shikin vs nora

i've decided. i'll be shikin in Sabah. actually because kham's colleague, Nora's joining us. sorry alter-ego. this time, Shikin dapat limelight.

and yes, Sabah in a few hours time. i sungguh cannot wait.

btw, natgeo is showing cairo. fated or what. just talked bt going there with a friend.

take care singaporeans in singapore. hehe.

twozerozeroeight

what's 08 like for you?mine was okay. fab the first quarter, then got jaded and totally emotionless towards the end. haha. believe me, it's not as bad as it sounds.you should know i'm a bloody good exaggerator by now. though the jaded part was totally the lousiest i've ever felt.

l-o-u-s-y-e-vvvvv-e-rrrrr.

i'd like to think i was more open to stuff in 08. i've always liked to be in the background of things. go with the flow and everything, but i found myself planning a lot actually. taking initiative, though not on major plans, coz even mini plans didnt work. (yerlah aku NATO,sometimes) rejection & dead replys are like routine-d already. i'm prettymuch tired of hearing them that i can't even be bothered with em by now. macam nak let go pun ada. oh wells. life.

and open to people. different kinds of people. people who don't matter anymore. people who still matter till now. we're just ordinary people, we don't know which way to go. ok shuddap. went on a not-so-blind-date, which can be considered as a "blind date" coz we didn't really know how each other look like and only exchanged sms regarding general stuff. pretty fun. best movie datepartner, so far (yerlah lovelife aku kan pathetic). he's not gone entirely though. buried in books and endless projects maybe. haha. and for the record, i'm still in very good terms with mister emoboy number two aka alexander supertramp class atasan. and i even dated an attached guy. oooops.

save the trashtalk. it's just my good friend who's gonna have more kachhinngg come mid-Jan. haha :)

and i realised i like travelling. and that i left my heart in Thailand.

so the best thing that happened to me in 08, running up close behind being the phonechat with didicazli/anuar's concert/taufik batisah not letting go of my hand.. issss...

Pattaya/Thailand lah, duh.

where i did this

shiok nak mampos (tapi nasib baik tak)

and whatwho i'm gonna miss most is.. of course, my atuk.

muslims, selamat tahun baru.

in all randomness

i'm amazed at my own indifference. really.

Aaaanyways, five minutes to make a 'first impression'. nope. sorry, you're not it.

on a totally unrelated but funnynakmampos note,

vo: He has a malay boyfriend.
d: lelaki ke perempuan?

lol.without even having to try, kau menang.hands down.paling annoying.

cawermel alpachinno

can anyone be a sweetheart and gimme some moolah so i can buy time and travel round the world?

i think my new year resolution is to find a rich guy.

bedek lah bedek lah diam lah.

it is, to travel. i told ya bt cairo already. and go beachy beachy.

and to find a rich and good looking guy.

yerlah bedeklah. (denial)

manyak sayang oooo (carik nahas christmas eve pergi town)

minah gatal and fav drink number two

that spontaneous, single boy with a voice

kebabom

these men, i can toot toot toot toot toot toot toot.

lawang

Momma's baaaaaacckkk. Yup. I'm back 30 kilos heavier. it's like chicken galore there i have chicken fats running in my blood and i think my heart's turning into chicken meat already. still, ayam is not my favourite animal. HA.

my legs are in pain. the massage was so sakit nak mampos, though sosodap all of us confessed to farting whilst being massaged. very busok perangai. and farted all the waaaaay home. poot poot~

didn't buy much. went overboard with food. sebab orang singapura kesian, datang KL mesti makan A&W, Subway, Nandos, Kenny Rogers, Breadtalk and keropok lekor. I did just that. Petaling's a must. good surprise that uncle mahsyuk recognised me. bought shades. yup. Nora loves shades. wuhu!

was a disappointment coz didn't see much hotness there. saw Arash the actor (one of my faves fyi) and nearly hyperventilated if not for his sexy wife beside him. cheh cheh steeeaaady ah shikin nora!

came back flirting in the arms of abang kebab beach road. he made me so full i slept happy.

jumpa lagi tahun depan!

paipai!

macam cannot believe. just 10 minutes into my usual bloghopping routine, i managed to favourite 3 blogs. wuhu! and sometimes it's not because i love the way they write or anything, i'm just too kaypo to find out what's happening in their lives. kaypo kan? but i get the scoops mah. and kalau terserempak kat luar i can give them the 'i sooo know what you've been doing recently' look. nope, i don't know how that 'look' looks like, but i'm imagining the raising eyebrows emoticon in MSN.

i see pictures of bimbos and minahs driving in their blogs. oklah i have my own definition of bimbos k. and we all know what a minah looks like. and everytime i see these pictures, i'll go ..shit!this bimbo/minah's driving?!?! jkbahfuasdhchdnfd!!! but i'm not in the least interested to renew my driving lessons. my ego perangai macam babi. and being in zako's car yest, with the traffic macam nauzubillah, i doubt i'll want to drive anytime soonest. i'll drive up your cars i tell you, not just those kerbs. i still believe in public transport. :) and yes lah, my ego is a mule. so stop pestering me already.

i think Twilight's kinda an amateurish vampire movie. nope, belum tengok lagi. all these hype from teenagers doesn't really entice me. tapi craving for popcorn though. and my best movie date partner has gone kapoot already. life's just soo sad. soo sad.

ok i'll be seeing you once i get back from kay-el. gonna be fun fun fun i tells yous!

bread pudding

yesternight, i dreamt i was pregnant. it was so surreal until i found out who the father was.

it was Ross Gellar. Yes, the Ross from FRIENDS. the exact one who got Rachel pregnant in yesternight's episode.

HahaHA. Bummer.

I should soo get a life.

albeit eating a lifetime worth of food today, i have durian breath thanks to the one i ate.satu pun boleh bau.

it's nearing. kay-el. i'm unleashing Nora.

Hi boleh kenal-kenal? Nama you siapa?
Nora.
:)
nak makan roti canai?

monologue

i am soo full alhamdulillah. and i'm happy. i believe my appetite's back,after the fever. so i shan't worry about the high-tea then. ahaks.

i love going out with budak-budak bapok tu. and we've got a new supir. bagus juga ya kamu. i love korangs walaupun korang bapok-bapok yang berdosa.akusepakkaus.

and it was pathetic coz we drove past abang-abang eligible and i hyperventilated and went crazy for a good whole 5 seconds. what a sight. very cheap tau perangai.

that just goes to show i'm running out of eyecandies. ah, that term just cracks me up. shall go guyhunting. or better still, shall get to know people.men.. eligible men. hoho.

should i give it a pass then, since you're so obviously ignoring? lebih senang kan macam gituk.

and i tend to be all talk and no action. nato nato. i'll be hated if this goes on. shall not open my mouth and suggest things, knowing i'm very pemalas to carry them out.

oh please if you think i've disappoint you, i've disappoint myself worse. such a loser.

note to self: please change. and save up. let's go Cairo.

mengambing

aku break record. tak mandi on hari raya haji. hello, have mercy. wo is demam and the water's damn cold lah. and i really wonder just how much phlegm i have. it's just sooo disgusting.

ok bye. not too late to wish all. Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha lah yer.

p.s: must get well soonest. many plans/ promises made. nanti orang cakap i played with their hearts.

yerlah tu kambing.

ini bukan ah jing

hee hee hee.
sweet kan? macam nak nangis.so perempuan.
mama, nak kahwin ngan orang korea gong yoo ah.

aduh

my head is thROBBBInnggg...and my heart hurts. like literally hurts. damn these unhealthy junk food which I can't live without.

get well soon everybody.
be strong, my dear.
i miss aqil.
and the perempuan roller sejati jokes are funneeehhh i'm still laughing thinking about them.

:) can't wait for kay-el and sabah!

and i cannot believe i've not watched Mualaff. So biasa, all talk no action. dasar pemalas.

run along now

disappointment is an understatement with regards to the mumbai attack.fyi, our very own singaporean didn't make it home. sigh. come on world, just stop all these nonsense. and thailand too. :(

on a brighter side, meet haziq...

insyaAllah, he'll grow up to a better world.

i guess it's time i stop having emotional attachments with people who take me for granted. yup.

got hit by a train

was hit. hard. need a run.



dear brenden, i give you my love.

and watched 'a mighty heart' on dvd. strong woman, salute.

:)

raw

yesternight, i was torn between reading on a lost love and watching happily ever after. by that i meant reading 'A Mighty Heart' and watching 'Enchanted' on HBO. but then, too bad, cinta fitri 3 was on air already. east or west? cinta fitri & farrell is the best!

today was just spent finishing up the book. this one, like 'Do they hear you when you cry' and 'Meena' just made a great impact on me. i soo feel the urge to be the world's sexiest humanitarian ala angelina jolie. haha ok nolah, not sexiest! pffffft. but to be an active humanitarian. yes, shikin, active. HAH.

so, just a recommendation for all you bored people out there, go read 'A Mighty Heart' by Mariane Pearl. It's about the kidnapping and killing of her husband, a journalist, in Pakistan. a sad true story. aku tahu i'm so backdated coz the story's soo yesterday. there's even a movie abt it already but i believe her courage and strength deserves everyone's respect, regardless your race, religion and gender. and amongst em, her husband's the true martyr.

and watch the genius that is Body of Lies, people (not online!) and read this book. you'll get mega orgasm i swear.

p.s: being really free is scary. i'm having interior monologues almost all the time. and realistic melodramas in my head. yes, in my head. will just keep em in there, hopefully things don't turn out that way. if they do, then i must really have special powers.

chris jericho is still soo goodlooking.
bye!

hey buddy

you know how it is when u plan a meetup with good friend(s) and the other party(s) apparently can't make it because they're going out on dates with their other half(s).
love, or whatever you call it, can be a real bitch sometimes.

which is why i find solace in books and you find em in ur guitars, or by dancing, eating, sleeping, exercising and whathaveyous.

i managed to complete Unbreakable. thank god i saved the last 3-4 chapters to the comfort of my own home. i was practically bawling my eyes out. damn i love biographies/autobiographies!

oh yah anyways, seriously, go watch Body of Lies. my dicaprio doesn't disappoint. he really redeemed and revamped himself from those titanic days (ok i admit i was head over heels in loove with him too back then). then there was blood diamond.. macam soooper sexy. and now THIS. t-h-e bomb. i sungguh love!sungguh!

and what else, i think i'm gaining weight by the speed of light. and i think firuz is a real talent coz i just heard 'Dia' and i cannot help but imagine ali's in the background playing with those shakers (or apa benda ah tu)..ala-ala performing tuk datukneneks. muahahaha.

ok remember, don't forget your (single) friends, body of lies and check this site out for some pretty! click here!

p.s:some guy just chatted me up in msn and said 'notti face notti girl'. i went huh?! and he said 'i say you got notti face, i like notti face girls'.

seriously, BODOH OR WHAT. belakaciput.

hehs

aku sumpah dah tak faham Heroes. wad's with the kebelakang and the future. the powers that everyone seem to have. even si mohinder pun nak power. they should bring back isaac mendes, add more to the gorgeous cast. heh heh heh. then dekni mati. the future one. and wad? they're married? sylar has a kid? triplets? seriously, WTH. gini aku free enam minggu pun tak dapat fahami seh. legong. enam minggu kaaapppaaaaaaaaa..

so yah anyways, freedom starts now. i realise something, ok actually i realised it before and have always realised it, i just didnt bother believing in it. i realised we can do anything we want, ANYTHING, if we really, really put our heart and mind into it. (and of course in my case, forego my bangun bila matahari dah tegak, snoozing habits and excelling at procrastinating) we can move the world beneath our feet, if we really really want to.

so maybe my failed attempts at many many things, i just wasn't into them. and of course bukan rezeki. and fate too. it's all written, come on people.

but one thing i know. i've set my heart on reading those 9 books i bought. hell yeah. sembilan liaoz!siao kia! and catching up with my best people. and making my tummy and myself happy. and i'm gonna have a hell load of fun in sabah. :)

for a start, 18 chefs was delicious. "unbreakable" is getting into the 2nd part now (they're married, he's got cancer). james morrison's voice ooozes sexy. and hopefully meeting my bestest bunchabusoks aka cuzzinsgerekspunya this saturday.

so heaven-sent. i'm gleaming every moment.

and i can move you too seh.
maaaaaaacaaaammm paaahaaaaaaam.

scooby doo

so complacent i refuse to start on my final assignment.

somebody shoot me.

ok no.

don't shoot me.

lemme enjoy these moments before slavery beckons.

very tak sabar.

mega

11.45pm. i had mega mcspicy. zomg. fifteen minutes flat. perut aku happy.

now hati berdebar-debar tengok disturbia kat HBO.

paper sastera taknak fikir. padahal belum mula.

i should start panicking now right?

nolah, tomorrow lah k.

post AZ

how can you love someone unconditionally without expecting any love in return? my heart, it practically beats for him. the one. my one. Shahrul Anuar. Senang kata Anuar Zain lah kan. BAHAHAHA. stoppit seh. but really, i lurve him.

yes, i was blown away. that small frame, the big voice. wow. this man can really sing. the rich, soulful voice. and from the heart too. hell i was almost brought to tears the moment he stepped on stage. he HAD to sing that as a starter.."selembut bicara...sehalus sentuhanmu..." yes, i was gone. that one line and i was on my way to pure contentment already. keabadian cinta, well i always thought that was MY song and his. HAHAHAHAHA. diam.

nevermind the fact we were far away from the stage. at least he made an effort to point and wave to the screaming women on top (i.e. US!). sigh i just cant say anything more lah. i was blown away. and he made me fall, hard. it was emotional. it was beautiful. :)

and taufik batisah was there. didicazli too. and come on, you know me. of course i'll take pics with em!

he'll dream of me. la.la.la.

a'ah. aku girlfriend (poser). yang ingat dia lagi famous. don't fret my fans, a nicer pic will be up soon. yes the one with mr TB actually LOOKING at the camera. you ni ehhhh!

i'll start studying tomorrow. insyaAllah. heh.

mondayne

weird. i don't know what's scarier...

sounds of someone hammering their floor in the unit above, at midnight mind you

OR

hearing a china woman screaming angrily whilst talking on the phone under the block opposite AND actually being able to see her screaming, at midnight.

people can be so weird sometimes.

take me for example. i have truckloads worth of words to be written (essay form), and here i am pouring out my thoughts for the night.

i tell you, my PMS was BAD. kinda ended when i FINALLY got my black pepper steak from mak's (da bomb) and went to meet love. spent a night at grandma's place. weird moment again coz i nearly asked "mana datuk?" when everyone's seated in the living room. nasib baik tak tanya. very stupid,shikin.

seeing his room light still switched on in the middle of the night and having my subuh in his room brought me close to tears. i still remember, everything, and God how i miss that old guy. sooo much. :(

love's fine. i can see how she gets lonely when the aunts went to work and Lid's schooling. will try my best to call and visit every now and then now that school's ending. yes, school's ending. in 3 weeks. zomg.

anyways,
it's scary how history's repeating itself. eventually, i'll find myself being blamed. and in the wrong. yet again.

dah tahu kenapa masih nak buat? see, that just explains it, people ARE weird.

i know i am.

bye. take care people.
go get some Travis for urself.
and cheer up will you.

Time to pull the shutters down
Breaking clouds don't make a sound
When they cry

dig out your soul

what the hell seh nur ashikin. perangai macam setan. go away pms. go away essays.

go away lah you! what the banana was all that about, man. urgh.

teori sastera budaya ni apa benda siot.

uurrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

someday you will find me
caught beneath a landslide...

but i'll still be complaining out loud, i swear.

i need food.

ok bye.

vroom vroom vroom

i want to blog. but i don't know what about.

tell you what, just get me a date with hafiz koh.=)

Grey: Still, they say you don’t kick the habit until you hit rock bottom, but how do you know when you’re there? Because no matter how badly a thing is hurting us, sometimes letting it go hurts even worse.

i'll tell you something.

once you let go, u'll feel like shit. but you'll soon grow out of it.

shit happens. it's your choice to let it continue or not.

now, back to hafiz koh.

=)

over

i HMV-ed. favourite music on the shelves, people. new uns. Keane, Oasis, James Morrison. my fingers were itching to buy em all. but i shall practise abstinence (wo), from books and CDs. for now. like right now. you never know what's gonna happen tomorrow.

kalau tidak pun, who's getting me which? come on, sekali-sekala kan. kata sayang.... bleah. hint:james morrison would be purrfect.

ok back to aksara usia, i suck at analysing poems.

btw, meredith said this yesternight:

"Forgive and forget. That’s what they say. It’s good advice, but it’s not very practical. When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness, old scores are never settled… old wounds never heal. And the most we can hope for, is that one day we’ll be lucky enough to forget".

lucky enough to forget. wow.

ok tell me who really and sincerely meant what they said in their maaf zahir batin speeches/messages?

bye.

telong! (lol)

i thought my short term memory was bad.

this is worse.

i'm showing signs of dementia already. habis. i misplaced two things. my keys (damn needed) and my camera battery.

and to think i took out the battery, mentioned to myself that it needs to be charged badly, carried the laptop to the room to print notes. and poooft it's gone. i don't even remember if i brought it into the room. i just remember taking it out from the camera. now my camera bogel already. sian.

ni mesti sebab dah lupa daratan. dah lama tak mengaji. sigh.

on a loss less depressing note, boria raya was fun :)

keluarga bahagia. HAHA.

akusepakkau.

angelina the bomb

forever has passed. old friend initiates a meet-up, it's been long. dinner. he's got a place in mind.

i love meetups with old friends. nanti berbual merepek. abeh banyak "Oh My God! yah!" with lots of exclamation marks. muka confirm excited. best gituk.

tapi ni kali bonus,

old friend = ex-crush.

now, hyperventilate.

no, i ain't doing that.

i'll say omgomgomgomgomgomgomg ( x 82376432)

mak cakap very sexciting, you tahu?

but then again, shitload worth of assignments.

but...we all need to have dinner don't we?

hehe.

ok! i'll post a pic on boriaraya soonest, once i get my charger. i miss you, lappie.

and happy birthday honeybaby! don't expect too much from me :)

and there's soo many types of boys, but you, for sure ain't worth it. asshole.

p.s: terase ke?

bummer i tell you

let me just tell you something, bro.

my laptop charger's a big fuck.
i hate advanced pay because i'm left with less than half of em till the next payday.and next payday is freaking three weeks away.
i've got tonnes of projects and assignments and i've done nothing.
it worries me that everyone around me's either getting engaged, married or pregnant. people, think money. you sure you got em?surelah tu pasal next step, dol.
i feel so pening. like all the time.
i feel like vomitting almost every night.
no, i am not anorexic, or bulimic. not weight obsessed too.
i eat a lot.
i hate same old stories that don't seem to move anywhere better.
people can be so stubborn and stupid at the same time.
feelings are crap.
"i think i'm in love" feelings' are crappier.
so sensitive for what?
cibey.

i'm so in need of the beach. pure relaxation. a good read. and a thai massage.
so, help me God.

i don't even feel like meeting new people.
i think i wanna be a supermodel.

dapat macdonalds breakfast pun macam baik.
cheeky please?

bapak-bapak

i thought it would stop with dad moonwalking non-stop right infront of me.

but nooo, the blasting radio just had to play suasana hari raya (anuar & ellina), and he started ronggeng-ing and whatnots, with a sumpah-nak-kena-ketawaKAN-layuface-step-penari-melayu-terakhir.

and bonus, he exclaimed out loud "semua papa boleh buat eh?"

ohmygod.

i love my dad.

it will be tough to live up to my expectations, boys.

heh.

ps: got pneumonia penomia?

bersabarlah sayang

it is one thing when you assume and keep your mouth shut, because lets be honest here, i am guilty of judging a book by its cover, though i trrrryy not to.

but it is a whole new thing altogether when you pandai-pandai say some freaking bullshit and made it spread like wildfire (exaggeration, i hope) about me or anyone else, when you know nuts, dude.

benefit of the doubt. i'll give that to you and go for the former.

but if it's not, i believe in karma.

and short-lived happiness.

i'm a cynic afterall.

a cynic who does not only go for guys with bikes.

so, reflect.

i have a one hour class at 8.30 on a friday. yes.
but on a brighter note, my boys will be coming over!
:)

runaway

i want to join the noose. they crack me up, big time. Love it.

anyways, terharu moment :

Mai says:
coz i cnt take the fact that we stop doing things together animore

friends just make school a whole lot better.

and abang anuar, i tak sabar :)

because it's aidilfitri

to those in my heart, always, i'd like to take this opportunity to seek forgiveness from all. in any cases whereby i've caused hurt, grievances,sadness,hatred intentionally or not, through my actions, words or just by not acknowledging, i sincerely apologise. and i love you guys.

also to those i've crossed path with, maaf zahir batin.

sayang semuanya.

to taufik batisah, i love you.

hampir setiap kalinya, tak jemu-jemu...

mood-loss

i hate school. it starts very soon.

cheeky come back, make me all happy again.

korang tak faham?

don't bother.

aku faham.

alexander supertramp

i've read the book- "into the wild". nak tunggu the dvd jer. anyways, i have mixed feelings towards this one. i love it yes, but i dislike the fact he died in the end. (no lah people, ni bukan spoiler, you should know he died). died, all alone, starved to death (or so they say). very ironic. he said he was happy. could you really be (happy) in that situation? but i loved the fact he made impact on so many people's lives. and the fact that he risked everything and gave everything, to be with nature, to find inner peace? he died doing smtg he loved, he got what he wanted in life i guess. with that, respect.

ooh and i love the quotes they have in every chapters as well. vair nice. one of my faves would be:

"He is mad about being small when you were big,

but no, that's not it,

he is mad about being helpless when you were powerful,

but no, not that either,

he is mad about being contingent when you were necessary,

not quite it,

he is insane because when he loved you,

you didn't notice".

Donald Barthelme,

The Dead Father

tersentuh eh? next book? maybe. heh.

anyways i hate the fact school's starting very soon. something's just not right this semester and i cannot quite put a finger on it. i really dread coming to school. i cant sleep thinking about school and the assignments but i'm not doing anything about it, at all. and my mind keeps wandering off to crappy nonsense when i should be starting something.

i lost my focus,people. i lost my motivation. i lost my mojo. AHA.

Ya Tuhan, berikanlah hambamu ini cahaya ketenangan.

dan kamu juga. :)

tak boleh angkat

i love tonight.

and i got my book.

i am a happy goober.

ps: my right upper eyelid still twitches (since wed). damn.

get.a.life.

if there is one thing i really abhor, girl, you're getting closer to being 'it'. i think, this particular someone, should really get a realitycheck. and seriously, mend her own insecurities, because, nobody, yes, nobody at all is interfering with her life and that belangkas of a partner of hers. in fact, nobody cares anymore. so, wont you stop giving names and accusing my wonderful friend because she is wayyy ahead of you, in terms of moving on, being strong and of course being happy, in love and blessed with her loved ones, whilst you still, cannot get over....yourself. how pathetic! urgh.

on a more sexciting note, i watched the contender matches. OOOOII. superb i tell you. nevermind the fact i didn't sleep the night before, it was worth it. muaythaimen who can really fight=awesome, oi! however, zach's match was prettay disappointing and i kinda expected him to lose, but it was a draw. oh wells. don't worry zach, ily nonetheless. "he's soooo tallllll...." :) and of course my thai men never disappoint. last match, knockout. KNOCKOUT. sexy dok. ok i'm a very weird girl, i know.

and alif finds me weird because i love salted popcorn. don't you?come onnn..

and and, i soo wanna go to abang anuar's concert. brave yourself people, tix are ex okay. and the most expensive ones are sold out. wow.

ok malas nak type lagi panjang-panjang. the long awaited recess week is here. finally i get to breathe. and not waste my moolahs on cab rides sebab bangun lambat. mangkuk betol.

:)

click

and so he said "I LOVE YOU SHIKIN!!", caps and everything...

... because i cropped a pic for him.

sigh.. love love love.... love is soooooooo overrated...

... lagi-lagi in zah's dictionary.

haha.

britneyhot

alamak, the jonas brothers very orgasmic. macam nak simpan dorang dalam almari.
T.I i simpan dalam kocek.
Then cast of high school musical, kita ajak pergi Mosi.

ok bye. i better stop my nonsense and do my work.

eh lil wayne's so weird looking. as weird as everyone online yesternight. macam semua hypergumbira.

oh wells. maybe it's just me. and the aftereffect of sosodap roti naan.

they know what i did last summer

howdy.

the casual chat with the ex (or not) was extremely funny. i think we both realised we made a huge, stupid mistake. BAHAHA. what a bummer. and i actually forgot. yes, i forgot what happened and what led to everything. wow. i guess short term memory really has it's blessings huh?

between assignments and feelings. i think i choose assignments for now. jadi part-part lain, you'll just see a 'cold', aloof me ok.

lain ah macam member tu. sekarang emosi terganggu. berani buat berani tanggung babe. tak berani nak tanggung, jangan buat kay.

ok bye. amazing race is back. aku so suker.

yang dirindui, macam oreo cookies cecah dalam susu HL. kempunan sangat :)

i've got one hand in my pocket

and the other one's flicking a cigarette

and the other one's giving the peace sign

sunshine rain

it's four am and it's about to rain. sweeeet.

ok i've been complaining endlessly about my laziness and every single bad habit i'm not proud of, i'm getting pretty tired of myself actually.

so i decided to count the number of things i need to do by next week (to exaggerate and emphasize on the padan muka after-effect i'm giving myself), well..... let's just say i have two thousand EIGHT hundred and ninety seven things to be done. yes.

memang padan muka aku.

and my friday? spent playing with aqil and luxor. wow. two days left and all i'm looking forward is the buka session with kekeks on monday. how freaking sexciting is that, considering everyone can make it?! YES e-v-e-r-y-o-n-e! macam tak percaya. kalau bukan Muslim mungkin dah ambik nombor.

i think i'm going to panic at 11pm on sunday night. just wait and see.

i'll never learn.

cursed

i have a strong feeling those olympic athletes took the whole world's motivation.

and now i'm left with zero motivation and perangai pemalas nauzubillah.

i want to buy another book.

shakespeare effect

i got myself a new book.
now i sungguh gembira.

happy teachers day and selamat berpuasa semua!

yey :)

note to self: buck up, save money and lose weight please.

oh dear lord why am i ranting so much

let us mourn the loss....
of my emotions.

i think i just died.

my immune system's going haywire.
da cramps struck me the whole day (and night).
i'm a walking zombie.
my purple extensions don't entice me anymore.

i want to run away.
go to Pattaya.
then come back when i feel like it.
or not come back at all.

then i'll feign a psychotic drama episode.
so i'll be released from ze bonbond.

very senang cakap.

i'll get back on my feet lah.

i just need some motivation.

and air tickets to Thailand

:)

honestly?

honestly,

i've been too lazy to be in full study mode. i'm still leaving things to the last minute. i have yet to start reading my sastera books. I'm more engrossed in my own English novel. macam shit.

honestly,

i'm not in the best of health. the cough annoys me. and the head and stomach's in pain due to all the coughing. but i'll be OK. cough medicine made me sleep for 14 hours yesternight. can you top that babies?

honestly,

like her and them, i cannot get over the fact that he's gone. i think the whole time he was sick, i was in denial, thinking he would get better. i guess everyone's in disbelief coz it was too soon. i'm still in denial now. it just hurts ok. totally not helping that i miss him so so much and have to remain strong all the time, not breaking infront of nenek and the aunts.

i miss you atok. a lot.

come on world, be strong.

there's others with worse problem than you.

.pee.M.ass.

gawd. i hate it when the perangai macam soyal. and to top it off, there's no valid reason for it. i'm blaming it on the olympics. there's absolutely no freakin interesting shows on ze tube and i am soo having ultimate lazy nak mampos cells all over my blood and veins i cannot even start on the reflections. i am ranting. i am pathetic. i officially hate school. yes.

i ate mighty large spoonfuls of that walls chocolate heaven ice cream and yes, it lived up to its' name. i am bloated and full, very full in fact but i ate em ice-cream like it's air. much much needed for me to survive the night. omg aku so drama.

i hate the fact that you don't know your words hurt like crap.
and i hate the fact that i love it,that your words hurt like crap.
i hate myself, sometimes.

and i hate you too.

nolah i don't, i'm just adding on to the drama.

i need some live acoustic music.
i need some good pee in your pants humour.
i need some soothing serenades.
i need someone to make me smile like...forever.
i need the stars that will shine oh so so brightly.
i need the sand, the sun and the pretty pretty beach.
and i need to be left alone.
and i need to be subdued.
and and
i need to shut up and start on my reflections.

tee.hee.hee.

PMS boleh buat aku gila dan korang semua tak faham.

just dont bother.
myob.shoo.

in your atmosphere

the blog is screeeaming for an update. me, as usual, too malas to type what's been happening. now i kinda forgot everything already. damn this supershort-term memory.

kekek's having a meetup in less than 4 hours. exciting! it's been soo long, so i really hope idah can make it, almaklumlah ndp's soo yesterday.

so how's first week of school?for a start, i don't really have complaints about the timetable, though there's only a one hour class on friday. but wth, live with it lah hor. other than that, i guess first 2 week's da honeymoon period. assignment topics are in, sounds like crap. i forsee last minute struggles. oh what's new. i'll learn some day, i'll learn some day. right.

ooh did i tell you i went back to the TA school? the expressions on my kids' faces were priceless! ahaks. i even managed to make faces to a particular p4 boy. hurhurhur. perangai tol. then i saw my minah. yes, the one who called me a minah. amidst people singing those songs and waving the flags, she stood up and walked straight towards me, salam-ed and asked "cikgu buat per kat sini?".the minah junior way, no less. so, minah senior answered "saya punya suka lah". and we both laughed. she laughed hard and loud k. oh this one's got my attention. haha. you tell me who's the minah ..

i'd love to think it's not me :)

i went blading too! like finally!so, me, diy and aishah macam pahamed our way from area C to the lagoon. and get this, stopped to eat satays and chicken wings. HAHA. tak pernah-pernah aku buat gituk. then we skated our way back. and was 15 minutes earlier than our targeted time.baik!who broke the record? me lah of course. i fell. twice.thank god for the guards.all's well. i'm still cute.diam.

again! anytime!

hey babe, i'm here for you. you know that right? they say what doesn't kill you,makes you stronger? this is not even close to killing you. you're stronger than you know.we know it. face it and stop polluting your body with crap please. hugs. good love is on the way ;p. ily.

Wherever I go,
Whatever I do,
I wonder where I am in my relationship to you.
Wherever you go,
Wherever you are,
I watch that pretty life play out in pictures from afar.

bye!

p.s: stoppit. nanti kena bantai kat luar.

zomg

the thing about having your old(er) man (who tends to joke about everything) in the hospital is.. you don't know whether he's really ok or really sick. come on love, stop scaring yourself, you'll be fine. :)

the thing about being a big procrastinator is, you get things done..late. or better yet, for my case, you don't get things done.

and then you feel bad and regret. then life goes on and you make the same mistakes again.

when will i ever learn i wonder.

i'm stuck on lifehouse again.

oh the melancholy.

1.83m.tall.hot.

k bye.

doy

nothing's up people. been spending on food and whatnots like nobody's business. cash is drying up fast and i'm not doing anything about it. all i can do is worry and reflect for a whole good five seconds on what i've bought. then life goes on. shikin=spendthrift. perangai busok!

4 days left before we, the newlycrowned seniors (weeweet!) slave ourselves to education, yet again. macam tak habis-habis. but all for the future. :)

i miss those kids.new ones and the old. khalyf called the other day.he must be in sec one or two right now. and my my, suara dah pecah. and he still called to tanya khabar. they've grown. awww. :) for this, i am thankful.

and i'm also thankful for the great moments i get to spend with the phatmily, da cuzzinsgerekpunya, TTC, my geekclan, kekeks (except idah who's busy parading for the country lol). for this, i am thankful again.

so, who says i'm hard to please?

memang kodok lah namanya tu.

blink blink blink

it's time for sayang sayang!(super funny showlahh)

ps: zach vs zidov tmr. woot!

bau bunga

kalau tak pandai pilih minumam di kedai makan yang tak halal, silap-silap kau dah terminum alcohol. renungkanlah.

nak dengar cerita? semalam aku balik jam tiga pagi (i know i know , anak dara yada yada shuddap), sekali tengah jalan past playground tu, bau wangi. bau bunga-bunga. so aku jalan macam mahapantas.mouthing bismillah all the way because kalau aku baca ayat qursi, mungkin alamatnya aku ditertawakan, boleh jadi ayat-ayat tunggang terbalik. so i'd rather not take the risk lest i die of a hard attack right thenthere. note to self: brush up on doas and everything lah setanpemalas.

and so i walked under the block, passed this sleeping cat and thought it was OK already coz, the cat was sleeping lah. soundly lagik. when beneath my estelle and kanye, i heard a long draggy 'eeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhhhhhh'. perasaan macam fjhcdshfsk**dhfjierklj****!!ndhffiejoerjf!!!! tau. so i blasted the song and walked lagik cepat, lebih cepat dari running for the toilet. and was oh so thankful for the mats under the block. reached home safe. alhamdulillah. phew. note to self: kalau tengah kotor, jangan balik naik night rider. balik naik taxi. HAHA! k fine fine. :)

TA's coming to an end. macam crap sebab Sup belum observe. but i'm getting my social life back.weeeeeeeeee. jadi, nak gi dating balik? jom? :) :) :)

anyways, still have a week's worth of detailed lesson plans to do. start on the practicum file (a'ah aku belum start), worksheets and powerpoint slides. counting down to kay-el (yes, again HAHA). and prezzies!

so jangan complain you dont have time for yourself. Make time ok.

oh fyi. i love mosi. divo loves it and (a) mosi (staff) loves her more. YUP. diy('s friend) loves ayam masak merah. and she loves soft hair. who doesn't. and i love to sleep.

ok dah malas nak bull.

kawan-kawan,siap sedia. beri hormat.

cikgu shikin dah banyak babat.

ok bye. selamat!

kalau tak merepek kerepek tak boleh.

love much!

ps: batman looks like your boyfriend. macam sucks sebab batman hot. but joker, oh joker.for once aku takut nak tengok.sadistically awesome seh heath, u da bomb.

sumpah.selenge.

she was talking in class. red-haired angmoh boy was playing with his stapler. she stopped talking, went over to boy. held out her hand, so boy "voluntarily" gave her the stapler. she walked over to dustbin. threw the stapler away.

recess time.

she came over to red-haired angmoh boy.

"so did you take your stapler from the dustbin?"

"what stapler?"

"you were playing with a stapler just now. have you taken it out of the dustbin?"

"what stapler?"

she stopped and looked at red-haired angmoh boy, blur.

1

2

oh dear god in heaven, it's the wrong angmoh boy.

"nevermind.what are you waiting for? eat your food."

sumpah aku nak lari and ketawakan diri sendiri. kadang-kadang terserlah betul aku nyer selenger.

shikin giler

after 2 whole weeks, we finally met up. the ghetto was uber packed lah, with maturedlookingtwentyyearolds holding cans of drinksthatreek in their hands, acting like a bunch of mediacrazywannabesposingmacammukakluarkatRollingStones.

but we still managed to be in a world of our own.teasing the middle-eastern looking guy and chinaboy. haha. i love that place. and i love korangs, the 'lovelies' (H.A.H.A)

i'm cracking my brain thinking of lessons that's worthy of standing ovations. bukan senang nak 'wayang'. bukan senang nak manage budak. bukan senang nak keluarkan suara. bukan senang nak beri arahan.

hidup ni tak senang. banyak perkara yang korang kena fikirkan. every single time, you have to make a decision. think future people. so stop following the bloody crowd and taking macampaham photographs of yourselves n da hood. stop manipulating people's feelings thinking you've got everyone wrapped around your finger.and stop procrastinating, thinking you have all the time in the world when seriously, you already know that to achieve em, you need to start, like, now.cili tu memang pedas (tapi sedap).

oh i have overdue pictoes. of the geekclan and mat pokok.

pernah nampak joker menari? ramai peminat, you!

just because i've not seen him for the looooongest time and he'll be gone for a whole year doing something he'd always wanted (seriously!) and might just come home with an aussie dudette. ahaks. take care sycool!

and does anyone remember this song? ohmegawd i can actually still sing it, correct lyrics and all! emo lah tu. konon.

it's christian wunderlich's 'why goodbye' fyi.

ok let's do some mentel mental exercise!

they call me 'hell'
they call me 'stacey'
they call me 'her'
they call me 'jane'
that's not my name
oh come on sing with me people!

:)

not so wonderful

oh yes, we tried.
i shan't go further.
oh yes, we were worried.
and you acted like nothing happened
not giving a damn.
oh yes,
we need more practise.
we can do this,
oh yes, we can.
oh damn
i hate it that you're so in love.
oh damn
i hate it that i cared too much
oh damn
i think i should start taking the back seat now.

dah cukup membebel?
k esok nak jumpa mat pokok.
bye!

jangan kesal. putra's out. :(

more time please

weekend's o-v-e-r.

the good: time's passing by so so fast.
the bad: time's passing by too fast. it's practically zoooooooming seh. zoooming. no, it's faster than zooming. bleargh. oh people, we're old.

ok anyways. first week of TA's over. quite a change from the contract if you must know. but like the previous one, working environment's great. so, alhamdulillah.
the kids. oh me gawd, the kids. nice kids so far. adorable, yes. but whilst observing, i can't help but think of my old kids. oh how i miss em soo much. yes, the extremely naughty ones. macam manalah agaknya dorang sekarang. rindu yer :o

i need liposuction. the weight gain is depressing. heh. nak liposuction eh, taknak exercise. baik shikin, siapa ajar?

i miss my kekeks, my TTC, my mosi, my sec school besties.

sigh, there's soo many things to do, so many people to meet.

you waste time
you've got no more time
you need to find time
to spend time
with
yourself.
heh.

omg blog updates sungguh dah takde quality.
benci benci benci!!

p.s:tadi jumpa abang calon (masa sekolah dulu). dengan gf pulak. adoi.
siapa rasa farid hot cakap adoi. ADOI!

oh wicked!

it's here people, our 2 months of gaji buta is up! oh me oh my. ahah chilleks semua yer. 5 weeks, come on, we can do this! we can do this!

i don't think i'd completely stop from surfing the net, bloghopping, friendsterhopping, msn-ing and everything. cuma dah tak boleh sampai empat pagi lah kan. he.he.he.

so you'd still see me people, oh come on friends, handphone tu tak yah buat perhiasan ah :)

well, in case you need something just so you're reminded of me (oh come on, i'm not THAT forgettable) whilst i bertungkus-lumus these five weeks, nah..
baahaahaaa!cantik sangat lah tu.

k lah, anyways, 23rd june's that little boy guy's birthday lah.

this guy..

my obligatory photographer cum driver. heh main-main jer lah. happy 23rd, muhammad zaki!! you know i love you right. muahahahaha.

so kicks, not eating out with ehm tomorrow? you wanna date me ehhh? hurhurhur. jangan jual mahal hor.

okok time to read the handbook (yawns), pack the bag and TRY to sleep. alamak so early.

btw, wicked aura batucada was oh so wicked!and i got a new cap yay yay.

bye.
Selamat malam semua.
Selamat malam Cikgu Shikin.

my american boy

nak tahu something?

i have a *crush... la la la la la after like forever.. la la la la la

yah yah yah, you'll say he's just one of the heroes in my book of berangans.

but...he's current and he's here, like in sunny island!

he's none other than...

i scream!

you i scream!

we i scream!

for farid putra!

hey mister, you make my heart go boom boom boom. :)

p.s: will you be my american boy? (ok sebab dia like super fair, so yah, shuddap)

*celebrity crush lah ok. tapi kalau crush pun alryte per.

girls, the sex huh? yes yes, this one the sex. hands down.

suuuukeeeerrrr sekali....

what's the story

oh my food. oh my bed. oh my laptop. oh my lazyness. oh my tak kuasa.

TA is nearing... in (gasp) less than a week. gasp gasp. i don't want to go for TA. i wanna go back, to school.yes. i'm missing the err errr long breaks in between classes when we can sleep, talk crap and play games.

it's ok, if we can go through one whole year of contract, we'll go through these five weeks with ease. insyaAllah it'll be great. it better be. i better make it good and worthwhile. no smiling. unleash the biatch. rawr.

heh. i'm terrified of weighing machines right now. the scale, it's depressing. and it's not as if i'm doing something about it. oh yes, i do 100 crunches every night, like i thought i did em but it's all hallucinations. oh and i jogged and do sports too.

realistically, i've been having supper every night. like real good food. had prata pisang tadi at midnight. yummay. had carousel (met baby and diva HAHA) on sat. super good and lotsa food at sembawang park and yishun dam with the girls on friday. i look pregnant in a dress already. oh wells. sleep with a full tummy. like literally and figuratively. future mom-in-law geleng kepala.

i need to save up. so many plans to get out of the country. kalau jodoh datang, lagi shocking.tup tup dah nak kahwin, duit datang dari mana kan? dah lah tu, the land of smiles' calling me again. nah i'm not getting married there. =) sudahlah shikin kau jangan nak berangan.

did i tell you TA's less than a week away?urgh.

i feel like kay-el, 16th august. indo bands concert. oh me gawd. i should go right? i should!

mraz is coming. i must go. i must!

and i heard Search's coming too. fantasia bulan maduuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.... pheeeeweeeet!

and TA's in less than a week.

and you should seriously take time off from your projects lah. ask me out already!

ahaha.

few more days.

urgh.

bye.

orang kenyang selalu berbual merepek.
merepek kerepek.

anyways...

alamak.
this sucks much.
nobody said it's gonna take a turn.
dang.
it has got to be just one of those days.
have to.
just one of those days.

anyways,
i miss mosi
and whatever we can do there.
hur.

anyways,
happy birthday ZAH!
happy birthday AQIL!
love you both much!

anyways,
imy.
like kerayzee.

just one of those days.

p.s:james mcavoy.adoi.

say 'prune!'

macam super sanuk

Sawadeeka!i'm back me loves, ok actually i've been back since last saturday, was just too tired and of course, lazy to blog.

anyways, i had a great time!

first and foremost, it was refreshing coz i went with a bunch of people whom i don't know, and only get to meet at the airport itself. excluding my cousin of course. but all turned out great!

i love love love Pattaya. the people, the late nights, the damn good fish, the communication barrier, the water activities, the supergerek gokart and penatnakmampos paintball. for the record, those were my virgin attempts and i think i rocked. HAHA. tepuk buat shikin. terima kasih semuanyer.

BKK next. totally not helping that cash was seriously low. and of course i had post pattaya syndrome (we all had it actually). the last 2 days were so carefree and relaxing and suddenly it's back to somewhatsingapore's hectic and fast paced lifestyle again. cheaper stuff, yes. traffic.. gawd! and the shopping, i swear you'll go crazy. save up people!

i (cannot) aim (for) nuts

and they said i looked thai. boolehh lah.

met darling sue at MBK whom i think is losing weight by the minute. sue, eat more please. shikin, very conscious attempt to cover perut. smart move.

abang tuktuk, tangan, i 'pok' baru tahu eh.

anyways, went JB with da phatmily and mom's side for some memakcik shopping for kerepek and kain. and..one week's worth of superyummy seafood. nak kena liposuction, that's it.

oh we had fun by our own. =D

and i get to meet the hottie at tebrau. finally! discounted drinks some more. hoho.

mat starbucks paling hensem kat jaybee

ok goodnight.

love much.

p.s:nak belikan i mash potatoes popeyes?

eloping, for a while

loves, i'll be back on saturday morning.
till then, have fun too!

sayang, you'll do great.

hurhurhur.

oh the talent

right, go catch kiky's blog here for some super cool poppin! and check this out too

nice or what! hehe

and to think he's a lawyer, (=smart), articulate, can dance like crazy and not bad looking either! Diva, amacam?

hady mirza tak dapat you take suleman mirza?

do not settle for muthu,please.

i love much

sheesha was great. i miss you girls truckloads. we'll always have each other, insyaAllah.

to you,

you have no bloody right.

sudahlah!

oh sleep
you're so selfish
why do you come and go as you please?
the eyes call you when lids are heavy
the body craves you when it lies all comfy
the mind all ready with memories so pretty
but sleep
you skipped me
why do you come and go as you please?


p.s:aku tak boleh tidur lah..

urgh.

i lost something. and everybody in the whole world can only say

"oh i saw it last at so and so"

i fcuking know that.
thank. you.

and then it takes only that to make you realise that you can only depend on your own ass to survive.

gawd!

knafdihfwejfoiweydiwebfwjfpoiwhfweoweyfoewbfwncwkyioypoka!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

on a more cheerful note,

happy 22nd divo! i miss you much too :)

goddammit

today spells serenity. ok delete the fact that i can't sleep, but somehow still managed to wake up late. gawd. the body clock's all wrong. but it's ok coz i was awaken by aqil's smiles. i think he's the cutest baby.ever.

'aqil shaayaaanggg :)'

so i went to national library. chose some books and started drowning myself in one. "The English Teacher" by R.K. Narayan. Was giggling in some parts, not succumbing to the stomach that was seriously growling lah. dah bonch pun asyik nak mintak makan jer! biasa eh?!

the book was pretty good until it reached an anticlimax. well, to me, at least. read: wife died. man received letter. wife "communicated" with someone to write letters to man.

that was it lah. i mean if it's something like p.s. i love you, i'd continue reading. but once i knew it was some spirit thingy, naahh i just flipped through the remaining pages. but if u like these kinda unsur-unsur magis, you should read it. could be prettay interesting.

after which, made my sis and mom come down to bugis and had swensens for dinner. everything was oh so fine and peaceful until these 2 girls had to enter and piss the hell out of me.

they had to talk damn loudly lah. and guess what? they were talking in bimbotic-ala-zaman- 'clueless'-manner-heavily-accented-with-macam-paham-good-english.

turn off. seriously, turn off.

and they went on and on and on. they were seated right beside us by the way. i had to stop eating, put down my fork and knife and literally covered my ears, mouthing "shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up". but they still went on and on and on.

i poked my eye and was about to bite my fingers already coz the pain of hearing their conversations ("omg i look so pretty today") was far more excruciating then causing harm to myself.

so i just had to do it.

i waited to spot any errors they might make. until the magical moment came. their orders were made. oooh they giggled annoyingly and loudly too i must add. i could have pulled all my hair. then they ordered

'butterscosh'

enuff said.

BAHAHAHA!

please.save.me

i.am.officially.bored.out.of.my.thick.unruly.hair.and.skull.
i.am.jaded.
i.can.stare.at.walls.for.a.long.time.
i.can.play.songs.on.repeat.mode.forever.
the.people.i.annoy.are.used.to.it.already.DAMMIT.
are.you.beginning.to.bore.me.or.am.i.just.asking.for.much.
too.much.more.
diam.lah.shikin.

ok enuff annoyance. i think it's time for ME time! apa?
ME time!

ooh do u know who hot hot heat is?

wel.. they're only like....the funkiest band ever.

thanks, you. i'll indulge in you next.

goodnight goodnight.

ps:lebih baik korang jangan layan.

capuccino.sastera.congkak

do you know how happening mosi was yesternight? mesti sebab ada david cook. (HAHA). so the Mean-ah lepaked with the Gee-kie and the Ro-kokker. great fun. dorang reminisce pasal zaman hot stuff dorang. hoho. whereas me, people watching da whole time and gawd were there beautiful people yesternight. :) so i'm contented.

saw mr white-T-blondehair-i-want-your-brain-you-sexy-you. not at Mosi though. but oooh ooh oohh :)

met omar at mosi. who made a face when i told him i'm taking malay. "But you're a Literature student!"..."yah, now i'm taking malay literature?".. "ppffffftttt" ahahaha. nah i'm not angry. sometimes i wonder why too. but i love everything about it, so it's fine. but if i may add, more eyecandies there please? aaaaaah but that's a whole different thing altogether.

anyways, this is random. could you ever get turned on seeing a guy smoke? oh me god i swear i did yesternight. there was just something about that pale white druggy look and nak kena tumbuk sideburns and those koyak rabak jeans that's soo soo orgasmic. and the sight of him sucking that ciggie, and exhaling the smoke oh so smoothly, it was as if time suddenly went 987586272075 times slower. yes. aku tak bedek. i could just stare at him puffing away all night long. he is by far, the closest thing i can get to an epitome of a sex symbol, here, in singapore. and i had my moment.

must be the humid weather.

oh we watched congkak too. seriously, kids boobs. i have no idea why they kept saying it's much better than jangan pandang belakang. gosh, at least bila tgk JPB, i was scared seh nak balik. ni, taik hidung masin tol. but the sound effects was cool ah. furthermore, i kept hearing "shhhiikkkiinn... shhiikkiiinnnn" and felt like hands poking and touching me. now THAT was really scary. really. riigghht.

dah. my hair's great annoyance this moment. i might just cut it short. like real short. agyness deyn short. but that's her. freaking hot. and she doesn't have pau-cheeks to boot. HA. we'll see how. let's just wait and see.

me: abang, belikan aku bf shirts. need em for practicum.
abang: papa kan ada banyak.

that.is.so.typical.of.shaifudin.

ok! bull.much.

love. much.

bye!

of white and pick-up lines

we've been kay-eled!

hello my dearests, i'm back from Kay-el! as usual, it's always grreeaatt! we laughed a lot actually, especially when we wanna checkout. That's a classic moment right there. and it's always nice to be somewhere, laughing your ass off at every single thing, pretending to take on a whole new image and well, bargaining at petaling. Aha.

Talking about Petaling Street, Uncle Mahsyuk says Hi to you people. aha. Dia macam paham jer kenal and ingat aku. But it's ok. He asked for you guys and kept saying aku cun(?!) jadi, it's forgiveable (HA..HA). Auntie's not there though, went to Thailand to visit her family, i'm guessing to stock up on those shades. (HA..HA).

Uncle cakap .. 'mahhhsyyuukkkkk'

Oh friends, i didn't get anything for anyone kays. Wasn't really planning on spending/shopping. Tapi duit tetap habis. Nak tahu kenapa? Sebab aku bawak balik perut buncit dan pipi tembam. Serious.

Oh you know we played this duaposen love test machine. guess what?
i'm dead fish.
hur.hur.hur.
what's dead fish?
ooh it's only ...the worst of the lot.(!)
hur.hur.hur.
celaka punya mesin.
sungguh menjengkelkan.
hur.hur.hur.

and what else?

had the bestest tasting tom yum at Bonser Corner at around 2 in the morning. Damn nice. and ada pakcik nyanyi lagi. lagu Mr Big. wow. suara memang oomph. tom yum memang delicious. and we kept singing Wild World throughout our stay. Best. HAHA.

made friends along the way. not inclusive of the mama jakun. gosh. there's Ahmad (Muhammad Hatta?) from Sabah, who's none other than the errrr chef specialising in omelette-making in the hotel. nice chap. "Hati-hati ya bila pulang." hehe.

and who can forget, pujaan hati ramai wanita. presenting, Iqbal from Indonesia. :) :) :)

"Ganteng ya kamu?"

and the rest is history.

:)

ok dah. i hope zah's 4 days of food's finally out of her body. very unhealthy! haha.

by the way, full body massage was ooh soo sedap.

and i miss blading. let's go!

love much,

shikin.

hey, you cried 'wolf' already

kelakar-seram, but enjoy sakan

p.s.number 1: Asri kat belakang, dia bowl dari jarak jauh tau. and pakai bowling ball warna hijau. ada gaya, tapi performance, oh-kay lah. but semestinya, lebih baik dari aku.

p.s.number 2: daniel is the one taking the photo. initially, he didn't know how (to take a photo, yes, tell me about it). race: indian, height: tall, wearing specs. interest:maybe dvamaumati (coz they always play side by side, can't be coincidence all the time,right?)

one: your lies ooh your lies are going to eat you.

two: do not even bother to try it, again.

three: who am i? who are you? who are they? what are we? but lets continue.

four: different worlds. different opinions lah babe.

five: david cook and andrew cook = yummay X 2

six: my yahoo mail kept winning the lottery. annoyance. pfft.

seven: jason mraz's 'butterfly'. oooooooooooooooooooooooohh jason, tsk tsk tsk. listen, you'll know what i'm talking about.

eight: "i'll never let your head hit the bed without my hand behind it" ooooo JOHN! john mayer -your body is a wonderland. nope, not mine (NYAHAHAHA). jennifer love hewitts'. yup. but sexy song.

nine: my laptop is lagging like nobody's business. snail start-up speed. please don't die. i need you.

ten: sunday is coming. real soon. s.e.x.c.i.t.e.d.b.a.n.g.e.t.

okay. i so cannot think of what else to write. very random aye?

before i end,

Y: anyway after you come back KL, can we all meet?

X: you rindu me rrriiigghhhttt?

Y: shuddap..

by the way, shuddap means.. Yes.

HAHA.

i'm soo missed. and you're going to miss me more seh. confirm. (macam paham)

muay thai so hawt.

bye!

busok kiss satu.

bukan rayuan gombal

how excited can moms be on mother's day? seriously, kalau ada anugerah mak-paling-excited-nak-dapat-presents, my mom menang, hands down. even papa noticed and commented "apesal ngan mak korang nie happy sangat?" AHAHA i love mama, and papa too.

HAHA!!! papa tgh impersonate i have no idea what. and i told you mom's excited.

and this girl who better love me because of volcom. and also because i am the best. you better. more than travis barker.

anyways, i am so sexcited. kay-el is confirmed! oh my god i can feel the gerekness already. yay yay! yay yay!!

by the way, hari ni macam a lot of very impromptu plans. which happens way better than bila we have expectations, trust me. walked to and fro only to return to arab st, yet again.

and we (kham + zah + me) lepaked at mosi, as usual. tibak, whom i'm calling romeo from now on (waduh gombal deh kamu) is just soo friggin funny lah. nice chap. cute too. zah's in love (for the 7362357th time).

i think i'm getting prettay tired of sheesha. fenings. oh me god, am i for real? ahahahks.

and to top it off, went home with gondol. why? because he misses me.HAHA. k fine lah. aku lah aku lah. sikit jer.

i think i'm going to die of potato overload.

much love,

shikin

:)

godforsaken right

so where shall i start?

can i start by telling the world how happy i am today? yeah i'm happy. sebabnya? adalahhhh.. :) :) :)

first and foremost, i finally completed "What is the what". LOVE it. as you know, i luurrvee books like this. biographies/autobiographies.. inspirational..survival.. u get my drift. i think valentino achak deng's a real hero. he kinda symbolize true will and perseverence, to move on, to live, to be better and everything. Bagus sekali. ooh read about him people, here. tabik tantawi style. aku kalau nampak dia aku peluk. bukan general, tapi valentino. :)

then then, me and Zah watched Ayat-ayat cinta! ahhh yes. personally, i'd prefer the book. some significant events were cut. but i enjoyed the movie. oh so much i cried buckets. hingus and everything. very good. macam nak tengok lagi. nak tengok with me? nanti i wipe my tears hingus on your baju. ;P and it was weird as it seemed that only the both of us were sobbing. takde perasaan ke korang yang lain? and no prize for guessing who was ooohiingg and ahhiingg and hyperventilating the whole time. hint: not me.

go catch it peeps, maybe the fact that i read the book already made it difficult to enjoy the movie fully, nonetheless, it's still beautiful. really. :)

ooh lepas tu met up with Rabz, Chewy, Liza! best!! just blabbering nonsense. poking fun at each other. Chewy's getting married next year! and Rabz's getting married tomorrow. right. love! :)

welcome back, you! :)

p.s: big clash eh dengar-dengar? sexciting!

much love,
shikin

memakcik

alkisah 2 makciks pergi geylang, joochiat, TKC. kedai jamu lagi kau! gi geylang pun si dua makcik ni boleh beli buku. wow, we amaze ourselves sometimes.

kebelakangan hari ni asyik pening jer kepala. the weather. the unhealthy reading whilst lying down. the reading and napping and waking up to read again. the asal boleh time nak makan aku makan. the tidur lambat bangun confirm lagi lambat. ultimate un-anak-dara behaviour seh. oh wells~

i need to do something productive. hmmm maybe i should start cleaning that mess-of-a-room. maybe tomorrow? ooorrr maybe not.

eh if you were to ask me right this moment, whether i miss you or not, i'll prolly say yes.
or then again, maybe not.

friday jumpa old school besties. best tak? best kan??!

k tengok nie. cute gilers.

bye!
smile for me?
ahh tu dia.

p.s:General Tantawi. Belum cuba, Belum tahu!

absolutely zero

so as usual, my sunday's spent with the little tall sister. and we acted like assholes, oklah me lah, i acted like some lameass girl making jokes out of nothing at all. but we were laughing the whole time. and to think we went 3 places, walked everywhere and we can't even spot 10 cute guys. gawd. noncute boys day or WHAT? then ingat nampak ashraff sinclair, skali ashraff bopley. that just explains everything.

mom said this to me tadi.. "kau jangan nak nengnongnengnong eh. simbar airpanas nanti".

siapa nak guess what's nengnongnengnong? my sisters, korang tak yah sebok. anyone? correct answers, 10 points k. ;P

k will update when something lifechanging happens. ryte. when i feel like it.

current read: What is the what by Dave Eggers
current listen: absolutely zero. breaks the heart man, just breaks the heart.

much love,
bye!

faithfully

the secondary school sweethearts got married. alalala sweetness. time really just doesn't wait for you aye? orang dah kahwin, dah ada anak, aku masih tunggu abang anuar masuk minang. tak dapat ah, orang cakap. mungkin didicazli ada harapan sikit. yer.lah.tu.

oh we finally went to sentosa. the sun is love seh (when u need a tan lah). apparently, someone is love too. hehe. but the weather's scorching hot nowadays it just wears you off. aku baring depan kipas jer, my day is gone. pooft. just like that. time wasted doing nothing, and i'll still feel bloody tired after that.

so what plans do you have eh people? nak jumpa bro ah-jing ngan bro ti-bak from turkey lagi? i love it there. and i miss sheesha. HAH. sheesha zora jadi zorro.

ayat-ayat cinta's gonna be out (WHOOOOHOOOOOO).
library dates with yours sincerely.
breakfast @ geylang with loves.
pizza hut with gondol.
ni ultimate.. ni yang da bomb...

i might have a date with a bad boy! (screams.. faints)

HA.HA.

korang tak tahu, sebab tu korang tak ketawa.

k dah lah. nak tido mimpi fahri.
sungguh mak suka!

kau tahu kau banyak berangan bila...

Realiti

Masa lenaku hampir-hampir tamat. Aku rasa seolah-olah ada sepasang mata memerhatiku yang sedang enak tidur. Aku buka mataku lalu tersenyum melihat wajahmu begitu asyik menuntunku dari tadi. Kau ukirkan senyum sayang lalu mengucup keningku. Pagi awak, sambil membelai-belai rambutku yang kusut-masai akibat tidur nyenyak (hey, nobody's perfect). Aku menutup mataku kembali sambil tersenyum...Morning babe.

Maaf. Tu tentunya bukan realiti.

Ni baru betul!

Masa lenaku hampir-hampir tamat. Aku rasa seolah-olah ada sepasang mata memerhatiku yang sedang enak tidur. Aku buka mataku lalu ternampak wajah bengis mama. Hoi. Ewah ewah. Matahari dah naik tegak baru nak bangun eh, anak dara!

Aku menutup mataku kembali sambil tersenyum kambing .... jap lagi yer. mimpi indah belum habis.

Alah worth a thought berangan right?

sesungguhnya

so many events that happened, realistically or not, these past few days, made me ponder about.. me. about my life. and about life, in general.

that and conversations i've had with people. awake and when i'm asleep (mimpi lah, doh!) weird weird weird.

anyways, mom was super funny lah tadi. as you know, i've been romancing the novel the past few days, which to me, is one of the luxuries of life :),ahh bliss. k back to the story, mom was watching suria and they showed the post-apm thingy lah. interviews after the show. if you watched, KRU won i forgot what and they interviewed em (i love KRU btw.. ooh la la fanatik). so i jokingly said to mom,

me: ma.. orang kahwin ngan Norman sudah ma. dia sampai sekarang tak kahwin-kahwin.
as usual, mom just looked at me, really, with a tak ambil kisah nyer look.

skali, they played some kiddie story on suria and ada si abang mayuni pulak. guess what mom said?

me mom: eh mayuni? girl, kau kahwin dengan mayuni sudah.
me: HUH? mayuni!
me mom: a'ah lah, daripada kau nak ambik Norman.
me: PER JER

mama, mama, boleh layan pulak yer. HAHA.

tak kelakar eh? takpelah nak share jer.

oh guess what? i finished reading 'Ayat-Ayat Cinta'. But it's the Bahasa Melayu Edition, don't know if the real one would be more beautiful than this. The whole novel just makes me feel so daif as a Muslim. but it's nice. not much on polygamy and everything, more to love for Islam. what true love really means. cinta hamba pada Tuhan. cinta suami pada isteri. cinta isteri pada suami. cinta pada kawan-kawan.confirm terkesan. confirm. cannot cannot cannot wait for the movie!

"Cinta sejati dua insan berbeza jenis adalah cinta yang terjalin setelah akad nikah. Iaitu cinta kita pada pasangan hidup kita yang sah. Cinta sebelum menikah adalah cinta semu yang tidak perlu disucikan dan diagung-agungkan"

~Ayat-ayat Cinta

if you think Ruzgar Kamal Suleyman's da man of ur dreams. wait till you "meet" Fahri Abdullah Shiddiq.

i'm in love

ketika ku bersujud

:)

toko warisan

i like definitely, maybe. aku tahu, i we're like the last two to watch it lah. not really, actually, tadi masih ramai. back to that, banyak awww quotes. i think it's nice lah. the message behind it and everything. but the fact that it might take years just sucks doesn't it. "not who, but when" might just have to agree with that ;P

i got the book. come 8th may, i'm ready. happy and ready. thank you seh toko warisan, tak yah gi jauh-jauh nak beli.

don't mind me. the next few days, i'll drown myself in not one, but 2 malay novels.

wow. if only i was this enthusiastic for sastera.

much love. :)
nak join?
we'll just sit beside each other and read.

cukup cukup oh cukuplah

explain to me again why i am so bloody fcuked up over this matter?

oh yah.

it has been happening time and time again.

that's it?

no?

right. because you actually bothered to do all that.
Albeit all your complaints and rantings.

wow.

there should be more right?

yes.

because you went back on your words.
whatever you said and whatever you did,
tak sama langsung,
tak sama.

what does that show?

that you're an asshole?

that i'm a bigger asshole for actually giving you so many chances?

goddammit.

aku cuma tahu for now aku bingit dengan kau,
aku bingit dengan perangai kau.
aku bingit dengan aku.

i should seriously stop giving a damn about you right now.

ok cool it.
let go.

i BETTER have fun later.
but the fact remains,
you're still an ass.

and i am stronger than this.
i know.

the square root of three

people, boleh smell that? that's the scent of freedom. yes, freedom. kau boleh nampak aku senyum? best eh? nak gi dating? aku ada 2 bulan. jom? hoho.

sorry yer, aku punya suka lah aku nak buat apa.

Anyways, sebab aku suka, kami gi tengok OAG. by kami i meant me, diy, shah, bonzo bas, kiky, kiky's handsome friend (sempat!), awal, adik, mirah. and OAG was beautifool. aishah yang cuma tahu satu lagu (ok more to dia ber oh oh oh all the way) pun lompat-lompat. eeehh wait seminit, aishah memang selalu lompat-lompat kan? oh wells. but seriously, they were suuuperr great lah. best best, tak rugi pergi, rugi tak pergi.

then after that we watched harold and kumar. i never laughed that loud in the cinemas before seh. and that poem, adoi, sweet kan. and it's true what kumar said "some girls find intelligence sexy". ah, nampak aku tgh angkat tangan and waving my hand frantically? yes, i'm one of those girls. and yes, for this one i'm referring to mr-yellow-T-blonde hair-i-want-your-brain-you-sexy-you.

err did i just say that? wow. what's happening to me. hornified?

naah. i'm always like this. yes. :) aaahh you, self-denial? everybody knows.

oh anyways, go catch harold and kumar. M18 (ya right - atas bawah nampak.. dahsyat). rugi tak tengok, tak tengok rugi. (the movie, not the atas bawah)

what else can i selitkan here? ooh i heard rihanna's 'take a bow', very nice. i think it's for you. :)

k dah cukup membebel. bye. addooiiiii!

if i give my heart to you
i must be sure
from the very start
that you will love me
more than her

ps: diy nyer gate tak leh bukak semalam. hurhurhur.

oh bobo bobo

Why, then, O brawling love! O loving hate!
O any thing, of nothing first create!
O heavy lightness! serious vanity!
Mis-shapen chaos of well-seeming forms!
Feather of lead, bright smoke, cold fire, sick health!
Still-waking sleep, that is not what it is!
This love feel I, that feel no love in this.

~Romeo

aku rasa macam aku ni walking oxymoron. tak lah se-serious dan se-emo si Mat Romeo tu.

kau tengok, aku ngantuk/kantuk, tapi aku tak boleh tido. aku tahu aku kena belajar, tapi, aku terlalu malas nak bukak buku. aku tahu masa suntuk, tapi aku tak endah. aku dah semakin tembam (yes yes i know.. gawd! stop rubbing it in!), tapi aku tak boleh stop makan. aku cakap NEXT!, tapi bila kau sms, aku tersengeh-sengeh pulak. heeeeeeeee

macam mana eh? entahlah. manusia, manusia.

aku tahu macam ada banyak benda nak luahkan, tapi aku rasa, setakat di sini ajalah.

ANYWAYS, happy 50th superman/oldman/pops!

sayang papa!

sayang shikin?

biasa jugaaak..

sayang korang!

bye!

ps: nak kuih pau? potong pipi aku please? please ah.