God grant us patience.
God grant us peace. of mind. and heart.

test number one.

2nd last

mendak. haha. pretty much sucks that i'm still in singapore and will be in singapore til the end of holidays. probably 2 more weeks to buy some new clothes or probably comfy shoes for work. I've yet to clean the room(s) though. so that's one itinery not done. i've bought a journal for us, and wrote down stuff, so at least that's moving somewhere. i've cooked but only cooked stuff i already knew how to. i've also realised how much bawang putih can make a difference in the taste of food. at least mine haha. oh yes, and a winner here, i actually cooked, with mom's help of course, ayam lemak cili padi. baik shikin!and along the way, i've released my short temperedness which does not really prove to be healthy. sabar. :)

i had difficulty sleeping for days because i have urges for the toilet. i pee-ed constantly and alarmed myself. got my pee checked for nine bucks. turns out it's infection. had to complete my rounds of antibiotics which caused me headaches, or probably it's the usual headaches i keep getting. another medicine which looks like urine and taste pretty wild. but at least the urges are decreasing tremendously, alhamdulillah. get yourself checked early if things like this happen to you people.i lived with it for probably a month. not such a good idea.

went for hollywood after hours, which was really, a huge anti climax. yes, i'm too cheapskate for USS. furthermore, i'm a scaredy cat. got no balls for rides man. the fireworks was ok, but kinda hurt our eyes looking directly at them aha. the food, gawd. need i say more? but then again, five bucks.plus three for monorail. takpe, kita belajar.

zah's only coming back on new year.tick tock tick tock. that being said, 2011's gonna be a pretty heart pumping year. work and everything else. Don't despair, never lose hope, coz Allah is always by your side :) yah, from Maher Zain hee :) Insya Allah you'll find your way. we'll find our way :)

there are certain people
you just keep coming back to
:)

hidup bahagia

maaf sayang, i percaya teman i dari kata-kata you yang berputar belit tu. memang otak you bergeliga lah, i tak suka. tapi i percaya, setiap orang mesti pernah kecundang.

jangan sampai yang dikejar tak dapat, yang dikendong berciciran.

satu je i nak tanya you, berapa ramai you rasa you boleh kaup?

at its best

oh me goodness.i have a feeling i might rot till holidays are over.this week alone, i've been to geylang TWICE! yes. my mother is taking advantage of me. i should start planning for productive days or i might get depressed. but macam mana nak start eh? hmmm knowing me, i might procrastinate, thinking of what should be done and ta-da! holidays are over. perangai kan?

so pikiran punya pikiran, i did some thinking lah.what i think i should do this holidays, since i'm not going anywhere.gawd! how sad is that!ok here goes. disclaimer: whether i do it or not, is seriously up to my mood.

• clean my room. ok both rooms. this itself might take 2 weeks. one week to mentally prepare myself. few days after that to complain about the mess, which could be mine (or not) and the next few days to finally do it.
• source out school stuff for next year. since i already know which levels i'd be teaching, in which one of them would probably kill me, i should go think of awesome strategies to use. but then again, it has always been nato or mostly reaally spontaneous plans. hmm. we shall wait and see.
• probably get a journal for mus and me. no no, not to jot down our lovey dovey mushy stories, or lackthereof huahuahua. to calculate stuff like duit hantaran, mak andam, duit rumah. AHH just kidding. small calculations, like our budget which we neevveerr seem to adhere to, our kilograms hurhurhur, things to take note of... sounds cool eh? hahah taaappiiii.... :) :)
• meet ups with people. now is da time to really catch me peeps. really. lain masa, jangan complain.
• belajar masak mungkin? haahaaahaaahaaahaahaahaaa don't laugh. i am for real.

hmm i don't know what else? amacam? sounds like a good plan?

so now, anybody wanna motivate me to start with any of those? i'd be grateful :)

enjoy the weekends the rest of you!

pun intended.

on our second first date,

• we had dinner at Seoul Garden (a first for him.alalala)
• we intended to watch a movie at Great World City (a first for us.alalala)

yes, i mentioned intended. heh. minutes before the movie, we realised we lost the movie tickets. bummer i tell you. haha. dah takdir. lets continue..

• we had backup plan! to go back to my place and take the bike, watch a midnight movie somewhere else.
• but lo and behold, as i was walking down the stairs in the bus, i tripped. and my stupid shoes gave way. needless to say, it was paiseh tahap maksima.my heel is still in the damned bus.
• fret not. since we're already at my place, why not go change to a pair of slippers or something right?
• but no, upon reaching home and seeing dad so engrossed in the soccer matches, mustafa noor bin adnan decided to join dad....to watch soccer....at home..
• so yah,that's the end of my much anticipated second first date.

kesian eh? but we made it up on sunday. impromptu's the best :)

kat sini handsome seh mamat ni.

and of course, his pretty girlfriend.(shysmile)

kat rumah pun jadilah.hmph.

lama-lama blog ni jadi musandme.blogspot.com

sunnay

Heyho. guess what? it's the last week of school!

i've got great news to share! my lunchtime talent thingy which i've been procrastinating for probably 3 terms finally took place.haha. albeit having it for....4 days probably a fifth and last one tomorrow, I'd like to say it's a success. So yay Groovy Recess Time! It's amazing what music can do huh? I have special kids grabbing the mic and singing to Justin Bieber! :) nice.

and my P4 scholar class. yay. alhamdulillah. it's done. payment je belum settle. mudah-mudahan on top of having fun, the kids learnt something :)

school this year has taught me a lot. I think I grew a lot too. full load, hectic CCA, projects, admin. wow. Alhamdulillah. It's an awesome year.

holidays are around the corner. think it's time to catch up with friends. :) or those who really, sincerely wanna catch up. hah!

and and believe it or not, mus and me. we've been dating for a year. wow eh? haha. annndd wait for it,this year,on the same day when we first dated..we quarreled! hahahaha ok dah tu je. i love it that we're finally a normal couple. hurhurhur ;p

:)

today,he surprised me with a sandwich. :)

tonight, i thought,
i wanna go everywhere it takes me, with him.

i know.i'm so sappy.

it's about time we take notice of our own blessings aye?

someone like you

have i been selfish all these while? i guess not having things to do tonight kinda jolt my emobone for a moment. ok wait, correction. i do have things to do. just don't feel like doing them tonight. ok back to my thoughts. i miss my friends. tell me, have i been selfish? have i been spending way too much time with him that i forget my friends? believe me, i wouldn't wanna do that and if friends have been feeling that way, then i pray, do tell. coz i dunno. i've not had updates. i've not received random smses since forever. and it's really emotionally draining coz i know i have been asking for meetups, but negative replies just kill.you.slowly don't they?i know we all have responsibilities to fill but is it so difficult to make time for a really short meetup? how about making the first step? just informing when there's no class? tuition? meetings or whatever.and don't even try saying i spend every waking moment with him.

the fact is, you didn't even bother to ask.

:(

updated

aha. i'd probably be blogging once a month now, considering how "exciting" my life has been thus far. need updates from my side?

school's been fine.super hectic and fast term.psle's over. which means tuition's over. which also means there goes my extra income. week 5 is ending.there's only one day on week 6 coz the rest are for psle marking. revision hasn't started.i'm rushing to complete the books. = i'm dead.

i have yet to start on my miniproject.i have no idea how to start it, how to do it, when to do it. and school is ending. and there's review for the year after school term = i'm dead.

i'm worried for my p6 kids. 7 kids in class means higher percentage for each kid. Having kids with different diagnosis means cannot expect too much from them = i'm dead.

life's good.

stuff happened. made me question so many things. i guess sometimes when people let out things when they were angry, they were actually keeping all those inside: tolerating.

and when things get out of hand, everything else comes out. scary huh? not just that. it's ugly too. -_-

he taught me something. when someone makes you angry, you rationalise your thoughts. if you were in that person's shoes,will you do the same thing? why do you think that someone made you angry? why are you so worked up in the first place? sigh it doesn't really matter actually. ego's a bitch lah. we should really just relax and be rational about stuff. and seriously, forsaking friendship over petty arguments are just plain bull.

i haven't been meeting friends lately. everyone has commitments. won't dwell on that.

watched kham's performance. it's really funny coz while i was watching her on stage,i realised 53 days is a loong time.and i know i'm gonna miss this girl a lot. We might not see each other often but we do random updates, and now,close to 2 months. :( she'll come back safe and sound, with awesome experience for sure. insyaAllah.

zahillah and amin. i am so glad these two are coming back, end of the year. then we're all a complete family again. can't wait to see how much they've changed and everything. and we're older. definitely we'll talk abt more serious stuff.or not. hahahaha. but i do miss these guys a lot.thank god for facebook where i can see your updates. korang macam having more 'life' than us in singapore. boohoo.

as for love. as much as we'd wanna make it perfect, there's bound to be obstacles and flaws along the way. at least we found our biggest obstacle haha. now you can't say it's honeymoon period already kannnn?kan? kan? kan? haha. i'd say time past by too fast. still feels like we're two kental beings sending up to over hundred smses to each other each day. we're still doing that by the way. we shd get ourselves blackberries huh? (yalah he cannot have a hp with camera) at least our smses to each other are free. save siket duit. :p

there could be more updates but yah, i kinda lost my drive to blog for now.just received an sms. alhamdulillah. in a few months, i'm a godmama! =) =) =) =)

to more

months of high bills, non-stop smses and a whole lot of misses.

tenth month.and i love you,really.

more to come, insyaAllah.

:)

ass-ur-ance

had a chat with an old friend and he asked me for updates."damn you guys are fast!" his exact words. this coming from someone who's been with his partner for yeeaaarrss (poly,mind you) and believe me, a long distance relationship most of it. still faithful till now. yes, i salute them for that. but then he asked me. "how do you know it's the one? is there really the one? or is it just someone?" ahhh damn you friend, got me thinking again.

and then he added. "i had this conversation with my gf. then we asked ourselves whether we're together, still, because of love or merely convenience."

my god. will it come to this after years and years of being together? you mean you've been together for soo long and you're not assured? whhhhhhhhhhyyyyyyy!

bugged the shite out of me til i can't friggin sleep on a schoolnight. :(

then of course i had to clear my mind.
siapa lagi nak layankan aku kan.

:):)

kambu.
insyaAllah.

overwhelmed by the love received yesterday. kids. despite the screams and nags, sanggup juga korang :)

you, despite your fatigue, sanggup :)

NIE peeps, tonight after probably a tad too long.yay! :)

kekeks, cepatlah semua. rinduu.

trust me all those who matter, thank you is not enough.

sincere love from the heart.

tonight. i miss you so.

taybel.

my beautiful mess.

the bunga mangga. the smiley flower (kalau tak ambik gambar bunga ni terbalik,can't even see the face). kamus dewan (so it's veeery convenient), and the "Cikgu Paling Relaks" cert given during our ML staff retreat last year. i think this year dapat "Cikgu paling selekeh".TAPI! rambut dah tak selekeh sebab dah rebond! hahahahahahahhaa. diam ah.

blurr.

It’s not about who you’ve been with, it’s about who you end up with. Sometimes, the heart doesn’t know what it wants until it finds what it wants. -The Office

i know. my posts have been too mushy of late. can't help it (haha) trust me people, I still do have my difficult days, I still do rant and complain a lot, I still scream in class, I still sleep on the way home from school,I still get my crappy moodswings and as much as whenever possible, I still meet my friends :)

so here I am, having stacks of worksheets and of course my beloved composition scripts to mark but I just can't find the drive to do so. My worktable is a beautiful mess. Ok who am i kidding, my worktable is a mess,not beautiful but got bunga rampai from racial harmony day last 3 weeks? hahahaha. It has papers allll over the place but the good thing is, I can find what I want in this mess. me, untidy.organised. maaacaam paham. which is of course why the parents always scream their lungs out to get me (and sisters) to clean our rooms. but really, bigger space = more mess. more trays/ compartments/ drawers = semakin banyak benda. and i will clean when i feel like it. so tolong jangan paksa :)

i'd have to seek apologies from friends.it's really difficult for me to iftar away from home which is why I haven't been planning any iftars outside. what's even better is I have tuition on most days, so lagi susah nak jumpa. and no i won't be a hypocrite and say that this whole ramadan i'm gonna buka at home.but as much as possible, i'd rather do that. i'm fine with supper though,so jangan kecik hati and ingat i favouritism ok :)

ah i dah malas nak type. i tink i lost my flair in writing. ah yer aku puji my writings sometimes. kadang-kadang jealous tgk org yg ada tumblr. any quotes deemed appropriate to use in current situations, they'd post and go from there. as for me, i'd go look for quotes and end up just looking for quotes. menyamps.oh wells, that's it i guess.

fight the djins within you. happy fasting :)

oh and i'll let you feast ur eyes on my workstation soon ;p
that is, if i'm not lazy.
adios.

untuk romeo 2

http://lovesheekeane.blogspot.com/2009/08/untuk-romeo.html

untuk romeo 1 (30/8/2009)
sudah terang lagi bersuluh
kau memang manusia bodoh
abeh aku ni pulak sikit pei bebal
selalu nak layankan
kau punya hal ehwal
dah berkali-kali kau mainkan aku
si minah ni pun satu
kesian, kesian ah, kasi chan
kena ultimate bomb,
sekarang dah menyesal
takde harapan konon
kau ingat aku nak percaya lagi?
dah berbuih mulut aku dol
nampak gayanya,
kau nak kena taik lagi :)

untuk romeo 2 (present)

mummy rambut blonde: dulu benci, menyampah,macam nak maki je bila nampak kat luar.

romeo: padan muka ah. sekarang dah sayang.

ha.ha. ada chan dulu dah miang.(paiseh)

got yoko-yoko?

backstage crew

'Upgrade' the musical

Post-Upgrade: dah tua. badan dah tak larat. pinggang sakit sampai sekarang.

koyok-ed.

sad truth, really.

swensens with my favourite people. =)

pam and jim forever

coz all office fans have been waiting for this moment.
waiting with jim :)

“Four years ago I was just a guy who had a crush on a girl who had a boyfriend. And I had to do the hardest thing I ever had to do, which was just to wait. Don’t get me wrong I flirted with her. Pam, I can now admit in front of friends and family that I do know how to make a photocopy. I didn’t need your help that many times. And do you remember how long it took you to teach me to drive stick? (Pam: Like a year). I’ve been driving stick since high school. For a really long time that’s all I had. Little moments with a girl who saw me as a friend. And a lot of people told me I was crazy to wait this long for a date with a girl who I worked with, but I think, even then I knew, I was waiting for my wife.”

awwwww number one.

“I bought those boat tickets the day I saw that YouTube video. I knew we’d need a back up plan. The boat was actually Plan C. The church was Plan B. And Plan A was marrying her a long, long time ago. Pretty much the day I met her.”

awwwww number two.

congrats guys :)

yaya, i know. tv only.

i'm totally afraid whatever i let out to people will jinx it, or jinx us.

but, let me tell you this..

i'm gaining weight and i'm in love. heeh =)

fumed

you know what can get you (or me in this case) deafening mad? when a question was asked and all you people caught up with the bloody TV can't even answer. ya fark right the question was random but hell, it's just plain rude, no? serve you people right for getting an ignorant, oblivious me then.

tungguls aside, school's starting. maybe that's why it's pretty angsty over here. i'd like to think i've mellowed a bit, though. yada yada yada yah f it.

the getaway was great. goddamnexpensive but could probably be just what i needed. well few days in kay-el or wherever wouldn't hurt too. =) but get this, i did the flying fox thingy. yah me, pengecotnakmampos and i jumped from a 15m height. kinda coolstuff aye? but what's waaayy cooler? i drove the ATV lar, with a pillion at the back (!) haha. i am contented i tell you. he showed how my face lit up, exaggerated or not, i believed it coz you have no freaking idea how much i wanna ride on those things. ahh yes! achieved! =)

to many more places babe(s) :)
insyaAllah

btw it's kinda crazy how we're reminding each other to save up, only to spend soo much on food. dasar perangai budak gemoks.

i had a terrible cough and he blamed himself for smoking in front of me.

and since then,

no

more

smoke

breaks.

(awwwwww)

work-life balance

updating the blog's a sucker by the way. kinda lost the urge to update occassionally. not that nothing's great been happening in my life. in fact, i'm in so much drama almost everyday it's getting too draining. and all i wanna do is to forget about what just happened. let go. let it go.

:)

shit and bitches aside. life's been great.met up with the old people and realise age is reaaally catching up on us. (playwright's web was 10 years ago,fyi.daymn).work's ok. i procrastinated a task for 2 terms, the kaypee's gonna blacklist me already. but hell. the upcoming moozeeker is sucking my soul. the body's working but the mind's taken a rest already. and i stank and looked crappy and i saw you, sitting there for two whole hours, just waiting, with a smile on your face that immediately spreads on mine and all da fatigue and heartache are gone.

ahhh i humbly admit i'm now clingy, cornycheesy and has the potential to be whiny at times.

well, met diy kt yesternight. reached home at 3am. gone were the days where attendance was full, every week.i think it just takes a little bit of effort lah. hendak seribu daya, tak hendak seribu dalih. and friends don't go missing just like that. friends?

ok i should go find something to wear. heh heh heh. btw, you're a keeper. for a sole fact that you tahan my busokdahpenatnakmamposface, fresh pimples (yes not one pimple. it's pimpleSS),unkempt hair,homeclothes,perangaipemalasjahanamdraggingmywords. :)

annndd wait for iiittt... best thing yet..

Some girl with an arrogant face and a cannot be bothered attitude.One who's in love with love.Loves simplicity, humour and intelligence. Oh and sincere smiles too.Make an effort.Get to know her.

remember that? adam brody time? haa ya. that was about me. yes, about me. not you.
seriously, find some other words to describe yourself, girl.

love!

kalau tangan berkaki, siang-siang tangan dah jalan.

i miss doing nothing.

glee!

that turned out fine :) i now have an ambitious, prettay cool mini project in my hands. i just need some motivation and of course a lil but more self confidence please.

ok i need to plan smtg for June. getout. seriously.

btw glee's so awesome.

post ni berterabuh

you know the feeling when u keep pushing yourself so hard everyday just to survive something, having all these selfmotivation cheers in your head, only to be reeeeaaaally drained out once it's over?

yes. i'm having this feeling. but i can't stop and not do anything because crucial times are coming. :( sometimes i just wanna run you know. or sit down. or lie down. and not do anything. at all. just remaining silent.

i think you came at the right moment. which is why i treasure my saturdays.however, i stil have this sinking feeling coz it's like i'm just running away. then come sunday, i'll start to panic coz work.is.still.not.done. but hell, i need a break. and dear cintas, you people need a break too.

no new messages in my eyecon email inbox means good news.i swear.more mails means more workload. fug i tell u.

guess you can really tell by now that i am tired. and ranting. and time of the month is prolly coming soon. yah.

wish me luck.i'm gonna say smtg honest and revamp the whole thing coz i'm just too tired. too too tired.

merungut.

sooo much :)

satu jam saja, ku telah bisa
sayangi kamu kamu kamu di hatiku...

JANGAN NAK BEDEK.

anyways that line memang don't hope on it too much :)

loved my friday night and the whoollleeee of saturday :) thanks to those who bothered :)

much love to everyone. this blog might die soon.

and screw work. i wanna sleep :)

dah 24 nampak?

nabs-ey.

try being there and thinking of the welfare of at least 28 kids. who can seriously ramble on and on and on nonstop.

try climbing up and down with a bunch of weak and sickly, almost fainting kids.

then you can talk about me having it EASY (with a demeaning tone, no less, i might be overly sensitive but whothefark cares) because
1) it's free
2) food's taken care of

and that your grandmother also can climb.

kawan, tak kawan. kadang-kadang lelaki should just diam.

babi. kiang loho mai gay kiang

conquered

guess what i did during the March holidays?

nyeh heh heh heh heh.

4095.2m above sea level man. honestly, i've never felt so motivated and challenged in one day. but alhamdulillah..mount Kinabalu, checked!ehem!

and amidst my closet fear of heights and falling to death (like seriously takut nauzubillah),



conquered world's highest and Asia's first via ferrata! ehem!

steady ah Cikgu Shikin. lu macam survivor ah! :)

and you :) i cannot even explain my emotions when i saw you there. korang semua nak cakap aku kental ke honeymoon ke korang punya pasal ah k. but my current favourite person, u just earned yourself like 6362574 points. =)

you idiot.

ini mat sudah menang lor.

=)

mvp

because it's great that the one week break is finally here, okay one week from now. coz we toh-tal-ly need a rest. but no, i'm climbing up a mountain. but i don't really care coz i'm more worried about my extensive sudden growth of pimples on my face those without pimples should really try to grow some, go, add some colourful words to your life.nabei bunch of lucky flawless skinned people.

and i really really wanna see you. the you, now. coz it is going to be so exciting i swear more pimples will grow on my face. and it's all your fault. yours. but it's a short lived thingy. coz i might just give a HMMPH rolls eyes look and wish you all the best for this path u choose. suka jadi hypocrite? darl, got brain, use. thanks.

must meet the girls soonest.

and you too, of course.

:):)

kuchengs

a lot of exciting stuff's been happening/ has happened but i just can't seem to find the time to blog. my mind and heart should have fingers of their own. and of course a laptop with internet connection.

now that would be perfect.

i am still here, if you ever need me ok.

life oh life

amidst the kecoh-kecoh of work and the likes,

• kekeks had a FAB tell-all slumbersession :)
• zahillah left us to get her masters :(
• spent a day with amin :)
• before he leaves :(
• finally watched fcuking awesome MUSE, live! :)
• kiky associated his life with characters on TV :X
• idah went on a date :)
• rozi, kham, chewy, liza, anip, zah were missed :(
• awal's confusing :X
• balik-ed kampung :)
• tried riding on a bike and almost fell. -_-
• met the NIE lovelies and lepaked for a while :)
• Taufiq left for Perth. or was it Melbourne? Auckland? :(
• mairah loves taufiq loves mairah :)
• diva got her license. hooray! :)
• diyana is lost!! i sms her she never reply. i is very sad :( :(
• i fell in ultimate-like-could-lead-to-love-anytime :) :)

heeee. ok bye. much love.

heritage walk

i actually muttered some words when i looked at you.
might just be a spell. =)

you.is.amazing.lah.

let's mosi b4 cny. makcik misses us.

:) :) :)

i hate this part

why do i feel stuck?
why do i feel like moving?

goodness me i'm such an arse.

nicole scherzinger terpekik-pekau,current.

costlee

1819 messages. $113.77.

tangisan dalam ketawa.

motivate

so nauseating these butterflies. that rush. play it. again and again and again. repeatedly. elevated. so high up. bye bye world. let me get lost. in this one for now.

twisted

layanlayanlayanlayanlayantaklayantaklayanlayanlayantaknaklayanlayanlayanlayantaknaklayanlayanlayanlayanmelayanmelayanmelayandilayandilayandilayanmelayandilayanmelayanmelayangmelayanglayanglayangsayanglayanmelayandilayan.

confession

oh, dear.

:) :)