itu kamu

Pooft and the weekend's over. Time is moving so fast and before you realise it,it's may.one more month and we're moving on to the 2nd half of 2007. wow.two more months (plus plus) and i'm leaving the school. as much excitement as there is as i'm gonna embark on the new phase of my life, i cannot help but feel sad that i'm gonna leave the boys-them who taught me the true meaning of patience. kesabaran. of a love-hate feeling. sigh.

and yes, readers, i've gotten the long awaited letter to enter NIE.YES!Alhamdulillah syukur.The endless waiting, the anticipation. the kancheongness.we just need to sign the letter and insya-Allah, 25th july, NIE baby!thanks to those who prayed..heeee.

anyways, i watched 'Jangan Pandang Belakang'. at midnite on saturday with my sisters. was scared shit lah kan throughout the movie, but that's that. tak terngiang-ngiang pun.tak terbawak-bawak outside also. the effects were scary (sound, camera and everything) but the hantu's makeup could be much better. that hantu's appearance just spoils the erm fright? but yes, it's ugly. and jalaludin's funny lah sia.

and the dinner yang sungguh mengenyangkan with the kekeks was great.4th may. we had tulang, ayam, sate, sugar cane with lemon..ahh yum!!!! semakin tembamlah pipiku ini. then we went to concourse, bought some masks and party stuff and took lotsa crappy, but cool (duh~) shots. thanks to khammie, our professional photographer. we became superheroes that night. really. thanks girls and much love. when's our next karaoke session? HAHA.

on a slightly sad note, my moyang passed away on Sunday morning. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya. Amin. I've always known him as Tok Long, but I just found out that he's my grandma's uncle. And he was 88.

It truly broke me when I salamed and hugged my grandma and she suddenly burst out crying. She said "nenek hari-hari jaga dia, sekarang dia yang pergi dulu." Aku terpaksa tahan my tears from flowing ok.

As I saw his body lying there, with my grandma beside him, I suddenly remembered my late grandma. How the whole family cried, how we reacted upon hearing the news, at the kubur and everything. time flies huh?

i still remembered her last moments.my last moments with her. i visited her with mom at the hospital.didn't want to go as i wanted to meet rabz and aishah to study for our exams in school.mom convinced me to, so i went for a while.she hasn't been conscious for weeks already.

when i wanted to leave the hospital, mom said this to me:

"Pegi cium nenek. Kau dah lama tak cium nenek kan."

So i kissed her on the forehead.

went to school. reached school. went to eat. and mom called. Nenek was gone. just like that.

Alfateha untuk Nenek, Datuk and Tok Long.

ok.. i just realised how random this loooooong post is.

Ana (Hikmah)'s getting on my nerves. stop being so nice ohkay!!! and Eva is worse than Fifi. what a bitch.

Tengok Himah lagi boleh buat darah up siak.

ok bye!
much love,
shikin!!

ps:ITU KAMU rocks my superman socks!