oh sleep
you're so selfish
why do you come and go as you please?
the eyes call you when lids are heavy
the body craves you when it lies all comfy
the mind all ready with memories so pretty
but sleep
you skipped me
why do you come and go as you please?


p.s:aku tak boleh tidur lah..

urgh.

i lost something. and everybody in the whole world can only say

"oh i saw it last at so and so"

i fcuking know that.
thank. you.

and then it takes only that to make you realise that you can only depend on your own ass to survive.

gawd!

knafdihfwejfoiweydiwebfwjfpoiwhfweoweyfoewbfwncwkyioypoka!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

on a more cheerful note,

happy 22nd divo! i miss you much too :)

goddammit

today spells serenity. ok delete the fact that i can't sleep, but somehow still managed to wake up late. gawd. the body clock's all wrong. but it's ok coz i was awaken by aqil's smiles. i think he's the cutest baby.ever.

'aqil shaayaaanggg :)'

so i went to national library. chose some books and started drowning myself in one. "The English Teacher" by R.K. Narayan. Was giggling in some parts, not succumbing to the stomach that was seriously growling lah. dah bonch pun asyik nak mintak makan jer! biasa eh?!

the book was pretty good until it reached an anticlimax. well, to me, at least. read: wife died. man received letter. wife "communicated" with someone to write letters to man.

that was it lah. i mean if it's something like p.s. i love you, i'd continue reading. but once i knew it was some spirit thingy, naahh i just flipped through the remaining pages. but if u like these kinda unsur-unsur magis, you should read it. could be prettay interesting.

after which, made my sis and mom come down to bugis and had swensens for dinner. everything was oh so fine and peaceful until these 2 girls had to enter and piss the hell out of me.

they had to talk damn loudly lah. and guess what? they were talking in bimbotic-ala-zaman- 'clueless'-manner-heavily-accented-with-macam-paham-good-english.

turn off. seriously, turn off.

and they went on and on and on. they were seated right beside us by the way. i had to stop eating, put down my fork and knife and literally covered my ears, mouthing "shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up". but they still went on and on and on.

i poked my eye and was about to bite my fingers already coz the pain of hearing their conversations ("omg i look so pretty today") was far more excruciating then causing harm to myself.

so i just had to do it.

i waited to spot any errors they might make. until the magical moment came. their orders were made. oooh they giggled annoyingly and loudly too i must add. i could have pulled all my hair. then they ordered

'butterscosh'

enuff said.

BAHAHAHA!

please.save.me

i.am.officially.bored.out.of.my.thick.unruly.hair.and.skull.
i.am.jaded.
i.can.stare.at.walls.for.a.long.time.
i.can.play.songs.on.repeat.mode.forever.
the.people.i.annoy.are.used.to.it.already.DAMMIT.
are.you.beginning.to.bore.me.or.am.i.just.asking.for.much.
too.much.more.
diam.lah.shikin.

ok enuff annoyance. i think it's time for ME time! apa?
ME time!

ooh do u know who hot hot heat is?

wel.. they're only like....the funkiest band ever.

thanks, you. i'll indulge in you next.

goodnight goodnight.

ps:lebih baik korang jangan layan.

capuccino.sastera.congkak

do you know how happening mosi was yesternight? mesti sebab ada david cook. (HAHA). so the Mean-ah lepaked with the Gee-kie and the Ro-kokker. great fun. dorang reminisce pasal zaman hot stuff dorang. hoho. whereas me, people watching da whole time and gawd were there beautiful people yesternight. :) so i'm contented.

saw mr white-T-blondehair-i-want-your-brain-you-sexy-you. not at Mosi though. but oooh ooh oohh :)

met omar at mosi. who made a face when i told him i'm taking malay. "But you're a Literature student!"..."yah, now i'm taking malay literature?".. "ppffffftttt" ahahaha. nah i'm not angry. sometimes i wonder why too. but i love everything about it, so it's fine. but if i may add, more eyecandies there please? aaaaaah but that's a whole different thing altogether.

anyways, this is random. could you ever get turned on seeing a guy smoke? oh me god i swear i did yesternight. there was just something about that pale white druggy look and nak kena tumbuk sideburns and those koyak rabak jeans that's soo soo orgasmic. and the sight of him sucking that ciggie, and exhaling the smoke oh so smoothly, it was as if time suddenly went 987586272075 times slower. yes. aku tak bedek. i could just stare at him puffing away all night long. he is by far, the closest thing i can get to an epitome of a sex symbol, here, in singapore. and i had my moment.

must be the humid weather.

oh we watched congkak too. seriously, kids boobs. i have no idea why they kept saying it's much better than jangan pandang belakang. gosh, at least bila tgk JPB, i was scared seh nak balik. ni, taik hidung masin tol. but the sound effects was cool ah. furthermore, i kept hearing "shhhiikkkiinn... shhiikkiiinnnn" and felt like hands poking and touching me. now THAT was really scary. really. riigghht.

dah. my hair's great annoyance this moment. i might just cut it short. like real short. agyness deyn short. but that's her. freaking hot. and she doesn't have pau-cheeks to boot. HA. we'll see how. let's just wait and see.

me: abang, belikan aku bf shirts. need em for practicum.
abang: papa kan ada banyak.

that.is.so.typical.of.shaifudin.

ok! bull.much.

love. much.

bye!

of white and pick-up lines

we've been kay-eled!

hello my dearests, i'm back from Kay-el! as usual, it's always grreeaatt! we laughed a lot actually, especially when we wanna checkout. That's a classic moment right there. and it's always nice to be somewhere, laughing your ass off at every single thing, pretending to take on a whole new image and well, bargaining at petaling. Aha.

Talking about Petaling Street, Uncle Mahsyuk says Hi to you people. aha. Dia macam paham jer kenal and ingat aku. But it's ok. He asked for you guys and kept saying aku cun(?!) jadi, it's forgiveable (HA..HA). Auntie's not there though, went to Thailand to visit her family, i'm guessing to stock up on those shades. (HA..HA).

Uncle cakap .. 'mahhhsyyuukkkkk'

Oh friends, i didn't get anything for anyone kays. Wasn't really planning on spending/shopping. Tapi duit tetap habis. Nak tahu kenapa? Sebab aku bawak balik perut buncit dan pipi tembam. Serious.

Oh you know we played this duaposen love test machine. guess what?
i'm dead fish.
hur.hur.hur.
what's dead fish?
ooh it's only ...the worst of the lot.(!)
hur.hur.hur.
celaka punya mesin.
sungguh menjengkelkan.
hur.hur.hur.

and what else?

had the bestest tasting tom yum at Bonser Corner at around 2 in the morning. Damn nice. and ada pakcik nyanyi lagi. lagu Mr Big. wow. suara memang oomph. tom yum memang delicious. and we kept singing Wild World throughout our stay. Best. HAHA.

made friends along the way. not inclusive of the mama jakun. gosh. there's Ahmad (Muhammad Hatta?) from Sabah, who's none other than the errrr chef specialising in omelette-making in the hotel. nice chap. "Hati-hati ya bila pulang." hehe.

and who can forget, pujaan hati ramai wanita. presenting, Iqbal from Indonesia. :) :) :)

"Ganteng ya kamu?"

and the rest is history.

:)

ok dah. i hope zah's 4 days of food's finally out of her body. very unhealthy! haha.

by the way, full body massage was ooh soo sedap.

and i miss blading. let's go!

love much,

shikin.

hey, you cried 'wolf' already

kelakar-seram, but enjoy sakan

p.s.number 1: Asri kat belakang, dia bowl dari jarak jauh tau. and pakai bowling ball warna hijau. ada gaya, tapi performance, oh-kay lah. but semestinya, lebih baik dari aku.

p.s.number 2: daniel is the one taking the photo. initially, he didn't know how (to take a photo, yes, tell me about it). race: indian, height: tall, wearing specs. interest:maybe dvamaumati (coz they always play side by side, can't be coincidence all the time,right?)

one: your lies ooh your lies are going to eat you.

two: do not even bother to try it, again.

three: who am i? who are you? who are they? what are we? but lets continue.

four: different worlds. different opinions lah babe.

five: david cook and andrew cook = yummay X 2

six: my yahoo mail kept winning the lottery. annoyance. pfft.

seven: jason mraz's 'butterfly'. oooooooooooooooooooooooohh jason, tsk tsk tsk. listen, you'll know what i'm talking about.

eight: "i'll never let your head hit the bed without my hand behind it" ooooo JOHN! john mayer -your body is a wonderland. nope, not mine (NYAHAHAHA). jennifer love hewitts'. yup. but sexy song.

nine: my laptop is lagging like nobody's business. snail start-up speed. please don't die. i need you.

ten: sunday is coming. real soon. s.e.x.c.i.t.e.d.b.a.n.g.e.t.

okay. i so cannot think of what else to write. very random aye?

before i end,

Y: anyway after you come back KL, can we all meet?

X: you rindu me rrriiigghhhttt?

Y: shuddap..

by the way, shuddap means.. Yes.

HAHA.

i'm soo missed. and you're going to miss me more seh. confirm. (macam paham)

muay thai so hawt.

bye!

busok kiss satu.

bukan rayuan gombal

how excited can moms be on mother's day? seriously, kalau ada anugerah mak-paling-excited-nak-dapat-presents, my mom menang, hands down. even papa noticed and commented "apesal ngan mak korang nie happy sangat?" AHAHA i love mama, and papa too.

HAHA!!! papa tgh impersonate i have no idea what. and i told you mom's excited.

and this girl who better love me because of volcom. and also because i am the best. you better. more than travis barker.

anyways, i am so sexcited. kay-el is confirmed! oh my god i can feel the gerekness already. yay yay! yay yay!!

by the way, hari ni macam a lot of very impromptu plans. which happens way better than bila we have expectations, trust me. walked to and fro only to return to arab st, yet again.

and we (kham + zah + me) lepaked at mosi, as usual. tibak, whom i'm calling romeo from now on (waduh gombal deh kamu) is just soo friggin funny lah. nice chap. cute too. zah's in love (for the 7362357th time).

i think i'm getting prettay tired of sheesha. fenings. oh me god, am i for real? ahahahks.

and to top it off, went home with gondol. why? because he misses me.HAHA. k fine lah. aku lah aku lah. sikit jer.

i think i'm going to die of potato overload.

much love,

shikin

:)

godforsaken right

so where shall i start?

can i start by telling the world how happy i am today? yeah i'm happy. sebabnya? adalahhhh.. :) :) :)

first and foremost, i finally completed "What is the what". LOVE it. as you know, i luurrvee books like this. biographies/autobiographies.. inspirational..survival.. u get my drift. i think valentino achak deng's a real hero. he kinda symbolize true will and perseverence, to move on, to live, to be better and everything. Bagus sekali. ooh read about him people, here. tabik tantawi style. aku kalau nampak dia aku peluk. bukan general, tapi valentino. :)

then then, me and Zah watched Ayat-ayat cinta! ahhh yes. personally, i'd prefer the book. some significant events were cut. but i enjoyed the movie. oh so much i cried buckets. hingus and everything. very good. macam nak tengok lagi. nak tengok with me? nanti i wipe my tears hingus on your baju. ;P and it was weird as it seemed that only the both of us were sobbing. takde perasaan ke korang yang lain? and no prize for guessing who was ooohiingg and ahhiingg and hyperventilating the whole time. hint: not me.

go catch it peeps, maybe the fact that i read the book already made it difficult to enjoy the movie fully, nonetheless, it's still beautiful. really. :)

ooh lepas tu met up with Rabz, Chewy, Liza! best!! just blabbering nonsense. poking fun at each other. Chewy's getting married next year! and Rabz's getting married tomorrow. right. love! :)

welcome back, you! :)

p.s: big clash eh dengar-dengar? sexciting!

much love,
shikin

memakcik

alkisah 2 makciks pergi geylang, joochiat, TKC. kedai jamu lagi kau! gi geylang pun si dua makcik ni boleh beli buku. wow, we amaze ourselves sometimes.

kebelakangan hari ni asyik pening jer kepala. the weather. the unhealthy reading whilst lying down. the reading and napping and waking up to read again. the asal boleh time nak makan aku makan. the tidur lambat bangun confirm lagi lambat. ultimate un-anak-dara behaviour seh. oh wells~

i need to do something productive. hmmm maybe i should start cleaning that mess-of-a-room. maybe tomorrow? ooorrr maybe not.

eh if you were to ask me right this moment, whether i miss you or not, i'll prolly say yes.
or then again, maybe not.

friday jumpa old school besties. best tak? best kan??!

k tengok nie. cute gilers.

bye!
smile for me?
ahh tu dia.

p.s:General Tantawi. Belum cuba, Belum tahu!

absolutely zero

so as usual, my sunday's spent with the little tall sister. and we acted like assholes, oklah me lah, i acted like some lameass girl making jokes out of nothing at all. but we were laughing the whole time. and to think we went 3 places, walked everywhere and we can't even spot 10 cute guys. gawd. noncute boys day or WHAT? then ingat nampak ashraff sinclair, skali ashraff bopley. that just explains everything.

mom said this to me tadi.. "kau jangan nak nengnongnengnong eh. simbar airpanas nanti".

siapa nak guess what's nengnongnengnong? my sisters, korang tak yah sebok. anyone? correct answers, 10 points k. ;P

k will update when something lifechanging happens. ryte. when i feel like it.

current read: What is the what by Dave Eggers
current listen: absolutely zero. breaks the heart man, just breaks the heart.

much love,
bye!

faithfully

the secondary school sweethearts got married. alalala sweetness. time really just doesn't wait for you aye? orang dah kahwin, dah ada anak, aku masih tunggu abang anuar masuk minang. tak dapat ah, orang cakap. mungkin didicazli ada harapan sikit. yer.lah.tu.

oh we finally went to sentosa. the sun is love seh (when u need a tan lah). apparently, someone is love too. hehe. but the weather's scorching hot nowadays it just wears you off. aku baring depan kipas jer, my day is gone. pooft. just like that. time wasted doing nothing, and i'll still feel bloody tired after that.

so what plans do you have eh people? nak jumpa bro ah-jing ngan bro ti-bak from turkey lagi? i love it there. and i miss sheesha. HAH. sheesha zora jadi zorro.

ayat-ayat cinta's gonna be out (WHOOOOHOOOOOO).
library dates with yours sincerely.
breakfast @ geylang with loves.
pizza hut with gondol.
ni ultimate.. ni yang da bomb...

i might have a date with a bad boy! (screams.. faints)

HA.HA.

korang tak tahu, sebab tu korang tak ketawa.

k dah lah. nak tido mimpi fahri.
sungguh mak suka!

kau tahu kau banyak berangan bila...

Realiti

Masa lenaku hampir-hampir tamat. Aku rasa seolah-olah ada sepasang mata memerhatiku yang sedang enak tidur. Aku buka mataku lalu tersenyum melihat wajahmu begitu asyik menuntunku dari tadi. Kau ukirkan senyum sayang lalu mengucup keningku. Pagi awak, sambil membelai-belai rambutku yang kusut-masai akibat tidur nyenyak (hey, nobody's perfect). Aku menutup mataku kembali sambil tersenyum...Morning babe.

Maaf. Tu tentunya bukan realiti.

Ni baru betul!

Masa lenaku hampir-hampir tamat. Aku rasa seolah-olah ada sepasang mata memerhatiku yang sedang enak tidur. Aku buka mataku lalu ternampak wajah bengis mama. Hoi. Ewah ewah. Matahari dah naik tegak baru nak bangun eh, anak dara!

Aku menutup mataku kembali sambil tersenyum kambing .... jap lagi yer. mimpi indah belum habis.

Alah worth a thought berangan right?

sesungguhnya

so many events that happened, realistically or not, these past few days, made me ponder about.. me. about my life. and about life, in general.

that and conversations i've had with people. awake and when i'm asleep (mimpi lah, doh!) weird weird weird.

anyways, mom was super funny lah tadi. as you know, i've been romancing the novel the past few days, which to me, is one of the luxuries of life :),ahh bliss. k back to the story, mom was watching suria and they showed the post-apm thingy lah. interviews after the show. if you watched, KRU won i forgot what and they interviewed em (i love KRU btw.. ooh la la fanatik). so i jokingly said to mom,

me: ma.. orang kahwin ngan Norman sudah ma. dia sampai sekarang tak kahwin-kahwin.
as usual, mom just looked at me, really, with a tak ambil kisah nyer look.

skali, they played some kiddie story on suria and ada si abang mayuni pulak. guess what mom said?

me mom: eh mayuni? girl, kau kahwin dengan mayuni sudah.
me: HUH? mayuni!
me mom: a'ah lah, daripada kau nak ambik Norman.
me: PER JER

mama, mama, boleh layan pulak yer. HAHA.

tak kelakar eh? takpelah nak share jer.

oh guess what? i finished reading 'Ayat-Ayat Cinta'. But it's the Bahasa Melayu Edition, don't know if the real one would be more beautiful than this. The whole novel just makes me feel so daif as a Muslim. but it's nice. not much on polygamy and everything, more to love for Islam. what true love really means. cinta hamba pada Tuhan. cinta suami pada isteri. cinta isteri pada suami. cinta pada kawan-kawan.confirm terkesan. confirm. cannot cannot cannot wait for the movie!

"Cinta sejati dua insan berbeza jenis adalah cinta yang terjalin setelah akad nikah. Iaitu cinta kita pada pasangan hidup kita yang sah. Cinta sebelum menikah adalah cinta semu yang tidak perlu disucikan dan diagung-agungkan"

~Ayat-ayat Cinta

if you think Ruzgar Kamal Suleyman's da man of ur dreams. wait till you "meet" Fahri Abdullah Shiddiq.

i'm in love

ketika ku bersujud

:)