aku menyampah and penat tau. hari-hari the mood fluctuates.

it's like every night, i keep telling myself baaaaabiiii ahhh sekolah again tomorrow.
then in school, i realise it's not so bad after all.

and the same old cycle will continue every morning and night, for godknows how long. tak payah cakap practicum habis ah kan. tu bond nak taruk mana? oh god, help me get through this with ease.

but please don't get me wrong. i love teaching and i love my kids.

still, i don't know why the lack of enthusiasm every night.

merepeknakmampos betolah.

nothing at all

four weeks down people, come on!

my life revolves around school, yep. pretty much so. loong hours in school, thinking of what to do for observations, when to have observations. seriously, it's pretty draining. and having ten observations, plus one by the number two is not a joke lah. penat tau nak fikir. sigh. suck it in. we can do this shawties. heh. :)

other than that, my life is, as boring as yours.

but confessions of a shopaholic is soo good. isla is adorable. and hugh dancy, so delicious. like an older version of brody, adam that is. thus, might just be twice as yummeh. those curls.cutenyer.xoxo. ada abang melayu gituk tak? yang reliable punyer. but don't want sidecurls then middle botak.

don't mind me. hormones. and don't get me started on kris, adam and matt. rawr.

seronok lah tu

let me tell you, my perangai is very disgusting ok. yes it is the one week break, thank god. and yes i am having the time of my life just rotting, keluar kecoh-kecoh and rot again. ada niat nak buat kerja tak? soo tidak. macam mana eh? it's not that i have nothing to do. actually i have like a lot a lot of LPs to be done (unlike dore, so babi! haha), then resources too, not like my bahan-bahan are worthy of being awed at, seriously, aku buat apa yang patut jer yer, and don't even get me started on how 'detailed' my LPs are. then there's the essay to be done. like come freaking on that's the last last thing on my mind.

i so so feeel like tanning at sentosa. the beautiful mr sun, the gorgeous scenery. ahh the serenity and everything. tapi weather very not on my side. and yah. aku bangun jer pukul brapa.but i feel so carefree. hehe. and life's been good. minus the ache i had a few weeks back haha which was seriously kental on my part (and assholic on yours) butts, all great now. :)

and i have yuna's dan sebenarnya repeatedly playing in my laptop, on my mind, in my sleep. gawd. that girl is emphatically awesome!hoho.

then i got a message from whoever in my dream tt read 'where are you?' got me laughing out loud.

gawd, i'm so lost in my own complicated-sendiri-plus-soo-not-fairytale-like-world, i'm soo pathetic.

stay
keep me awake
keep me amazed
only for today
keep me dazed
my love is yours only

p.s:redlipstickgirls, comeback this sat.tentative but hopefully.

bestnyer kalau aku secun diandra paramitha sastrowardoyo.

st12-jangan pernah berubah

how great is it to be finally waking up at noon, without having a care in the world? heh. ok bedek ah. still got lotsa things to be done. but come freaking on, i need a breather. and loong sleep, retail therapy and meetup with friends are just what i need. :) :) plus a terpekik-terpekau session at home.

so three weeks have passed. alhamdulillah, so far so good. i'm pretty much loving the younger ones, not that i don't love those eleven year olds, it's pretty hard to get them to give me good quality work and, talking sense most of the time. ahh, must crack ze brain for engaging lessons. kinda noticed they like quizzes. we shall see. and many many more observations to go. must remind self not to slack, remember there's sports day, and SA1 revision week, so don't yaya papaya.

you know making my way round school, to classes, going for relief classes and everything, you get to meet soo many different types of kids. my netballers taught me how to play netball. yes can you believe it? still, aku tak faham, though i scored. wow, amazing. satu hari main, satu minggu badan sakit-sakit.

then relief for the big, older ones. it's like you have to put on a stern face, and not to scold them excessively coz they'll just rebutt and everything. then there's this 'couple' plotting against me and talking about me, INFRONT of me. like tolong yer anak-anak. puhlese.aku sabo baru tahu. muahahahas.

then you see a few lovable faces. and you walk around class, seeing this soo well-behaved boy, quiet and doing his work. quite a looker too, only to check out that he's from the orphanage next door. that moment, i nearly shed a tear. sigh, kesian betul. and on the contrary, that boy who's famous for sleeping during lessons, is from the orphanage as well. sigh. sedih betul.

then there's my younger babies, who made me so so so happy that day. thank you. :)

and the bunch of trainees who are just so so funny! (ni plus the seybok teachers haha)

school stuff aside, when u said let go, you really really really have to mean it. so let go, just let go hor.

lets go!

endofterm

i slept so happy i'm still smiling right now.

this week, minus the merepek assignment..well we deserve it. and hell yeah mosaic's free gigs come at the right time.

proper update soon. maybe.

bye!

love,
besar kemungkinan dah tak kisah. :)

like best like that

this week was splendid. i couldn't ask for anything more. alhamdulillah.

the kids made me smile a great lot. no matter how mischievous, they're just so adorable. koochi koochi. and it totally rocked that the environment's good as well. alhamdulillah. :)

what's even more awesome was my date with mr a to z himself. nevermind the fact i was the only crazy girl standing up, screaming, dancing, singing and shouting the whole time in my row. yikes. the feeling was just superb! couldn't ask for more, well, maybe for a pic and a hug, then for absolutely zero, bella luna, wordplay, if it kills me. then perfection. ahhhhhhhhh. still, mraz is love. pure love. like taufik batisah. :) banyak berangan.

other than that, random chats and smses just made u laugh out loud doncha think? here's two, from well 2 of my favourite people..

on msn,
Diy: hari2 aku makan makaroni
shikin: tapi murah best eh
Diy: 1 dls baybeh
Diy: letagedit
shikin: letagedit
Diy: HAHAHA!
Diy: letak begeil
shikin: HAHHAHAHAH
shikin: typo setan seh
Diy: GAGA!
Diy: agaggaga!

ok seriously, what she meant was letak begedel. typobabibesarpunya.

on sms,
zako: dol, i transferred the wedding $ to your account already
shikin: thanks beb. and you meant doll right?
zako:ya. babi doll.

aha.aha.aha. i have funny friends.

and i love em so.

weekends or wad!