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Realiti

Masa lenaku hampir-hampir tamat. Aku rasa seolah-olah ada sepasang mata memerhatiku yang sedang enak tidur. Aku buka mataku lalu tersenyum melihat wajahmu begitu asyik menuntunku dari tadi. Kau ukirkan senyum sayang lalu mengucup keningku. Pagi awak, sambil membelai-belai rambutku yang kusut-masai akibat tidur nyenyak (hey, nobody's perfect). Aku menutup mataku kembali sambil tersenyum...Morning babe.

Maaf. Tu tentunya bukan realiti.

Ni baru betul!

Masa lenaku hampir-hampir tamat. Aku rasa seolah-olah ada sepasang mata memerhatiku yang sedang enak tidur. Aku buka mataku lalu ternampak wajah bengis mama. Hoi. Ewah ewah. Matahari dah naik tegak baru nak bangun eh, anak dara!

Aku menutup mataku kembali sambil tersenyum kambing .... jap lagi yer. mimpi indah belum habis.

Alah worth a thought berangan right?

sesungguhnya

so many events that happened, realistically or not, these past few days, made me ponder about.. me. about my life. and about life, in general.

that and conversations i've had with people. awake and when i'm asleep (mimpi lah, doh!) weird weird weird.

anyways, mom was super funny lah tadi. as you know, i've been romancing the novel the past few days, which to me, is one of the luxuries of life :),ahh bliss. k back to the story, mom was watching suria and they showed the post-apm thingy lah. interviews after the show. if you watched, KRU won i forgot what and they interviewed em (i love KRU btw.. ooh la la fanatik). so i jokingly said to mom,

me: ma.. orang kahwin ngan Norman sudah ma. dia sampai sekarang tak kahwin-kahwin.
as usual, mom just looked at me, really, with a tak ambil kisah nyer look.

skali, they played some kiddie story on suria and ada si abang mayuni pulak. guess what mom said?

me mom: eh mayuni? girl, kau kahwin dengan mayuni sudah.
me: HUH? mayuni!
me mom: a'ah lah, daripada kau nak ambik Norman.
me: PER JER

mama, mama, boleh layan pulak yer. HAHA.

tak kelakar eh? takpelah nak share jer.

oh guess what? i finished reading 'Ayat-Ayat Cinta'. But it's the Bahasa Melayu Edition, don't know if the real one would be more beautiful than this. The whole novel just makes me feel so daif as a Muslim. but it's nice. not much on polygamy and everything, more to love for Islam. what true love really means. cinta hamba pada Tuhan. cinta suami pada isteri. cinta isteri pada suami. cinta pada kawan-kawan.confirm terkesan. confirm. cannot cannot cannot wait for the movie!

"Cinta sejati dua insan berbeza jenis adalah cinta yang terjalin setelah akad nikah. Iaitu cinta kita pada pasangan hidup kita yang sah. Cinta sebelum menikah adalah cinta semu yang tidak perlu disucikan dan diagung-agungkan"

~Ayat-ayat Cinta

if you think Ruzgar Kamal Suleyman's da man of ur dreams. wait till you "meet" Fahri Abdullah Shiddiq.

i'm in love

ketika ku bersujud

:)

toko warisan

i like definitely, maybe. aku tahu, i we're like the last two to watch it lah. not really, actually, tadi masih ramai. back to that, banyak awww quotes. i think it's nice lah. the message behind it and everything. but the fact that it might take years just sucks doesn't it. "not who, but when" might just have to agree with that ;P

i got the book. come 8th may, i'm ready. happy and ready. thank you seh toko warisan, tak yah gi jauh-jauh nak beli.

don't mind me. the next few days, i'll drown myself in not one, but 2 malay novels.

wow. if only i was this enthusiastic for sastera.

much love. :)
nak join?
we'll just sit beside each other and read.

cukup cukup oh cukuplah

explain to me again why i am so bloody fcuked up over this matter?

oh yah.

it has been happening time and time again.

that's it?

no?

right. because you actually bothered to do all that.
Albeit all your complaints and rantings.

wow.

there should be more right?

yes.

because you went back on your words.
whatever you said and whatever you did,
tak sama langsung,
tak sama.

what does that show?

that you're an asshole?

that i'm a bigger asshole for actually giving you so many chances?

goddammit.

aku cuma tahu for now aku bingit dengan kau,
aku bingit dengan perangai kau.
aku bingit dengan aku.

i should seriously stop giving a damn about you right now.

ok cool it.
let go.

i BETTER have fun later.
but the fact remains,
you're still an ass.

and i am stronger than this.
i know.

the square root of three

people, boleh smell that? that's the scent of freedom. yes, freedom. kau boleh nampak aku senyum? best eh? nak gi dating? aku ada 2 bulan. jom? hoho.

sorry yer, aku punya suka lah aku nak buat apa.

Anyways, sebab aku suka, kami gi tengok OAG. by kami i meant me, diy, shah, bonzo bas, kiky, kiky's handsome friend (sempat!), awal, adik, mirah. and OAG was beautifool. aishah yang cuma tahu satu lagu (ok more to dia ber oh oh oh all the way) pun lompat-lompat. eeehh wait seminit, aishah memang selalu lompat-lompat kan? oh wells. but seriously, they were suuuperr great lah. best best, tak rugi pergi, rugi tak pergi.

then after that we watched harold and kumar. i never laughed that loud in the cinemas before seh. and that poem, adoi, sweet kan. and it's true what kumar said "some girls find intelligence sexy". ah, nampak aku tgh angkat tangan and waving my hand frantically? yes, i'm one of those girls. and yes, for this one i'm referring to mr-yellow-T-blonde hair-i-want-your-brain-you-sexy-you.

err did i just say that? wow. what's happening to me. hornified?

naah. i'm always like this. yes. :) aaahh you, self-denial? everybody knows.

oh anyways, go catch harold and kumar. M18 (ya right - atas bawah nampak.. dahsyat). rugi tak tengok, tak tengok rugi. (the movie, not the atas bawah)

what else can i selitkan here? ooh i heard rihanna's 'take a bow', very nice. i think it's for you. :)

k dah cukup membebel. bye. addooiiiii!

if i give my heart to you
i must be sure
from the very start
that you will love me
more than her

ps: diy nyer gate tak leh bukak semalam. hurhurhur.