b mcknight in shining armour

yes, aku tak buih diri sendiri hari ni. i went to the library okay. soo refreshing. but kinda shortlived coz for the first time i got pretty disgusted and scared being alone in a public and so mulia place. there was this man who kept looking at me lah. sempat bukak specs lagi seh. and so many times that i got so uneasy, the moment he turned to choose a book, i went out of the place. sick lor. don't taint one of my favourite places okay. and more non-fiction books please?

anyways, the past few days and weeks have been great fun i laughed so much i'm getting a great feeling bout 2009. tapi don't hope so much hor, it's just Jan. who? january lah dey! and march is gonna rock i cannot wait!

oh remind me not to go sentosa on public hols. the last time i went, it's like jampacked with foreigners i felt lost in my own land. those stairs leading to the flower fest looked like great wall of china sia. how to pull a zhangziyi when 1368469 eyes are just everywhere around you right?! sheeshkebab i miss abang kebab betul.

come come take a peek!

this is baby kebab.

baik or what!

menang. hands down. menang.

i tried singing along to b mcknight. to no avail though. must let the man sing alone. too beautiful. but then again, come the concert (yes i'm going with my girls bayybeeeh!), watch out ah b mc. watch out. can't wait!

ok bye!

ps: siapa tu yang berbual pasal orang tu? jangan test-test ok. mari kita tgk siapa yang kena!

jom sayang

i realise there's too many types of people i dislike. those who talk big (yada yada yada), those who lie (seriously dude, what DO you get?), those who take people forgranted (what goes around comes around) and of course those who are just plain rude. technically, there are more characteristics, but it just goes to show how hard it is to please me right? but seriously, do YOU like these kinda people? and it's not as if i hate them or anything. but wait, i do hate being lied to. but i don't think i hate liars. i might disown them though. haha but seriously, it's not easy to please me. just ask... hmmm. nevermind.

eh anyways, what's da commotion with the usage of "awak" and "oklah you" now eh? seems like it's been going on for days in my conversations. no offence to boboy biskot, gegerl lion, cik kak karipap and the likes lah, i'm talking about MY personal life here. tapi kalau with the 'right' people, macam ader cara ahh gitu... nyet!

ok awak kita aside, assignments are OUT. and i'm not even excited to start on em. what is new, seriously?

minah meeting tomorrow. yes!

post berterabuh

you know orang selalu cakap bila umur dah mula meningkat, Tuhan tarik kenikmatan dunia kita bit by bit? i might be experiencing it with the people around me.maybe it's just me but she might be losing her strength and maybe her sense of hearing (or maybe kita berbual perlahan sangat) but i hate myself for failing to understand all these and instead, losing my patience over it. yes, my patience. as simple as this and already i see signs of failure in myself. i never wanted to raise my voice. i never wanted to get pissed off. but it just happened that way. i cannot even control my temper. what the hell sia shikin, seriously.

or maybe i'm just scared. coz i do not want it to happen.

just like how we don't want amin to leave (yerlah kita actually taknak) but it's really happening, in 22 days and life's really gonna sucklahbodo.

and i don't think i'm stupid. aku admit aku lembab, selenge dan blur. tapi aku tak bodoh.

sometimes the last thing you want comes in first

sometimes the first thing you want never comes

but i know that waiting is all you can do

aku nak teh tarik.

i shall wait for teh tarik.

and aku benci nyamuk.

benci.

revolutionofsixtynine

on a roll or what? very bitch or what? melenting macam minah or what?

songs are great. friends is hilarious.
obama is change. change is good.

aqualung is soo soothing it's putting me to sleep.

Seems to me
I'm exactly where i dreamt
I would be
And the view from here is
Something to see
But i need a hand to hold on to
If i fall
Will you catch me
-If I fall, Aqualung

anyways, since we're living in a world filled with different kinds of people, stop being an ass and just tolerate.

bye.
jangan bimbang sayang.

pissed now aye?

oops i did it again. i'm torn between two. so here's the story morning glory (which is a pretty flower btw)

one's new. funny, honest and real all in one. and a looker too, if i may add.

then there's the other one. sticking by me when i'm having the blues. never failing to invoke emotions in me. will leave me thinking for days. and just like the new one, funny, honest and real.

you see. it's the same thing i fall for.
do i need a change or shall i just keep the old?

how?

oklah aku annoying and ngantuk sebenarnya.
i'm referring to private practice and grey's anatomy. back to back on monday nights, yes yes i've said it.

i love them both i refuse to choose :)

get angry with the world. be my guest. it'll only leave u darn tired.
accept. learn to accept.
tolerate. please tolerate.
and stop ur nonsense u izzrayel militants because the poor babies do not deserve all these. their bullies shouldnt be armed with weapons.

peace out.a-town. tet tet tet tet.yeah.

in da club

i've not been reading in quite a while. must rekindle the love.

anyways, read the newpaper today, the article bt that terror suspect (pretty scary i must say) , my gaaaawd that girl can write! she looks familiar too. and her vocab is superb I'd love to read more articles by her. very turn-onnish. i'm so weird, i know.

it's words people. i love beautiful words.

thank god for great beats coz some hip-hop songs, really cannot make it y'all.

You can find me in the club,
bottle full of Bub
Look Mami, I got that X, if you into takin' drugs
I'm into having sex, I ain't into making love
So come give me a hug if you into getting rubbed

do admit boy, tak boleh make it.

no seh.

i have this terrible bugging feeling that .....

i don't know why i always .....

seriously dude, seriously.

12-12.13-12.09.

o my friggin fishball cheeks, i think i'm good luck chuck.
kalau nak sedapkan hati, will get jessica alba soon. hurhurhur.

insecurities aside, zako gave assurance i'll get a mat kay-el.

whatever, okay.

confirm aftereffect of chewy's wedding invitation. my baby's getting married!

and i had a sweet, sweet dream it's so sweet it's never gonna happen.

suka hati lor. briyani ayam zam zam da bomb.

:) ;)

macam nak pergi shopping tapi duit kata no, no no. mother?

bring it on 09

ok so i guess o-nine's taking me on a ride of emotions. only the fifth of jan (weewiit) and i realise i can have so many mixed feelings at one time.

started off with me, as usual restless, in the morning. i am soo not a morning person. wait. not quite a night person too. oh my god, am i even a person? ok diam. totally unmotivated for school, knowing who's gonna take us. surprisingly, the lecture turned out pretty well. yes, i was motivated but am still in denial right now. you get my drift? so am i really motivated to start or not? i heard a silent yes, so insyaAllah. bring it on.

other days, i got so angsty and pissed i swear my zits popped out. now the one on my chin hurts like kena gigit ikan lapar. i got so annoyed i shut off from people. so i thought i'd just shut up and let the angst go before it gets ugly. or i get ugly. for small pathetic reasons. for pathetic reasons that do not need me wasting emotions on. so i chose to feel nothing, not annoyed or angry. just n-o-t-h-i-n-g. i'm good at feeling nothing. yes. so, suck it in.

and did i tell you i got back from sabah receiving great news from phatmily? sexciting i cannot wait.

i chatted with an ex-colleague soon to be colleague again, informing me of news in the school. mixed feelings again. for one, i am thankful i'd be back in a known environment. but then again, you do not know how much i miss my boys. my little ones, how time flies, they're in p3 now can you believe it? and my best class ever? p6!!! oh my god i miss them soooooooooo much it sucks laaaarrr. boleh nangis macam kunyang right now seh. urgh.

best class ever, of course not full force.

my little uns. zicky i miss you!!! and rosyam and raul, aniq, danish! aaaaaaaaaahhhhh!!!!!

not related but true. i had a long dream about you yesternight. can't quite remember what it was all about. but you were there. my becoming, selfish young man.

would be nice to get back the acknowledgement in real life wouldn't it? macam rindu pun ada.

oh wells.

i think i could just be hooked on private practice. and grey's next.followed by Friends. swell.

in denial dua puluh-empat jam

chew one sorry sorry shot

Sabah was breathtakingawesome. to be honest, i'm not left with much of me bonus in the bank and i'm overloaded with seafood. but was greeted home by mother's sambal sotong. deli or what. and prosperity burger is back. sodaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap sekali.

08 ended with me no longer being a virgin snorkeler.baik shikin!and since i already know how to really use the diving mask, you bet this won't be the last time.and hopefully the lifejacket doesn't suffocate me. HAHAHA. and the fish, kasi chance k. i might be in the wrong (left me feeling pretty bad about it), though the biting sound they made is still vivid in my mind. (obvious exaggeration laaa, but i suuwwwwear.)

champion sho(r)t.

then amazed by dead audience and the fireworks which got us girls all excited one moment and terrified the next. macam jatuh on us. scaareemarreee. but really funny. long live fire!

started off the New Year doing a tribal dance and where adik almost got killed by the tribes. played their games which i really sucked at. i do not even have the power to aim. macam siak. tak boleh diharap betul. kalau aku orang kadazandusun, siang-siang dah mati kena sumpit agaknya. spotted the proboscis monkey which was fun but we got bored after a while haha and saw fireflies in the dark, making the trees look like it's christmas. and the starfilled sky, gorgeous.

macam scary.

si monyet hidung besau.

next day, had a bumpy ride to Mount K. cheh berbual macam mendaki gunung. we went to kinabalu park and tracked up to the canopy walkway i.e. jambatan atas pokok. seriously, what a way to start the new year right? i was obviously captivated by the gorgeous scenery near the Mountain. and when we need to walk up, we were half dead actually. ni lah gara-gara tak exercise langsung. baru 500m and we were complaining already. shame on us. hoho.

tu gunung balu cina aka Mount Kinabalu kat belakang. hitam belegam.

then the real thrill begins. walking on the plank (of course with nets surrounding it). 5 canopies totalling to 500m across, and get this, 40 m high. aku sumpah, if my pessimistic side won, i'd have cried and shivered the whole time. but i was silently motivating myself, and not thinking of the worst. looked down a couple of times, macam nak terkencet pun ada coz you can't even see the ground. kalau jatuh kirakan kau termasuk bawah tanah straight ah. (exaggeration, yet again, i think)

step ada courage. boleh tahan ah.

then berendam in the hot spring. kids boobs sebab macam mandi bathtub with hot water. but what the hell, feels so good after climbing the mountain (stoppit). and van-ed down again this time with heavy rain andrew the closet f1 driver had to slow down (a lil) coz fog was covering his view, and of course ours, as passengers (hey aku tak tido all the time ok). saw 2 accidents along the way. praying like mad silently. and we saw not one, but two rainbows side by side. total beauty!!

on top of that, bargained, ate and laughed a lot. very good holiday. met people from different parts of the world. and sabahans are really wonderful people. awesomeness and really, really pretty memories :)

with tallest

hooookeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

on a less exciting note, school starts in a few hours time. thank god for free friday baby.

much love!