)

to mus, we can say or plan whatever we want, ultimately the decision is His. in the mean time, we'll work together whatever we are hoping for, insya Allah. weird but i love you even more the next morning i woke up after our engagement. =)

thank you for making and keeping me happy.

thank you too for changing ur seat in Mac just coz u didnt want ur attention to go to the TV.

ily.